different planet

Sometimes I feel that post-cancer I live on a different planet from most of my friends and family.  It's not that we don't have good relationships, but there is a difference - I have been through a lot that I couldn't have imagined, and sure didn't want to go through.  When they complain about health worries, I find myself half listening - they have no idea.  I feel like they are "cancer virgins", which of course they are - wish I was too!  The other part of it is that I have come through - changed, but I survived.  I get impatient with myself too, because I don't seem to have quite the energy or resilience that I used to.  I have a couple of family members who LOVE sharing every test, every ache with you, and dramatizing every thing the dr. says - I'm not kidding!  I just shake my head - what I would have given to hear "it's nothing", and they don't seem happy about it!  Just amazes me!

I know I'm feeling extra this way right now, because my son't marriage is breaking up.  He is paraplegic, and I think his wife just doesn't want to be married to someone with a disability.  I can't help feeling and thinking that she is just not the girl we thought she was.

I have a button someone gave me that says "I've survived dammed near everything", and boy that is how I feel sometimes!