Calling all TNs

Kelli- I feel your pain. My own beloved Kerry Blue Terrier saw me through my last chemo, only to fail the very next day. I know he lingered on until he knew I was through the worst.

LAST NIGHT

I stood by your bed last night; I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today; your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today; you tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you; I smiled and said, "it's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out...then come home to be with me.
- Author Unknown

Ohhhh Kelli, I am so sorry for your loss.  Our animals are not our children, but they sure feel like it at times. I own four dogs and love them with all my heart.  All four of them stayed by my side (literally) during chemo.  It was as if they sensed I needed them.  I can't imagine not having any of them around.  I remember after losing the very first dog I had owned after moving out as adult, I came home from work, sat on the couch and watched television for weeks.  I didn't speak to anyone (except when needed) or do anything other than feel sad.  It was after several weeks of this that my neighbor came over with one of the four dogs I own now (a sweet Sheltie) that needed a home - the distraction helped me to get out of my funk as well as time. (((HUGS)))) I am so sorry and wish I could just take your pain away.

Kelli

For sure your little guy will be waiting for you in heaven with open arms.  You both are so connected and will remain connected for eternity, as both of you are connected by soul, not body.  Bodies come and go, but souls never die, they are connected to one another in eternity, I firmly believe in this.  Sending you tons of love and prayers, may God bless you at this time.

{{{{Kelli}}}}

Hi ebann - I recognise your name from some other thread - but not sure where our paths might have crossed before. Welcome to the TN thread and so sorry to hear of your mets.Please post often - we are all here to support you.

Kelli:  So sorry to hear of your loss-Our pets are like children to us and they are getting up there in age and I cannot imagine life without them.  I also know that I cannot imagine life without pets, so give yourself time to grieve.  Hugs.

HeidiToo:  Thank you for the lovely poem.  We are here in Kentucky right now so I just had to share your joke with everyone--we all had a good laugh over it.

LauraJane:  Yay!!! I am so happy that you found a great group of dr's to go to battle with.  Can't wait to hear about New York!

Kelli:  I want to add my condolences, as well.  Each dog has such a unique personality and adds so much to our lives.  I'm very sorry you lost yours, especially in this way and at this time.  Hugs.

ebann - so sorry to hear about the bone mets, but glad you've found your way to the this thread. (((hugs)))

Hope everyone is having a good day/evening.

Ebann:  So sorry to hear your story.  I read your profile.  Keep your faith.. it will see you through!  I used to operate a rescue.. ended up rescuing a few too many and kept some, but down to one dog now.  As you know, these women here are wonderful! 

kelli - so sorry to hear about your dog.  That is horrible.  I hope things get better each day. 

Yesterday, a group of us got together for a ride in a local state forest. It was the first time I'd ridden "my big guy" since I was diagnosed (though I *have* been driving my father/son pair). Here's a full-blown of us headed back in (I'm on the pinto). The trees were lovely, the weather divine. Two +  hours in the saddle... yikes! Took 4 Ibuprofen, 1 Flexirol (for my chronic stiff neck) the mandatory Rumrunner (with a side of Applebee riblets) afterwards. All followed by a 30 minute whirlpool bath and BED (6 pm, I might add ). Slept until 8 a.m. this morning! D*mn, it felt *great*!

And here, dear BC.org friends, was the *view* from that mountain:

Heidi:  The pictures are wonderful, thanks for sharing.  The one of you on the Pinto looks like a postcard!  Love the two horses together - they are certainly handsome horsies - and you look pretty damn good yourself, girl.  Whatever you're doing - keep on doing it!

Linda

Linda- Rumrunners and chocolate is my secret...