3 years today

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DCMom
DCMom Member Posts: 624

OK so today makes 3 years.  Yipee.  I thought I would feel thrilled, but instead I feel like I am on a ships plank and am just making my way closer to the end.  What the heck?

I have my 6 month follow up next week and I really think I want to insist on some follow up scans just to breathe better about where I'm at.  Am I crazy for wanting to take this plunge.

Well any way my kids are both 3 years older and I have had a wonderful time watching them grow.  Selfishly I just want it to be a LOT longer.  

It is through God I am healed and I will put all my faith in him.  Looking forward to happier posts as all of you make this milestone and more.

Susan 

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  • KerryMac
    KerryMac Member Posts: 3,529
    edited January 2011

    Susan, Congratulations!!

    Three years is awesome, and a major milestone.

    Here's to much, much, much more time enjoying those kids of yours.

  • weesa
    weesa Member Posts: 707
    edited January 2011

    Congratulations on three years! I am struck by how similar our diagnoses are, and how much I felt like you did at three years. Now that I'm going on  9 years, I have to admit the evidence is starting to accumulate that all is well.

    My onc won't scan me just to allay my anxiety.Hope yours is sympathetic to your desire to breath easier.

    It's not selfish to want to watch your kids grow up!

  • faithfulheart
    faithfulheart Member Posts: 544
    edited January 2011

    Susan,

    Three years, thats AWESOME!!!  I really don't know when you start counting. Would it be when treatment is over.  Would it be after surgery? All I know is  it's a few years off for me, so I am sooooo

    happy for you. I want to see my kids get older and older too. Thanks for the inspiring post!!!

    God has healed you!!!!

    Faithful

  • diana50
    diana50 Member Posts: 2,134
    edited January 2011

    susan

    three years is a big milestone.  i am doing the happy dance for you.  i don't get scans unless my blood work looks weird or if i have some pain or other symptoms.  wanting them to take a look is pretty much a normal feeling especially within the first 2-4 years because you want to be "sure"  however, those scans especially the ones with injections of stuff aren;'t good for the kidneys. my onc said; "you are going to be around a long time and you want your kidneys working"  emotionally the whole "after treatment life"  is a time of adjustment.,..acceptance...taking care of your self..(exercise and food) and moving into your life. you are doing great****

    congrats*

  • kimber3006
    kimber3006 Member Posts: 586
    edited January 2011

    Susan - Congrats - three years is wonderful!  Here's hoping you get to see your grandchildren grow up! 

    Faithfulheart - My onc assured me (again) today that the scariest time is the first 2 years and we're over half way through it now!

  • Bugs
    Bugs Member Posts: 1,719
    edited January 2011

    Congrats on your 3 year!  Yes, celebrate it!  I sometimes feel the same way with my 5 year coming up.  3/4 of me wants to celebrate it, 1/4 of me is looking over my shoulder.

    3 years IS a big deal...so celebrate big!

  • elmcity69
    elmcity69 Member Posts: 998
    edited January 2011

    congratulations!!! yes, as the other gals are saying: celebrate.

    anxiety is normal, but not fun. I try to give myself small moments of "freak out", then take a deep breath and look around me and say, "but i'm here today and NOW."

    hugs...

  • Gitane
    Gitane Member Posts: 1,885
    edited January 2011

    Susan,  Giant congratulations on the 3 year mark.  It's a biggie!  Getting a scan for reassurance.... I don't know.  I tend to think that a negative scan is only good for the time you are in the scanner.  Everything could change in a month.  So, I just try to put the whole scan thing out of my mind and assume I'm O.K. unless there are signs that say otherwise.  Hope you can enjoy this milestone and celebrate in your own special way.  G.

  • Let-It-Be
    Let-It-Be Member Posts: 325
    edited January 2011

    Congrats and wishing you many, many more years of health!

