5 month follow up, nerves are getting to me!

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nwshannon
nwshannon Member Posts: 44

So here we go, after surgery, radiation and ALOT of people poking & prodding at my poor boob I am going in today for another baseline mammo and a bi-lateral MRI and I feel like I could get sick! Most of the time I am ok but other times I just sit a wonder about the dreaded BC coming back. Going back sends so many fears thru me since this is where it all started and put me thru this scary journey at age 38. Just need some positive thoughts to help me get thru all this today. Thank you ladies!

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  • pamallen
    pamallen Member Posts: 20
    edited December 2010

    nwshannon, i know you are looking for words of encouragement from others who have been there and can give you postive feed back to help ease your fears.  I just got diagnosed and can't really think about the present because all I think about is the future already.  I go for my partial mastectomy on Jan 14th, and I know they can get rid of this now, but I am sooooo scared for the future and I have not even started this whole roller coaster ride yet. 

    I was just thinking earlier I wish there were some posts on here from people who had this happen years ago and are still cancer free.

  • saby111
    saby111 Member Posts: 1
    edited December 2010

    Hi nwshannon:

    I am more then one year beyond treatment ( lumpectomy, TC 4X plus rad 7wks ). I was stage 1, 1cm and grade 3. Frecked out in the beginning but with each day and successful round of treatment I became more confident and less anxious. I did great during the treatment and I am still doing GREAT!!! YOU WILL get thru this successfully. I did have a game plan the whole time to keep me focused on health and nothing less. You can actively do things to stay healthy and strong each day and put BC behind you and move towards a new you.... stronger, wiser and healthier. Screenings are a bit nerve racking but try to remember that knowing is better than not knowing. Expect the best outcome....... you will be fine.   

    All the Best to you.   

  • BarbaraA
    BarbaraA Member Posts: 7,378
    edited December 2010

    Oh nwshannon, I just had my 6 month followup and YES it was nerve-wracking. But it is over and I am good until April. Whew. Take deep breaths and a couple glasses of wine and all will be well.

  • AlohaGirl
    AlohaGirl Member Posts: 213
    edited December 2010

    Hang in there!  I had my annual mammogram yesterday (almost 2 years after diagnosis) and even though I had an MRI over the summer that was clean, I was really stressed!  But it turned out fine!  My hope and expectation is that as we have more and more clean mammograms/MRIs under our belts they will get to be less scary.  I didn't used to get nervous going to the doctors, but I was so blindsided by the DCIS (even when they called me back from my first mammogram for additional pictures I didn't think it was a big deal), now I think I am bracing myself every time I go to the doctor, even for something minor.  I hope they give you your results right away (for the mammo at least, not sure they can do that for the MRI) so you don't have to keep worrying!!!

  • bcincolorado
    bcincolorado Member Posts: 5,758
    edited December 2010

    One of the worst things about being a woman is that we can always imagine the worst.  I had my mx in January and when I had a gallbladder attack at Thanksgiving I immediately was worried it was bc recurrance in my organs.  Sometimes our imagination gets the better of us.  Try to remain calm and remember that being pro-active is why you are alive now.

  • nwshannon
    nwshannon Member Posts: 44
    edited December 2010
    Thank you so much ladies, yeah I made it thru my follow up with the help on a few ZanaxSurprised. Great news mammo looked great and prelim MRI looked good as well but yes I will have to wait for a few days for the final review of the MRI. My tummy was in knots and when she left with the pics of the mammo to review with the Dr. I had flashbacks of the first time I was blindsided by my first mammo results of DCIS, felt like she was gone forever but when she came back with a smile all of the anxiety left me, it made the MRI a much easier experience this time. Thanks for all the wonderful support this has been a crazy 5 months soooooo looking forward to a new and improved 2011 ME :)

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