Finished Chemo Today

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pupfoster1
pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
edited June 2014 in Stage III Breast Cancer

Hello all,

Well today was my last round of chemo.  4 dose dense A/C's and 4 dose dense Taxol's behind my belt.  Phew, what a journey.  I have to say the A/C was very hard on me with all my strange side effects.  But although with the Taxol I have had some issues, they are different and not as debilitating as the A/C.  I actually feel human at times, except for the bald head :).

So as you can see I'm not "screaming" happy though.  It almost feels anticlimatic to me, and of course I have one of those minds that keeps thinking, "well the chemo was keeping it at bay, now I'm doing nothing for the next 3 weeks", and "is radiation going to work as well as the chemo", blah, blah, blah!  DON'T YOU HATE THE VOICES IN YOUR HEAD?????   I SWEAR I am going to learn how to meditate.  I HAVE to learn how to shut that brain off.  There's an old saying that goes like this "Don't go to play in your mind, it's a bad neighborhood", well that's me.  Wish I were one of those ladies who felt like gathering a bunch of girls and going out to celebrate, but I don't   Maybe one day.

And I love all you wonderful ladies that have been here for me during my ups and downs (I know there will be more).  You all really helped me enormously!

Take care all,

Sharon Sealed

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  • kimber3006
    kimber3006 Member Posts: 586
    edited March 2010

    lol @ "Don't go play in your mind....."!  Congrats on getting through chemo!

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  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited March 2010

    congrats..

    here is a little flower *

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  • coonie
    coonie Member Posts: 7,618
    edited March 2010

    I'm not stage 3, but I just had to congratulate you!!

    I finished the same cocktail exactly 2 years ago this month. My hair is down to my shoulders and I'm feeling half way normal:) You'll get there! Just hang in there. Glad you've got that part behind you.

    ((((((((((gentle hugs)))))))))))

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  • Let-It-Be
    Let-It-Be Member Posts: 325
    edited March 2010

    Congratulations!!!! Put it behind you and keep moving forward.

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  • ChrisC433
    ChrisC433 Member Posts: 553
    edited March 2010

    Congratulations!  I am one year out of chemo and the neighborhood in my head hasn't improved much!  I guess you always wonder, but in time it does not predominated your thoughts!  You SHOULD celebrate....you have just completed a difficult journey.

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  • krcll
    krcll Member Posts: 343
    edited March 2010

    Congratulations to you!!!! I finished chemo a week ago so I can tell you it at least feels good to start getting it out of the body. Don't worry too much about having the 3 week break- you'll be getting Tamoxifen or AI's as well as the rads soon, and I think that can be very effective.

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  • Gitane
    Gitane Member Posts: 1,885
    edited March 2010

    End of chemo is a real wacky time.  It sure would be a gift to be able to control that brain, wouldn't it?  Anyway, all this to say, I remember the feelings well and I understand.  The glimpses of feeling "more human" will get longer and more frequent.  It takes time, plain and simple.

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  • KerryMac
    KerryMac Member Posts: 3,529
    edited March 2010

    Congratulations!! Yes, it is all a little anticlimatic, and a little scary. But, at least you don't have to sit in that jolly chair in two weeks time. That will feel great!

    Now go grow some hair!! 

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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited March 2010

    I had mixed emotions when I was finished too.  I was really happy to be finished, sad and didn't know what to think.  However, when the day of the week came that I would have normally been at chemo the following week - it felt so good to be home doing something else other than chemo. 

    I'm so glad you're finished with chemo - congrats!!!!!

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  • Pure
    Pure Member Posts: 1,796
    edited March 2010

    yeah congrats!!!!

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited March 2010

    Sharon,  I was feeling the same way.  A nervous wreck that I wasn't poisoning the cancer cells anymore.  I was very anticlimatic.  I finished exhausted and feeling horrible from the Taxol, and really scared about starting rads. You will still feel the extreme fatigue for quite a while.  I still do.  It took me 3 weeks to get over the Taxol SE.  Still working on the chemo bloat.  Hang in there. You've passed another milestone in your bc journey.  Rads are much more tolerable.  At least they were for me anyway.

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    Barb

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  • karen1956
    karen1956 Member Posts: 6,503
    edited March 2010

    Congrats to both you and Krell for finishing chemo....that is a milestone....and worth celebrating even if its just by yourself...buy flowers, make a special dinner.....

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  • NancyD
    NancyD Member Posts: 3,562
    edited March 2010

    Congrats!  On with your life!

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  • AnacortesGirl
    AnacortesGirl Member Posts: 1,758
    edited March 2010

    Congratulations!!!  You may not feel like celebrating right now but it such an accomplishment.  You had the determination and staying-power to get through a really crappy ordeal.  At least that's the way I'm looking at it.

    I don't know if this helps but the analogy I'm using in my mind about this tx is the same as closing a door.  We close the door, lock it and then we turn the deadbolt to make sure cancer can't come back in.  You're pretty darn secure with just the door closed and the lock in place but rads are going to turn the deadbolt.  I'm about a week away from finally getting that door closed.

    And the condition that we are left in after chemo is through isn't exactly feeling like skipping through a field of flowers.  I've been anemic for so long now.  It affects my thinking and I'm sick of it.  But it will get better.  Some day we are going to feel like skipping again and celebrating.

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  • lexi4
    lexi4 Member Posts: 1,074
    edited March 2010
    Congrats on finishing chemo!! You did it!! I hope you do something nice for yourself.Smile
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  • Leah_S
    Leah_S Member Posts: 8,458
    edited March 2010

    So glad for you that chemo is over.

    Do the Happy Dance!

    Leah

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