"rash" on boob pics- help?

3boys- wow- thanks.  i'm not being sarcastic, either.    I went to the dr again yesterday and they "humored me" by checking to see if this was ringworm. (it isn't) and of course they INSIST that it does NOT look like any kind of cancer.  (uh...duh?  it's rare?)  they have me set up for an ultrasound.  i'm really freaked out cause an ultrasound for this type of thing is like looking at your throat to see if you have an ulcer.  i tried to push.  i even asked for a referral to a specialist by name.  she reminded me that this is most likely nothing, and i have to jump through their hoops first.  i "get to" see my pc (not even a dermitolgist!) because he's "really experienced" with "skin conditions"....  i printed out info for the dr about IBS, reminded her that everything she's telling me was told to all the others...and i asked her for at least ONE favor if she was not going to take me seriously:  "google IBC tonight and find out what it REALLY is."  she said she would.  who knows.  I wonder how many people have had to die because of the doctors that already "know" it's not "cancer". 

by the way....are you a real person?  you're not someone trying to get me to freak out are you?  how is your cancer now?  if you were in stage 4, isn't that like....really really bad?  sorry to be blunt, i'm just in a weird frame of mind lately.  thanks...   write me back.

oh my word.  wow.  are you on FB?  i'd LOVE to get to know you more.  you seem like you've been so brave.  what else is there though?  do you have any kids?  that is probably a painfully loaded question, and i totally don't mean to stir anything up.  i hope we can connect more.  I'm Danielle, by the way.  i feel like telling my H about your msg, but i don't really think he cares.    oh well.... i'll try and get seen by someone who actually knows something.  my thing is, if i'm over-reacting and it's nothing....no biggie.  if everyone is UNDER-reacting and i ....DIE?  hmmm....epic FAIL. 

DERRRRRRRRRRR... i'm such a DORK.  of COURSE you have kids!!  "3 boys"??? DUH.  sorry bout that.  long night.

well- here's the short version for all of you:  i've been demanding to be heard, and ultimately had to pay for a biopsy myself due to it being "unnecessary to further treat with no typical symptoms of breast cancer."  (read.....REGULAR breast cancer)  i get my biopsy "results" back today from the "specialist" who told me "it's probably not IBC, because IBC starts in the NIPPLE."  yes- you read that right.  i picked my results up at the end of last week because i didn't want to wait until today (good grief!) to find out what's up.  unfortunately, the medical terminologies are beyond me.  FORTUNATELY, my aunt is a pathologist, although admittedly only "somewhat familiar" with IBC.  She DID however state (not sure if this is true) that the IBC cells are "distinctly different" than regular BC cells.  IF that is true, it is entirely possible that my "specialist"  (notice how i keep putting him in quotes? haha)  didn't tell the pathologist to SPECIFICALLY look for ibc cells, and he not finding any if he's not looking for them, said there is no breast cancer. 

 I WAS however able to see on my report that there shows inflammed cells right under my skin, and also cells that are falling apart.  they know it's NOT a fungal infection (which my gp prescribed cream for even AFTER the skin scrape came back negative), not a bacterial infection, and not a virus.  it says that it may be some sort of autoimmune disease, but they're not entirely sure.    so that's just GREAT.  (sarcasm)

 and the gp doc that would NOT refer me originally suddenly "cares" about me and wants to know my results!  (yes the results of the biopsy he would not refer me for.  makes complete sense, right?)  they were pretty much demanding my "specialist" give them the results, and thank God (once at least) for HIPA!  the base claims that since they're my medical facility, they have the right to those results!!!  (uh...>DERRRRR>>>>>NO?  anyone could say that then!)  but the biopsy office is holding strong, telling them "no referral, no results."  HA! 

(didn't i say this was the short version?- sorry!)  so i ticked off the base doctors so much (i think the truth is they realize they were wrong and could be in BIIIIIG trouble if they don't get me back "in the system") that the CHIEF OF MEDICINE of the base hospital wants to meet with me to "discuss my results".  i think i'm going to demand them put IN WRITING  that if the results show that something is indeed wrong- no matter WHAT IT SAYS IT IS, they MUST refer me to as MANY specialists as it takes to figure out the TRUE problem.  THEN and ONLY then, will i share my results.  hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

meanwhile, my "rash" is getting bigger and spreading out in an odd pattern, if you will.  when i lift up my breasts the same on each side (they're huge so i thought "what would they look like at a normal level?) and the nipple on the affected breast has inversion.  i have been having a lot of soreness and pain in that breast as well.  hope i'm not causing this from all my worry.