Anyone starting chemo in June 08

Thanks ladies. I'm feeling better today. not so glum. I think the puppy visit helped. Leggy, you'd have to let Wolfie pee too. that's another reason to stop on your drive up to Canada. not to mention yourself. LOL. but I think Napa Valley would be an awesome place to meet! Let's start planning!

I spoke to the nurse today, and we have set up many appt's for next week. A CT for sure,and multiple onc. appt's. There is definite progression of the tumors and we'll need to know how much, etc. and then decide on the next course of action. different chemo? rads to the tumor effecting the esophagus? who knows.

I am trying to stay upbeat and remind myself that at least, for now, we have options and that's a good thing. So, I will definitely keep you ladies up to date on whats happening. thank you all so much for the support. Expecially when you get pi$$ed at the cancer - it makes me laugh to think of you all as my gang beatin' up the bad guy.

ps: Leggy the puppy's breath smelled heavenly.    ttyl8r, hugs    

Well crap Leggy!  I hope you can seriously get your onc to help you get dissablity.  The type of work you do is just too much.  I pray for a good scan next week for you also  I just think you do too much physical work.  I heard you say..."I feel pretty good on the weekends."  So do I when I am not working 8 hours a day on my feet.  Anyway...my thoughts are with ya and will keep fingers crossed for test.  Hope everyone else is doing ok.  Bonnie, your post made me cry...you are such a kind, thoughtful woman.  And yes...I echo what Wyoming says....F<&cking  cancer!  I am looking forward to the 3 day weekend ahead.  No plans yet....there just are so many people out and about in the mountains north and south of us it is a zoo.  Sometimes home is the best place with a grill and some drinks.  Love to you all.....HunkyD 

Today was a short work day.  I woke up this morning with a bad stomach ache, and got to work feeling really bad.  My back was killing me as well and just barely made it to the restroom, before I threw up.  Then I remembered when my Onc. nurse was quizzing me about my back and neck pain and asked if I was throwing up.  So I called her and she asked if anyone was sick around me, and I said no, so she called and got me in for a bone scan today. Funny though, it wasn't so bad, I met a women from Argentina, and she had breast cancer, and mets. to lungs. She worked for Kaiser, in the office, and knew everyone. Really nice women.  Then they wheeled a women into the hallway on a gurney and I saw the ER nurse I had on the 4th of July, during chemo, when I got pneumonia, so I got to thank her when she wasn't busy. Then when the gal came to get me I remember, how we talked about the show Dexter, so we had a great conversation about movies, etc....  Course, I couldn't talk most of time, which wasn't easy for me, but she had no problem. We became fast friends, and she walked me  down the hall, arm in arm.  But I told her, "I hope you don't take it personally, but I hope I don't see you again, for awhile".  She laughed. Now I just wait and see, if they can find out what wrong with my back and neck.  Yes cancer sucks.

Bonnie, you really are one special lady. I wouldn't pass this crap to anyone even if i had a fairygodmother who would grant such a wish. But thanks for your love.

ah, Leggy. I am so sorry for this $hit you are dealing with! Pain is one of the worst parts of this trip with f*ing cancer. Like HD said, hopefully you can get on some sort of disability income, and work less. I'm worried about you being sick tho. I know pain can do that, but hopefully it's not more than that. good luck with your bone scan. stay strong sister!

Wyoming, yup those rottweilers are just carefree and cuddly. I know genetics can play a big part too tho. Diesel's brother is the dominant one of the three and he was jumping all over the other two wanting to wrestle. They would oblige for a minute or two, then squirm away from him. He will definitely be a handful! Diesel and his sister are much more gentle and calm. so sweet.

I'm sorry gals, I did post a new update, but had computer trouble yesterday, and must have lost it, so here's a brief recap: when dh and I went to talk to the dr. yesterday, they squeezed me in for an emergency CT. And we are already scheduled to see the radiologist Friday afternoon. I guess it's serious. geez louise. I could do without this right now. then again, there never really is a good time to deal with it right? i'm still having trouble swallowing, and now coughing a lot.

We're trying to stay positive, but it's hard sometimes. I'm a bit worried about radiation, as that put me in the hospital last time becoz of the tissue damage to my heart. And these tumors are in the same spot. i guess we just have to see what the rad.onc says Friday.

until then ladies, adieu. i'll post more as soon as i know anything. hugs, Michelle

Michelle I'm throwing positive vibe your way.

Kelly I felt the hug and the extra squeezes. Thank you my day is better now.

Leggy how are you feeling? Are you still throwing up?

Bonnie keep trying to post a picture of your grand daughter.

Hunky just a few more days to a three day weekend. Hang in there.

Karen how are you doing.

I'm going to be a copy cat----Hugs and kisses to all.

Wyoming

Happy Birthday Karen.  Hope you are going to enjoy the day.  We are headed for a drive a little bit later today.  We are babysitting our sons dog this weekend so she will like the outing.  Not too hot here either.  Bonnie, glad you are liking your new drug.  I googled and it goes by Femara here also I believe.  Hope it works better than tamoxifen for you.  Chocolate...I hope you are holding up.  I am so sorry and I hate this. Kelly, thanks for the hugs.  Hope your little one had fun at camp.  Wyoming, hope you are having a great weekend camping.  I remember when you got your trailer.  I am still jealous.  Leggy, hope you are resting this weekend and that your neck and back pain eases up a bit.  I have a lottery ticket for tonights 41 million.  I watched Mary Shelleys "Frankenstein" on TV last week.  I would buy us all new living bodies (from brain dead people lying in a coma) and then some brilliant surgeon could sew our heads on them.  LOL!  Wow!  I am going crazy.  I am only drinking coffee right now too!  Well, I love ya all and have a great weekend.  HD

Happy Birthday KKing!  Hope you have a nice 4th of July, everyone not just us American's.  I'm taking it easy this weekend, and working on Monday, but taking next friday off instead of my paid holiday, on Monday.  My friend and I are going to Reno for the next weekend and leaving early on Friday.

