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AnacortesGirl
AnacortesGirl Member Posts: 1,758
edited June 2014 in Stage III Breast Cancer

I was so excited go to the infusion center yesterday.  It was supposed to be my last one.  After 7 frigging months I just wanted to be able to say that I'm done.  The platelets killed it.  They're down to 51.  Next week if everything is OK then I get the last chemo.  If the counts are still down then we're going to figure the body is telling us that it's time to quit and 26 weeks of infusions is good enough.

So yesterday morning I cried a little and then I got mad (usually a good sign for me).  Figured everything would look better after a night's sleep.  Maybe then I'd plan a little trip or something for this week.

Well I woke up and it's not better.  I'm back to feeling sorry for myself.  This could screw up my surgery date and the appts for the last PET and MRI.  Actually got those scheduled this time so it's a one day trip to Seattle rather than two trips.  I guess I need somebody to kick in the butt and tell me to get out there and enjoy my time away from chemo drugs.  Or get me to laugh - that's my other self-help remedy.  Find humor.

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  • YoYo44
    YoYo44 Member Posts: 203
    edited March 2010

    Hey AnacortesGirl,

    I hear and understand your frustration.  This lack of control and lack of cooperation from our bodies is a bit much sometimes!!  I have wished I could literally kick my own butt sometimes just to get it in line!  It will be over soon, if not possibly a little shifted in time (or not...).  But don't worry, it will be done.  I was in fear of any of my chemo being delayed as I was working towards the day and it drove me nuts.  Such a crazy lifestyle we have developed isn't it!

    Breath deeply and know the end is near.  Sending you some of my precious patience (don't have much...Laughing, working on it... but will share) and all the smiles and good vibes I can to get you up and running again.

    Take care!

    Yo

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  • KerryMac
    KerryMac Member Posts: 3,529
    edited March 2010

    You know we have these mental "finish lines" in our heads, and it messes with us when they are changed. I would feel the same way you do.

    I just asked  my son (aged 4) for a good joke -

    Q - Whats Brown and Sticky?

    A - A Stick. 

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  • AnacortesGirl
    AnacortesGirl Member Posts: 1,758
    edited March 2010

    Thanks Kerry! It was stupid but it made me laugh!  When my son was that age he would just roll on the floor with jokes like that.  What a good memory.

    Yo - I'll take any patience you can send me.

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited March 2010

    Hope this brings a smile to you. I got one out of it...

    Some people are like slinkies... not really good for anything but they bring a smile to your face when pushed down the stairs.
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  • wingedheart1952
    wingedheart1952 Member Posts: 7
    edited March 2010

    Hope all works out soon so you can relax and be back on the schedule you want!  Blessings are being sent your way. 

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  • AnacortesGirl
    AnacortesGirl Member Posts: 1,758
    edited March 2010

    Oh yeah!  I like the slinkies comment!  That's one I share once I get back to work.

    Thanks ladies!  This is already helping!  It feels good to laugh.

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  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited March 2010

    Two sisters, one blonde and one brunette, inherit the family ranch. Unfortunately, after just a few years, they are in financial trouble. In order to keep the bank from repossessing the ranch, they need to purchase a bull so that they can breed their own stock. The brunette balances their checkbook, then takes their last $600 dollars out west to another ranch where a man has a prize bull for sale. Upon leaving, she tells her sister, ''When I get there, if I decide to buy the bull, I'll contact you to drive out after me and haul it home.'' The brunette arrives at the man's ranch, inspects the bull, and decides she does want to buy it. The man tells her that he can sell it for $599, no less. After paying him, she drives to the nearest town to send her sister a telegram to tell her the news. She walks into the telegraph office, and says, ''I want to send a telegram to my sister telling her that I've bought a bull for our ranch. I need her to hitch the trailer to our pick-up truck and drive out here so we can haul it home.'' The telegraph operator explains that he'll be glad to help her, then adds, ''It's just 99 cents a word.'' Well, with only $1 left after paying for the bull, the brunette realizes that she'll only be able to send her sister one word. After thinking for a few minutes, she nods, and says, ''I want you to send her the word, 'comfortable.''' The telegraph operator shakes his head. ''How is she ever going to know that you want her to hitch the trailer to your pick-up truck and drive out here to haul that bull back to your ranch if you send her the word, 'comfortable?'" The brunette explains, ''My sister's blonde. She'll read it slow.''

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  • Claire_in_Seattle
    Claire_in_Seattle Member Posts: 4,570
    edited March 2010

    Dear Anacortes Girl,

    Butt kick is to get out there and enjoy the sunshine, as supposed to be glorious today.  And it's SPRING here.

    Then make a list of ten fun things to do while not on chemo.  (Not chores or housework.)

