Triple Negative and scared.

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mamaof3bugs
mamaof3bugs Member Posts: 198
edited June 2014 in Triple-Negative Breast Cancer

I was diagnosed TN 1/22/2010, I just finished my chemo (4 DD AC and 12 weekly taxol) on Aug. 11 and I am gearing up to start my rads in late Sept.  I will be having my port taken out on Tuesday and my ovaries taken on Sept. 23.  My BRCA apt is on Sept. 7 so I am not sure what that status is.  The past week and a half I have been so depressed and scared, what if the cancer isn't gone or what if it comes back?  I just can't seem to shake it.  I have been having a lot of pain in my 'bad' breast (lumpectomy 2/16) and it scares the heck out of me.  I try to talk to my 'support' but no one understands...  I know that what I am feeling is normal but that doesn't make it any easier.  I guess I just need some understanding and maybe a little reassurance?  Thanks ladies.  xoxo, Angi

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  • chrissyb
    chrissyb Member Posts: 16,818
    edited August 2010

    Hi mama,  what you feel is oh sooo normal.  It happens to all of us when the proactive part of treatment gets near to or at the end.  The fear that you feel seems to be worse than when you were first dx'd and all the same questions rise in your mind.  Take comfort from the ffact that your onc and bs will be keeping an eye on you and will follow with tests and scans to make sure that you stay on top of everything.  Sometimes you need to reinforce the mantra of one day at a time and live that day to the fullest.  Always in the back of your mind are the words.....no-one has guarantees of longevity.......but you have an advantage.........you have learned how to take the most from every day while those who deem themselves healthy are still blissfully unaware and waste their lives.  Relax, enjoy and live in the knowlege that you are not alone....ever.

    Love n hugs to you. chrissyb

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