On the fence about chemo
Diagnosed ILC 4-2-10, lumpectomy 4-14-10, tumor 2.1 cm at its largest, stage IIa, grade II, ER/PR+, HER-2-, 2 axillary nodes neg, 4 sentinel nodes removed - 2 neg/2 with ITCs (intermittent tumor cells), Oncotype 17 (high end of low), BRCA neg. Have been to 2 oncs, one recommends chemo, radiation and HT, the other radiation and HT - no chemo based on my low Oncotype score. I've seen from other discussions that many have been in the same boat where they are in that grey area where you can choose to do chemo or not. Lost my mother 28 years ago to BC - she was only 57. I'm 56 and can't help but think I'm at greater risk with family history. Maternal grandmother also had BC, had mastectomy - lived to age 88! Onc #1 spoke with a group from Sloan-Kettering about my case and he came back to me with an option to do CMF as opposed to the harsher and shorter regime of TC. Onc #2 says I would only get a 1%-3% decrease in recurrence score with the addition of chemo. Not a big number unless you are one of the 1%-3%!!!! I don't want to regret a decision not to do the chemo and I also don't want to risk damaging my, what feels today to be, good health. So many of you have been or are going through similar situations and I was hoping that you may have some words of wisdom for me to help me get off this fence and make a decision. The only thing I've decided is that I will make a decision this week; it will be 4 weeks post surgery on Wed and I want to get going with treatment. Thanks for your input and I hope things are going well in your own personal journeys. Beth
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Beth
This is a hard decision-- our dx are similar-I had ILC, 2.5cm-no nodes, clear margins, a couple of isolated tumor cells in the sentinel node. I remember my onc saying that the ITC's were not what would make her recommend chemo--- they were likely from the biopsy---
However, my oncotype was in the high gray area- 27--- so the decision for me was easy-I did four rounds of AC--- then radiation and hormonal therapy
For me the test was, could I sleep at night. The data showed that I would drop my potential risk of recurrence from about 14% to about 7%--so it was, for me, significant. Although, I talked to alot of people who said that they would not do chemo with thos numbers- because a14% also means that there is an 86% chance that it will never come back-- I am more comfortable at 93%, but that is just me...
So, what were the results? I found the chemo very doable, I worked full-time through most of it, but you have to know that everyone reacts differently. Radiation was also not too challenging. I also have young children and for the most part, we got through it. I find the most challenges are with the hormonal therapies-- I am on lupron (I was pre menopausal) and femara-- and have had to work hard over the past year to mitigate the side effects (lots of exercise,etc).
chemo is not fun but many people here have done it and will have input. With the odds that you have, I don't know what I would decided. I do know that after I had chemo, there was a study done that said that people with isolated tumor cells should have chemo. Now it is only one study, who knows, but I know I felt a great sense of relief knowing I had done all I could.
I think you will know the answer when you need to--- what will give you the most peace. We often make these decisions in fear-but remember, you have had your lumpectomy, the cancer is out--- and as my medical team always said to me"the chances are great that you are already cured, the rest is insurances' and for what it is worth,my onc always said that in her opinion, which I value greatly, the hormonal therapies are the strongest part of the cure..... which is why I am still taking them!!!
Keep us posted
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Beth, I didn't have the Oncotype-DX test because, at the time (5/08), my insurance co. would not pay for it with one positive node. And I also saw 3 different oncologists, and they each had a different opinion -- AC+T, TC and no chemo, so I was very confused, although definitely leaning towards option #2, because it was the UCLA opinion, and that onc just seemed incredibly knowledgeable.
Then, a bc-survivor friend who had been in a similar situation 12 years ago asked me, "If it ever came back and you hadn't done chemo, how would you feel?" And I do believe that thought, plus the fact that she was 12 years out, sealed my thinking on it. 2.5cm is not a tiny lesion, and ILC, as you may know, is sometimes referred to as "tricky," because it tends to hide out and appear elsewhere, which made even a small percentage that was not in my favor seem a lot more ominous.
I personally like the suggestion of CMF, which one of the women on the Natural Girls thread just finished. She did some natural things to help with any SEs, and it sounds like she pretty much breezed through it. No one ever wants to do chemo, and it took me (someone who has always been very anti-drugs) weeks to wrap my head around the idea and agree to to it. But, as hard as it was (and I did TC), I'm glad I did it. But, again, I had a positive node and multi-centric bc, so definitely not the same dx as yours... Deanna
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A lady I work with went through CMF. She said it was very easy except she had one major problem - that was nausea on the day of the infusion. But, she has since found out that she is exceptionally sensitive to getting nausea. She now doing Zometa infusions and has the same problem with vomiting the day that she gets the infusion and that just isn't a normal reaction to Zometa. So other than that she had no hair issues and, except for her nausea, worked through chemo and didn't really have any other issues. None of the normal nausea medicine work for her and that is very, very rare since there are some really good ones out there.