    Really sorry about the platelets, but stuff happens.  It won't be the worst thing that ever went south.

    When you finish your walk or excursion, treat yourself to a beverage (latte, chai, whatever) and something yummy at the espresso joint with the best combination of food and view.  Sit outside and enjoy the pleasures that this part of the world has to offer!

    Later on, make yourself a tasty and healthy dinner. - Claire

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  • AnacortesGirl
    AnacortesGirl Member Posts: 1,758
    edited March 2010

    OK. That one was more than a chuckle.  I'm still laughing. 

    I really appreciate this.  Made me feel good enough to re-do my pill minder and take out all the Cytoxan.  I was feeling so good on Sunday when I figured I was loading it up the last time with the chemo drug.  Oh well.  Life goes on and it could be much, much worse.

    You guys are great!

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  • lvtwoqlt
    lvtwoqlt Member Posts: 6,162
    edited March 2010

    Sorry for the platlet count being low. Here is a joke from my hubby.

    Q: what do you call an elephant at the south pole?

    A: lost.

    Sheila

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  • ck55
    ck55 Member Posts: 346
    edited March 2010

    Christy,

    I live in Seattle, but we have a weekend place up in La Conner. It is right next to the Hope Island Inn. Do you know the place?

    While up there we frequently end up going up to Anacortes for dinner. One of my favorite haunts is the Brown Lantern (I guess some people call it "the brown"). Love the food and the atmosphere. Great bartenders and wait staff. All a lot of fun!

    Any other places you like to go in your neighborhood?

    Cyndi

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  • jenn3
    jenn3 Member Posts: 3,316
    edited March 2010

    This happened a long.......time ago, but is funny.  Years ago, when my youngest was about 2 she was in the backseat/carseat sucking on a lollipop (she found in her seat) on her way to daycare.  When we got there I couldn't find that darn lollipop anywhere, in a hurry to get to work I blew it off got her into daycare and proceeded to work.  Got to work, opened up, turned on lights and started working.  About an hour later some of my co-workers came into my area, started laughing -  they walked up behind me and pulled the lollipop off of the back of my suit jacket and asked if I was missing anything. I don't know how many people saw me walking in and out of the daycare, the parking lot and my office building with that thing hanging off of my back, but the thought of it still makes me laugh.

    Hoping your spirits have been lifted by now and things get better.......

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  • krcll
    krcll Member Posts: 343
    edited March 2010

    Christy- Oh poor you! What a bummer! The same thing happened to me 2 weeks ago and I was SO disappointed. The upside is that you get a sneak peak into how a chemo-free existence will be. I had felt so run-down the week before so I was almost euphoric when I found the energy to go shopping and make dinner! The week passed quickly and I was even happier when I finally did get my last chemo. I am now one week out and have forgotten how upset I was.... It seems that this has happened to several of us. I suppose it shows that we are getting about as much as we can take and there is a reason they stop after 6 (or 7?) months.

    Cheer up and have a glass of wine to celebrate your chemo-free week ;-)

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  • Gitane
    Gitane Member Posts: 1,885
    edited March 2010

    Well, shoot!  Just when you think you've got a handle on things, this gets thrown into the wash. Platelets can do that, unfortunately.  Your body is saying, "Enough already!"  There are good suggestions here for some distracting activities, and these stories and jokes are fun.  The stage III ladies are the best. I really hope all the scheduling can be fixed and you can wrap up the end of chemo/MRI/surgery soon.  I sure understand how powerful the disappointment can be, especially when we have been through so much already. I'm not sending a kick or a laugh, but only a giant hug.

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  • karen1956
    karen1956 Member Posts: 6,503
    edited March 2010

    and you are entitled to a pity party if you want one....

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  • AnacortesGirl
    AnacortesGirl Member Posts: 1,758
    edited March 2010

    Thanks to all of you!  You wonderful women brought me back up and I'm ready to go again.  And I loved the jokes!  I'm going to enjoy the rest of the week and cross my fingers that this will also bring up my RBCs so I get some energy back. 

    Thanks for being there when I needed you.

    ck55 -

    I definitely know the place.  Great hamburgers and great beer.  We don't go out to eat very often - part of it is our lifestyle and part of it is that there is definitely a small selection in this town!  I really like the greek restaurant.  Can't remember the name.  But that's the great thing about Anacortes - when someone asks you where the restaurant is and where it's located you just tell them to drive down Commercial and you'll find it.  Hard to get lost.

    Hope Island is a great area to have a weekend place!  Quiet and beautiful.

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  • Beverly11
    Beverly11 Member Posts: 443
    edited March 2010

    Before BC, we had so much more control of our lives and able to plan things.  Now, we really have to go with the flow which is SO SO difficult. 

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