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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited February 2011

    I don't know what to day, the outpouring of support from all of you is overwhelming - thank you!!!  Yep, this disease sucks!!!!!    Guess I'll need to have a good party before starting chemo (again). 

    I talked to my boss, his boss and the CEO/President of the company came down to tell me that they will work with me and give his support as well.  My office is fantastic and I feel so blessed to have the support I do, not only from my co-workers, but the "big guys" as well.

    I think I've made a decision, but am considering a second opinion just to hear what another doctor might say.  Pure/Jenn - thank you for the name, I will look her up after I post here.

    (((hugs))))

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  • kathleen1966
    kathleen1966 Member Posts: 793
    edited February 2011

    I don't know what to say.  I am saddened that breast cancer sends us on this journey, during which we have no idea what will happen, what to expect.  All we want to do is be there for our children and they are all we think about when we worry about the what -if's.  My husband always says if "it"comes back then we will fight it. I know there are soo many women who are fighting this disease and winning with stability or NED.  And every year that goes by with this stability is another year a new drug may be discovered. There is always hope. So what I am wishing for you is a hope for the future and that you may be surrounded by those you love during this very, very difficult time.

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  • Gitane
    Gitane Member Posts: 1,885
    edited February 2011

    We are holding your hand, cyber-wise.  Strength, patience, and love.      (((Jenn)))

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  • PinPDX
    PinPDX Member Posts: 43
    edited February 2011

    Oh Jenn, those dang noodles (I will imagine them turning to mush...)  I know what you mean about telling the kids being the worst part, but they will always surprise you with how resilient and strong they are.  Once you get that conversation over with, you can then totally focus on YOU.  Someone wise told me after my first breast cancer to try to stay in the moment and take each moment and be present and not think about all the "what ifs".  It can be hard but I found that "one day at a time" was helpful.  We are all here for you, 

    XXOO 

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  • KerryMac
    KerryMac Member Posts: 3,529
    edited February 2011

    Jenn, just letting you know I am thinking about you.

    I know you will be having some tough conversations and decisions in the next little while. But remember, you are tough too. And I know you will get through.

    Hope you are doing OK. 

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  • Betterwannabe
    Betterwannabe Member Posts: 153
    edited February 2011

    Thinking of you, and praying for comfort, and God's healing hand to touch you all ladies fighting with cancer...

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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited February 2011

    Thank you for your support, it mean so much to me, more than word can say.

    Telling people is hard.  I will say that today was much better at the office than yesterday - I actually got work done :).  The news is out and my friends and co-workers see that I am doing okay........... We'll leave on Saturday to head up to my daughter's college to talk to her.  I know that will be hard, she was worried sick last time and is a caretaker by nature, not being here will be hard for her.  I really need to relay to her that her continued education is what matters the most to me.  She is thriving where she is and as all parents know, when our children are happy we're happy.

    Again, thank you for your support and friendship. 

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  • kimber3006
    kimber3006 Member Posts: 586
    edited February 2011

    Just popped in tonight to see how you were doing.  You've been on my mind and in my prayers.  I hope things go better than you expect this weekend.

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  • Octobergirl
    Octobergirl Member Posts: 334
    edited February 2011

    Jenn,  I'm sending a cyberhug and good thoughts as you steady yourself for your important weekend trip. I know there will be hard moments but I hope there are some sweet moments for you too...the bittersweet moments in this cancer journey have sometimes brought me strength and understanding when I needed it most.

    Molly 

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  • Betterwannabe
    Betterwannabe Member Posts: 153
    edited February 2011

    Thinking of you! Nothing I can say will make it any better, I just want you to know that I have been praying or you!

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  • PinPDX
    PinPDX Member Posts: 43
    edited February 2011

    Also just checking in, Jenn.  Hope the weekend will have some bright spots.  Knowing you (well, from what I can tell...) I think there's a good chance of that.  

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited February 2011

    Jenn, I just have been skimming thru everything here on StageIII forum because I've just been soooo lazy about getting on the computer and communicating.  But I do need to stay connected to my sistas here, and I have just read all of the history about what you have been going thru, and OMG I am so sorry I missed this. I am so sorry that you have gone thru all this and I have not commented until now.  Please know you are in my prayers and in my heart.

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    Barb

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  • Betterwannabe
    Betterwannabe Member Posts: 153
    edited February 2011

    God Bless! I pray you are having a good day....

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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited February 2011

    I love my BCO sisters - we so get each other!!!!!  Thank you.

    Barb - no need to apologize, I've done the same thing many times.  Somehow or another I manage to miss something and then days later can't figure out how I missed it.......chalk it up to chemo brain.

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited February 2011

    Jenn, just focus on you and your family rightnow and what will be best for you and your treament.We are all here for you.

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    Barb

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  • Beverly11
    Beverly11 Member Posts: 443
    edited February 2011

    Jenn3 - praying for healing.  I have been following your posts and am shocked to hear of the mets.  But, as chainsawz (and others) wrote - there is lots of hope. 

    Telling our families is so tough!  My heart goes out to you.

     Hugs,

    Bev

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  • amlg1
    amlg1 Member Posts: 596
    edited February 2011

    Jenn..so sorry you have to face this crap again,know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.We are always here for you.