I agree with Deanna comments. You have to figure out what you can live with and make sure its a decision where you have no regrets.
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My thanks to momand2kids, Deanna and AnacortesGirl for your input. It really helps to hear from others who have gone through this. I'm trying to gather every piece of info I can to ease me into making my decision. I know I'll get there!!! Thanks again for your advice.
Deanna, you mentioned the Natural Girls thread - I'm not finding it (but I'm new and don't know all of the ropes, yet). How do I find that thread? Thanks much.
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Dear Beth,
I had Pleomophic ILC, 1.5 cm, stage 1 with isolated cells in one lymph node. My surgeon and oncologist said we need to trust the oncotypedx test and know that chemo isn't for everyone. I had a lumpectomy, radiation and now Tamoxifen for 5 years followed by Armidex for 5 years. I am happy with my decision. I would like to know if any of the ladies had a low Onco score, refused chemo and got cancer back again. I have not found anyone who has had this happen to them. Good luck with your decision.
Nancy
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Wow, our situations are very similar. My tumor was smaller, though, 1.4 cm. but with positive margins all around my first excision of 3x2x1.5 cm. The second excision was 8x3x3 with negative margins. Negative nodes, Oncotype 13. BRCA negative. I am 39 with three young children.
I chose chemo.It was a very, very, very difficult decision. My oncologist said chemo would be a 3% benefit for me based on my stats, but perhaps more... Part of my decision was based on the fact that I had breast surgery 8 months before I felt the lump, and the surgeon cut through the area where the lump later appeared. I am very paranoid about that surgery enabling the cancer to spread through my bloodstream.
I am of the philosophy that I will do everything I can to get rid of this beast. On the other hand, I am pretty health-conscious and don't like pouring poison into my body, and I'm very aware of the risks of chemo. What horrible things to have to weigh...I'm still agonizing over it even 12 days after my first TC infusion.
Chemo has been rough so far for me. Definitely not fun. But later on, I will feel secure in the knowledge that I did absolutely everything I could.
Hugs and good luck with your decision.
Jen
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Thanks for your post, Nancy. Wish I had as low an Oncotype as you at 9. But with mine at 17, I feel I better be safer than sorrier and have chosen to do CMF chemo treatments starting this Friday. I sure do appreciate your input - it helps alot. I see you are IllinoisNancy. I am also in Illinois in the Chicago area. All the best to you and thanks again.
Beth
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Thanks for your reply, Jen. It saddens me so much to see all of the posts from young mothers like you. I wish you all the best as you work your way through all of this. I'm to start CMF chemo treatments this Friday - we'll go through treatments together, how about that?!?! My plan will last about 6 months I am told. Tomorrow I go to class to learn the ropes. I feel good that I've made my decision and am eager to get started so I can get finished!!!! So many of us feeling the same way . . . . Let me know how you're doing. Hang tough and be strong.
Beth
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Beth ~ Wow, you made up your mind quickly!
I just wanted to tell you how to find the Natural Girls thread. Click on FORUM INDEX above. Scroll down to the section about Tests, Treatments & Side Effects. In that section, you'll see Alternative, Complementary & Holistic, and in that, Natural Girls. It's a very long thread, full of lots of great information.
You might also want to look for a thread for women starting chemo this month. Not exactly sure what it will be entitled, but there's one for every month, so it shouldn't be too hard to find. And there's probably also one just for CMF gals. I think you'll find both of them lifelines during the next few weeks!
Good luck, and I'm glad you were able to make your decision so quickly. Deanna
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Beth, congrats on making a decision; now you can move forward. Please do join us over on the May 2010 chemo thread (in the Chemotherapy section). The ladies over there are all going through this the same time we are and everyone is very supportive. Good luck to you on Friday!
hugs,
Jen
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Thanks, Deanna. I ended up finding the Natural Girls thread. Thanks for the tips on other groups. All the best to you and yours. Beth
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Thanks, Jen. I'll be talking to you on the May 2010 chemo thread. Beth
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Hi Beth,
I did CMF - finished in March. I had 6 treatments, each spaced 3 weeks apart. It wasn't bad at all. I lost a little hair, not enough for anyone but me to notice, felt no more fatigue than usual and any nausea was controled with kytril pills. The only SE that was troublesome was constipation. I suggest you start taking stool softners and senecot (sp) tablets a day or two BEFORE each treatment and continue for 5 or 6 days after. Also take the anti-nausea meds even if you feel good - I decided that I probably could do without them after my 3rd treatment and had a couple of days of nausea - not terrible, but why endure it if you don't have to? After the first few treatments I had a stuffy head feeling for a day or two but even that diminished by the middle of treatments. Hope this is helpful. Good luck to you!