My Onc.'s nurse left me a message saying it's not mets..  Nothing else, so I made an appointment with my GP, on Wed., and my psych. on Tues., who I'm going to give an ear full, to about how hard it is for me at work, with my neck and back pain, but it seems like no one can help.  I felt really hopeless, last night, and wrote my Onc. that I was giving up on Tamoxifen, and sent the email to the wrong doctor...Sh#t, that must mean I'm ready for at least the loony bin, hey three squares, it's better than work, it's crazy enough, but I don't think they will let me bring Wolfie. 

Choc. you have the best attitude, and with that, it will help carry you through this, sure wish I had your positiveness, and I'm crying about a little arthritis. 

Wyoming, Where are you camping?  I am in Rapid City at my mom's house.  My sister lives in Keystone close to here.  I wonder if we will be watching the same fireworks today. 

Yesterday was so nice, we walked all around canyon lake park after mass at blessed sacrament.  There will not be fireworks at mt rushmore tonight because of the fireban I believe. 

I feel pretty good but did get a call after my checkup the other day that my bilirubin is creeping up so I have to go back in next week for another check.  I have only been going in every three weeks lately.  It feels like a vacation from cancer.  I have not even been crying, just enjoying summer.

Hope everyone has an excellent weekend and don't forget that we all like to hear and see (if you can post photos) you so post it all, the good , the bad, and the details!  Love to you all,  Kelly

It was cooler here today, it's about 66 degrees and it's 5pm.  What a nice day, I can handle this.  Saw the psych. today, and she gave me a doctor's note to only work 6 hrs, for 2wk, until I see her again.  Tomorrow I see the GP, and the psych. said she's really nice.  I sent her an email, and told her I was sorry I sent her an email, intended for my Onc., but the psych. said it was good that I sent it to her. The GP, emailed back, and said "See you tomorrow....".  I'm just so tired, my legs could hardly carry me today.  My boss has really bad arthritis, so he seemed to understand.  At 3pm, he looked at his watch and said your supposed to go home now.  I just laughed and said I'm on my way. 

Well, I saw the GP today, and I did really like her.  She seemed to get it, and asked questions that I had a lot of yes's to. I told her about my tired legs, and how I haven't been able to build up the muscle mass, I lost during chemo.  My legs and arms are really skinny, and I'm 5'11, so I don't have any strength, and despite a grueling work day, and walking the dog, I still look sick. She asked if I have restless leg syndrome, and I believe I've had it since I was a child.  They just called it growing pains, but I remember having real pain, and have never been able to sleep.  My best friend, was a book and I flashlight.  I stayed up all night reading under the covers, and I still do, so I don't bother the dog, and I think I told you girls about that.  The Onc. finally gave me Ambien, when I told the chemo. nurse I couldn't sleep. Oh she also asked if I had trouble breath, and I was short of breath, from childhood.  But back then, you only went to the doctor if you were really sick.  No one had insurance when I was a kid.  My parents, grew up during the depression, and it was rough. 

Hope you all, are doing OK.  Hunky I'd come over to your house for leftovers!

Good evening everyone. Hubby is out of town so I have the house to myself. I had corn bread for dinner. My daughters make fun of me when I tell them what I eat when hubby is gone. I hear you ladies about being tired. I have to force my self to do things. I make bargains with myself like if I do the dish I can read for an hour. Isn't that pathetic!!!!

Leggy I'm glad you have cut your hours maybe you can get yourself much needed rest.

Hunky five surgeries are a lot, are you finished?

Karen congratulations on 25 years.

Wyoming

Leggy I'm glad you are getting help. Chronic pain gets on your nerves and you can't enjoy doing anything. Your father sounds like mine. It was always hurry up and get there. Have a blast in Reno.

Didn't get txt today because my white blood count was too low. So I'm staying away from people so I don't get sick. We have finally decided to take our canceled trip at the end of July. I decided I wanted to go to Hawaii instead. (I don't remember if I already told you this)

My grand son has been on vacation and he gets home this weekend. I can't wait, I also want to see his mom and dad.

Take care,

Wyomimg

wow, HD, 5 surgeries is a lot for anyone. what are you up to lately?

Kelly, how's that porch coming along? DH is sure lucky to go fishing when the porch isn't finished. LOL.

Leggy, glad your hrs are reduced and there's no bone mets to your spine. although arthritis is quite painful too.  I've just read about taking enuf vitD to relieve bone pain. Take between 3000 -  5000iu daily. Maybe this would help you? There's a thread on here about vitD, if you search you'd find it and can read everyone's posts. sorry, i dont know how to cut and paste it here. Hope you have a blast in Reno! we wanna hear all about it.

Wyoming, Hawaii sounds like a great idea! I wish I could hide in your suitcase. LOL. I'm still trying to convince dh to take me to Italy next spring. It's always been a dream of mine.  5 more days until Diesel arrives, and it's going soooo sloooowly. lol. Then you wont hear from me for many weeks. just kidding - i'm sure he'll have to take a nap sometime!!!

hugs all, stay cool, michelle