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  • bevin
    bevin Member Posts: 1,902
    edited February 2011

    Dear Jenn-  Sending prayers and thoughts of strength. I am truly sorry to hear of your progression. Best wishes

    Bevin 

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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited March 2011

    I have finally told everyone - I think.  It is so hard telling family, friends, co-workers, clients, etc.  I told a client/friend today and she just broke down............it hurt me to tell her as much as it hurt telling my family. 

    On the upside, while talking to my SIL she told me about a friend of hers who has been Stage IV, with mets to the lungs and spine for 5 years - she runs marathons!!!! Wow!!! Impressive, I want to be her.  So......for all of you runners, avid skiers, bikers and in general regular exercise ladies, keep it up.

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  • Pure
    Pure Member Posts: 1,796
    edited March 2011

    Jenn your amazing...You life me up:)

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  • Claire_in_Seattle
    Claire_in_Seattle Member Posts: 4,570
    edited March 2011

    Jenn...... praying for you too.  I can't imagine how hard it was for you to tell everyone.

    I intend to keep exercising.  For one thing, it keeps me sane and focused.  The exercise winner, however, is the Stage IV patient my study nurse said was cycling to her chemo last year.  And yes, she was doing well.

    Something to think about.  We're all here pulling for you. - Claire

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  • ktn
    ktn Member Posts: 181
    edited March 2011

    Jenn~ I want to add my support too. This is all so hard! I was once told by someone who headed an oncology clinic to take a cancer diagnosis once step at a time. She said too often we jump to seeing 'the end". We need to deal with what is at hand right now. At the time my mom had been diagnosed with stage IV lymphoma. Her first 2 rounds of chemo didn't work but then a new drug was available and it basically cured her....that was 12 years ago and she is doing great in her mid 70's! Once you have a plan in place for treatment you will feel more in control again. You have many prayers and good wishes coming your way!

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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited March 2011

    I took today off from work because I just felt like everything was spinning out of control and I needed to stop and just sit in my PJ's for a day and relax - well 1/2 day, I'm getting a root canal this afternoon.  Since my dx I have had my plate full with telling everyone, researching the different chemo and trial options, decisions, staying strong, etc.......... I woke up this morning and told DH, I just can't go to work, not today.  My boss offered my time off last week and I said no, I wanted to come to work, now I need a day or two to take a step back and get my head back in the game. 

    So....for today I will sit in my PJ's, drink coffee watch a little mindless television, take a long hot bath, get a root canal, come home and lounge a little more.

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  • Claire_in_Seattle
    Claire_in_Seattle Member Posts: 4,570
    edited March 2011

    Hi Jenn,

    At least you will feel a lot better after your root canal is done.  I was in agony before the one I had.  Hopefully, you are not at that point yet.  Hang tough.

    Good luck today. - Claire

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited March 2011

    Good idea, Jenn.  Wear your comfy clothes have some comfy food and watch some mindless TV.  Enjoy your day.

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    Barb

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  • Lowrider54
    Lowrider54 Member Posts: 2,721
    edited March 2011

    Jenn...I am so sorry it turned out to be lesions - but they can be knocked back!  I am really glad you took the day...and good heavens, you are doing so well...I was such a basket case when I got dx'd with mets - well, I was going for my 10 still good to go checkup and I think that is what was such a shocker - and I went on my birthday no less - the next 3 months were mindless and full of tears, tests, more tests, more opinions, treatment and on it went - I so pray you get things rolling and get to NED real fast...it can happen! 

    And just yuck on the root canal - just had one of those too.  If they are going to give you Zometa or Aredia for the bone mets - it is good to have it done now - I had to come off the Aredia for 3 months in order to have mine done due to the potential of jaw issues.  Be sure they know as they may delay the start of the bone strengthener so you won't have issues.

    Be sure to put plenty of bubbles in the bath and act like a kid...I love the 'laugh until your belly hurts, then laugh some more...' 

    Hugs and sending healing karma your way...LowRider

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  • chainsawz
    chainsawz Member Posts: 3,473
    edited March 2011

    My first three months were rough - I seemed to sob like crazy in the shower so I stopped wanting to get in there.....thank goodness that faze passed and I could take a normal shower...stinky!!.  This is all about adjusting and it is not easy, but it will happen. 

    I take days and hang out in my pj's and watch trash tv....it helps me feel better and get a step back.  Do what you need for your self sistah!! 

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  • PinPDX
    PinPDX Member Posts: 43
    edited March 2011

    Jenn,

    Yea for PJ days!!!!  You absolutely deserve one and I am so glad to see you took it.  Enjoy the moments, especially after the root canal.  And take that pain medication if you need it - it's no time to be "tough"...  Thinking of you. 

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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited March 2011

    Awwww....thank you!  I so needed today to relax and not try to work and take care of business at home. Mentally I am feeling so much better today, which I so needed.  My mouth is still numb from the root canal, but I have to say this endodontist that I went to was really good, the office is decorated beautifully, super clean, modern and the entire staff is extremely friendly.  Dental experiences are not fun, but this has been the best one I've ever had.  Oh....and I got another pen to add to my collection of pens.  I am such a pen addict. 

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  • KerryMac
    KerryMac Member Posts: 3,529
    edited March 2011
    Jenn, happy you had a nice day, even though it involved the dentist!  Hope they gave you some of the good drugs...Wink
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