Please help...surgery revealed more nodes

Ah Rachel, I'm sorry you got bad news about the nodes.  How many in total were removed? - I've heard the proportion of affected nodes may be as important as the raw number, although as we all know and fear, even one can suggest spread -- and some women get mets without any affected nodes - this BC beast is so unfair and unpredictable!  I'm glad you posted here, and hope you find the support you need.  (being est + is a silver lining as you can benefit from the hormonal drugs.)   

((((huggs))))

Rachel i had positive nodes, chemo first, and no positive nodes at surgery.  Did you do chemo yet?  It will get those buggers if you havent!

Rachel - my heart goes out to you.  I've been thinking about you, but had not seen your new threads... Look, your feelings are all normal.  You are no crazier than the rest of us!  Getting everything figured out is PURE MADNESS, but once you decide your next course of action you will feel better.  We have all been there.  You CAN do this!... It's not easy, but I hope all of us here can put strength in your sails from afar.  Let me know if I can help more - I'm outside of Denver. 

Take care.  LOL, CalypsoGirl

Rachel-

I am with you.  I just got a bmx w/immed recon on June 22 and they took out 2 nodes and the sentinel was postive, the other was not.  As a preemptive measure my surgeon took several more nodes.   I, too, am concerned about the news I won't be receiving until early July on the remainder of the nodes but what everyone here told you is correct: nodes don't auto translate to mets and sometimes mets occur without node involvement.  In the end, it is just another facet of this disease that we have to deal with but it is not all that ominous.  Think positive because thinking negative gets you nowhere and fast.

Liz

rachel.  i know how you feel.  i just had my biospy results.  i have idc and 3 out of 5 nodes were positive.  i still have to find out if it is estrogen positive or negative.  i see an oncologist on tuesday.  i am sick to my stomach.  i wake up at 4 am everyday and start crying.  hoping that this is all a bad dream!  i am so scared and i am scared for my 7 and 9 year old children.  i never thought that i would be dealing with this at age 45:(

Rachel,

I just posted my story on the other site you created about those with positive nodes so I hope you will read it.  Trust me I felt the same way you did when I was first diagnosed.  I would never actually end my life but I felt like I wanted to.  The anxiety is so horrible when you are first diagnosed.  Nobody understands unless they have gone through this themselves.  You have to take all of your treatment in baby steps b/c if you look too far down the road you will go crazy.  Looking back I do not know how I got through this.  You're probably sick of people telling you this but you will find you are stronger than you think.  I certainly have.  But it is so hard to see when you are in the midst of all this.  You are not alone.  I think most people must feel the way you do when you're first diagnosed.  YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!

Angie

Rachel, I thought you'd enjoy hearing about my friend who is 23 years a surviror!!

She had 22 pos nodes and a large tumour dx at age 37 when her daughter was 2!!!

her daughter graduated to years ago and she celebrates 24 years this year!!!!!:)

She posts on the komen board and her name is Rena, a very special lady that gives us all hope:)

Tricia x

I am stage 3 and I have 12 modes and same size tumour as you....  I am a year out and feel great.