  • karen1956
    karen1956 Member Posts: 6,503
    edited January 2011

    CONGRATS!!!! on 3 years....I second what Bugs said....I feel the same way with my 5 year coming up....May we all grow old together.  Karen

  • YATCOMW
    YATCOMW Member Posts: 664
    edited January 2011

    Awesome, awesome, awesome.....
     
    Three years is a huge deal.....enjoy.....don't let cancer take up any more of your time.....Time to just enjoy the kids....and life!  Wishing many many more coming your way.
     
    Jacqueline 
  • SusieMTN
    SusieMTN Member Posts: 795
    edited January 2011

    Congratulations DC Mom, 3 years IS a big deal.  Wishing you many more!

  • everyminute
    everyminute Member Posts: 1,805
    edited January 2011

    3 years is big....I am excited for you but I do understand the fear.  I think part of us (or me at least) is afraid to move on because we don't want to be caught by surprise (again).  But then I think that it is kind of nice to be blissfully ignorant and just live like I am healthy and strong - because I am!

    Personally, I won't even consider scans. Sure - it would be nice to be patted on the head and told I am "fine" but I just dont want to risk hearing anything else.  I don't even get blood work done anymore.

    I am happy for you and look forward to being just as happy at your 20th, 30th and 40th cancerversary.

  • littletower
    littletower Member Posts: 333
    edited January 2011

    Good for you!!! Totally understand the anxiety combined with the joy at having lived life the past three years and watched your children grow. To echo everyone here, here's to many, many, many more!

  • DCMom
    DCMom Member Posts: 624
    edited January 2011

    Sitting crying over these posts...but when am I not near tears?  You are all so awesome.  What would I have done these past 3 years without you.  I actually chose my start date from the date I put on my profile,mx date.  There's the day I found the lump.  The day my ultrasound confirmed bad things, the day I got the biopsy, the day I got the bad news....

    OK so I chose the day of my surgery when I was told I was Cancer Free...The only day I would consider celebrating even if it takes longer to get to.

    Celebrating every day (and trying not to look over my shoulder).

    Love You and God Bless!   

    Susan 

  • JacquelineG
    JacquelineG Member Posts: 282
    edited January 2011

    Congratulations on 3 years!!! I know what you mean about the fear -- we all go through that! It's normal to feel a pang of it anytime you reach a milestone... maybe you can wait a few weeks and see if you still want those scans?

    In any case I'm very happy for you!!

    Jackie

  • caaclark
    caaclark Member Posts: 936
    edited January 2011

    Susan-

    The fear of the other shoe dropping-I completely get what you are saying....However... 3 years is great!!  Someone once told me that you have to get to 3 yrs. before you get to 5 and before you get to 10 etc. Maybe you could go out to lunch or dinner sometime this week and really celebrate? 

  • Kathleen26
    Kathleen26 Member Posts: 210
    edited January 2011

    I am thrilled for you.   I hope you really are thrilled for yourself.   I also understand the anxiety, like you're cheating your destiny and it must end soon, but there's also a lot to be hopeful for the further out you get.

    I hope for many more anniversaries for you.

  • everyminute
    everyminute Member Posts: 1,805
    edited January 2011

    DC Mom - I am going to be down in your neck of the woods to visit family (Arlington VA) - hope we can meet for a cup of coffee or a run!!!

  • allalone
    allalone Member Posts: 448
    edited January 2011

    DCMom:Congrats on being 3 years out!  Having reached where you are now, you know only too well how inspirational these anniversaries are to newbie Stage IIIs coming up behind you - so thanks for sharing your good news.

    Sorry you're undecided about whether or not to have annual scans. The peace of mind we feel when the scans are clear is priceless but the stress we endure leading up to them, and then waiting for results, is unbearable ...

    I don't know if catching a met as early as possible is as vital for survival prospects as it is for the initial bc dx... maybe someone can answer this for me because after all the stress I recently went thru with my annual scans I just dread going thru this year after year.

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