Little Miss Cheery...Not So Much...

First off, some hugs.  Second off, I think it is absolutely possible that you are having a stress reaction to your one year anniversary.  With internationally adopted kids, one often has bad behavior and general out of sorts-ness at the annual anniversary of the adoption.  For so many kids, the adoption itself is actually a really stressful experience that causes the body to put out stress hormones.  Those hormones can result in stress memories.  Given all that you went through, why wouldn't you have a reaction, a stress memory from what you went through?  It is possible, though, that now that you can "name" what is going on, you will be able to start feeling better.  At least for me, knowing why I am doing whatever helps me get through it.

In the meanwhile, I think you should indulge yourself.

LOL Sharon! I like the "12 steps" idea. Step one - facing the idea of having mets. Step 2 - eat chocolate. Step 3 - get drunk. And the "SS Mets" cruise line. And Lane - you are right: Mets are not for the faint of heart. Only the strongest can manage this cruise especially since it is NOT voluntary.

I'm glad to read your cheery post and that you were able to work out your aggression. Wow you have a lot of energy!! And even though they probably burned your cut up fingers, fresh tomatoes from the garden are THE BEST!!! This is the first year we didn't put in a veggie garden and I really, really miss it. Have to go to the farmers' markets for the fresh stuff.

Good for you for pulling the cancer card. I did the same thing when our furnace when out last winter. It is not trying to pull one over - it's a fact and we need air & heat. Don't ever be afraid to ask for help. It gets easier with each time you do it.

So go howl at the moon (hee-hee!) and enjoy your garden. Keep playing with the fur kid - that's always good therapy. You will be "woo-hooing" at your 2nd metiversary, and 3rd, 4th, 10th, etc.

Lane - good luck with your scans. Let us know how everything goes.

Big hugs everyone!!!

Sharon - I think these boards are like that old saying 'to get rid of your anger write a letter to the person but don't post it', except that we do post it.  Writing down and sharing our fears and concerns not only eases our mind but also has, as you say, the wonderfully uplifting effect of having people who understand and care pick us up and support us when we stumble - that is the priceless gift we all receive from being a member of this group. I agree with you, if only the world functioned like we do here ....

So Sharon . . . is this friend that helped with the gardening is the same person you wrote about in another post?  Regardless, how great that someone helped you out. And yes, we do have to figure something out about meeting. How close are you to LaCrosse? I know it's a long way off but I may be going there in May 2011. My DH is shooting in the WI state dart tournament then and while I wasn't planning on going (watching people shoot darts is not terribly exciting and I'm retired so I won't play) meeting up with you would be a great incentive.

Yes . . . this board is such a great place to come. No one else can really relate to what we go through unless they have been through it themselves. I am extremely glad none of my friends have or are going through this and hopefully never will. The people I have met here have a special place in my heart.

Scanxiety is something we all will have regardless of how much time passes. It reminds one of the reality of this damn disease each time. While it has gotten a little better for me, it still happens and everyone deals with it in different ways. That's another great reason for these boards.

Sheila - may your 2nd metiversary pass without incident. Enjoy that fine red. Yes, the time passes quickly but may lots and lots of time pass for all of us.