Meltdown

You were way overdue! All of us have meltdowns at one time or another. There is a thread on here about depression- titled Great Saying about depression - the saying- depression is not a sign of weakness but a sign that have you been strong for too long. I am still dealing 2 years out from dx. But I haven't had a bc related meltdown in awhile.

Hang in there!  Yes, definitely over due!  Thank God for wonderful husbands!

XOXOXO

I need and want a meltdown desperately....just can't make it happen....so I say good for you to be able to get it out....((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))

I haven't even had surgery yet and I am melting down all the time.........you mean it isn't going to stop after surgery either?  (LOL!).  My poor husband is out of things to say, but he holds me and just rubs my back or arm....it means a lot. 

Yes, Pegpro, I feel that way and it sucks. I'm also 7 wks.out from rads. Had my 1st ever PET/CT scan which was clear. Thank God. But did find out I'm BRCA2+ . Will this journey ever end?? It is hard after treatment ends. There's the big, silent, what now?? Folks tell me it gets better. I'm still waiting. 

As for me, I'm onto removing my ovaries and tubes and bilat. mastectomy.  The fun continues.

Rachel 

Dear Horse-n,

Just writing to give you a little support.  Your dx is a lot like mine and I did have the bilateral mastectomy last August.  The build up to the surgery was brutal--I was mainly just angry at everyone and everything.  It's a big surgery so give yourself a lot of permission to go a little crazy.  In retrospect, I tried to hold it together, even after the surgery and didn't give myself enough time to just "be sick."  I acted all strong and invincible and that was just stupid, however, it kept my energy up and kept me fighting.  Slowly but surely it caught up until I felt pretty crazy (and probably acted that way too!)  The emotional healing is different from the physical healing--it goes like a roller coaster instead of a straight line.  There are great days, bad days, and just plain *%^#@ days!  If you're having a bad day give yourself permission to check out of ALL responsibility that you can possibly leave behind.  Tell yourself "I'm sick and I deserve to pamper myself today."  My bad days are slowly getting fewer.  Some days I just have to be a b-----, and then forgive myself afterward.  Good luck with your surgery and everyone here can help.  And remember, stress is not good for your healing process so get as much stress out of your life as you can.  (I know--easier said than done!!)

horse-n-around- do have someone else do your horse for quite a long time.  It will decrease the chance of lymphedema. You don't want to get Lymphadema.  LE and riding don't mix well.  Make sure your surgeon knows you ride.  It changes where to put the incision line and the possible "dog ear" equation. Pm if you need more info.

flash