Kathy
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Beth - I also did CMF - finished last year. I did weekly infusions for 6 months. Like most of the CMF'rs I had minimal to no side effects. I did take the anti nausea meds the day of infusion (and the day after) so don't know if that helped - didn't want to risk it and stop. I felt a bit "off" the night of infusion, but not enough to really change my schedule and it may have been psychosomatic (who wouldn't feel "off" after a chemo infusion?!). I did not even get or need a port. I also do some"natural" supplements, and dietary changes but FIRMLY believe in a Conventional AND natural approach to my diagnosis and really love love love (and trust) my oncologist.
CMF is a great option for early stage bc that is grade 1 or 2. My oncotype was 23. There is a CMF thread under the forum - I think under the "help me thru treatment" forum - not the chemo forum.
Sending you positive vibes for an easy first infusion!
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Thanks much, Kathy and aprilgirl1. I had my teaching session yesterday, got my hair cut shorter today, along with some Nioxin shampoo/conditioner for potential hair thinning, to Walgreen's later for Senocot, will stay on top of taking the nausea meds and will chew ice chips during treatments. Thanks to everyone for all of the great tips! My treatments begin Friday, the second dose will be on the following Friday, off for 2 weeks and repeat for about 6 months. I'll be looking into the CMF and May Chemo threads. I'm honored to be included in this wonderful society of great women!!! Thanks, thanks and more thanks and all the best to everyone . . . . . .
Beth
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Beth, I will say a prayer for you and also offer some advice: do not be caught off-guard by one of the worse SEs of chemo - constipation. I wish I had been proactive about that; I would have suffered less. Nausea is the one SE I was I sure I'd get and it turned out to be the only one I DIDN'T get.
That being said, once I was done with T/C X 4 and started reading up on how to keep from having a recurrence I began to realize that I had just trashed my immune system by undergoing the chemo. I will never do that to myself again. I have made a few changes in my life, mainly giving up meat and cutting out most sugar and alcohol and I started seeing a naturopath. All I need now is a less stressful job and I'll feel like I'm doing everything possible to get complete health back and keep it. I still have some lingering effects from the chemo - it's been over a year since my last treatment.
We all have to decide for ourselves but I wish someone had been truly honest about chemo when I asked them before deciding to go with it. Everyone I asked felt the need to "be positive" for some ungodly reason. I think the truth is worth more. Good luck and godspeed.
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Beth,
Good luck tomorrow. Will you be given T/C? That's what I had for 6 infusions. The steroids that you need to take the day before, day of and day after really did a number on me. Could not sleep. Felt wired. I suggest an anti-aniexty med. You are being very proactive about your health. I applaud you. Stay balanced, in the moment. You'll get through this. My last infusion was 12/3/09. My hair is coming back. I have a real cute pixie now.
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Thanks for your post, Mare-Willi. It's really tough to decide to put poison in your body. I'll be having CMF treatments (start tomorrow!!!) which are less harsh and taken over a longer period of time. I'm told I will not lose my hair which is nice, maybe some thinning. I'm a sponge for knowledge and hopefully have heard all the tips from everyone as to how to manage SEs. I'm ready!!!! Thanks again for your kind thoughts and stay well. Beth
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Remember that the 'poison' in chemo is working FOR you; killing our ruthless enemy, CANCER!
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Hi tandnmom, thanks for your post, too. It's been so great to hear from everyone. The kind words and advice mean so much to me. I'll be having CMF treatments for about 6 months. Less harsh than TC and I should keep my hair; that wasn't a terribly big worry for me, though. Started with the steroids this morning - ugh!!! Luckily, I've been on Prozac for many years so that should help - I hope!!!! I bet you look adorable with a pixie . . . . Thanks again. Stay well. Beth
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Wow is all I can say after reading all these posts! What great support

I am in the same boat as Beth. I am 39, have 3 children of which 2 of them are 4 and 21 months. I am 39 and just had my second surgery in April.
All I can say is that I really HATE being in this so called "grey area". I have seen two oncologists, both with two different opions on treatment. One says no chemo but the doctor spends a total of 5 minutes with me. The other is from the Cancer Agency and says she can't say yes or no due to this grey area but would like to see an oncotye test done. Unfortunately I am running out of time and have 3 doctors waiting for my reply which should be done today.
I can't make a decision. I hate taking drugs unless absolutely necessary. Much like Beth, I am very confused and I don't know what to do. I have talked to several people and the common responses are: do it. It is your life your talking about. I don't want to second guess down the road and wonder if it will one day show up. On the other side, I don't have much family, have young kids and 5 students in my home. Going thru chemo will be very, very rough......
I am suppose to make a decision today and not getting anywhere except more stressed out.....
It has been calming to read everyone's comments and suggestions.
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After reading other posts on the same topic I read that horomone therapy responds better to ILC that are ER/PE positive and that chemo doesn't respond as well. Is this the case?
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It is true that ER+/PR+, HER2- tumors tend to respond better to hormonal therapy than to chemo, but there are few absolutes in cancer treatment. Taking the oncotype test might help you make this decision with more confidence, because the score reflects how effective chemo is likely to be on your specific tumor, and you can get a clearer sense of risk versus benefit.
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