Today I did something very out of character

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mom3band1g
mom3band1g Member Posts: 817
edited June 2014 in DCIS (Ductal Carcinoma In Situ)
Today I did something very out of character
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  • mom3band1g
    mom3band1g Member Posts: 817
    edited February 2010

    I took a vase and smashed it (in the driveway).  I have never done that before but it felt really good.  I had to do my pre-op stuff today and meet with a genetic counselor.  Just kinda a sucky day.  Felt good to release some tension. 

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  • Leah_S
    Leah_S Member Posts: 8,458
    edited February 2010

    I threw a chair (ok, it was plastic but still a chair) across my kitchen one day.

    Out of character doesn't BEGIN to describe that for me.

    So I know where you're coming from. And so do the other ladies here.

    Leah

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  • June2268
    June2268 Member Posts: 1,202
    edited February 2010

    I haven't done either of those things, but I bet I would feel better maybe I should try it.....

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  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited February 2010

    Hope you are feeling better!  Don't run over the pieces!!

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  • mom3band1g
    mom3band1g Member Posts: 817
    edited February 2010

    I would have thrown a chair...but I didn't want to scare the kids!  It's hard to be that mad and still try to be rational.  I didn't want to throw in the house (too messy), didn't want to scare the kids, etc.  So silly.  Did feel good though.  I guess anger is just a part of it.

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  • Merilee
    Merilee Member Posts: 3,047
    edited February 2010

    A sludge hammer is a beautiful thing! LOL

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  • sweatyspice
    sweatyspice Member Posts: 922
    edited February 2010

    Congratulations! 

    I was watching my guilty pleasure, Celebrity Rehab w/ Dr. Drew, and in the last episode they all went out to a junkyard.  The addicts got baseball bats, sledgehammers, bowling balls, golf clubs, etc to smash stuff with; and glass bowls and stuff to throw.  I was insanely jealous.

      

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  • somanywomen
    somanywomen Member Posts: 872
    edited February 2010
    Congratulations mom3band1g...with so much grace and dignity on these posts, it is nice to see that some are getting mad and dam mad....If we could just bottle this anger and send it to the FDA...I for one put so much BC blame on the poisons that they keep playing down and continue putting in our foods and other products that we have blindly and trustingly used for the last decades......We should all take our pink vases to:
     
    U.S. Food and Drug Administration ·
    10903 New Hampshire Ave.
    Silver Spring, MD
     
    and smash them on thier doorsteps!!!!!
     
     
     
     
     
     
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  • mom3band1g
    mom3band1g Member Posts: 817
    edited February 2010

    Have my vase and am ready to head on to the FDA.......  My dh wanted to know what all the glass in the driveway was from..  I started laughing and he said 'You?".  Yup, me.  He offered to clean it up but I'll do it.  He's sweet.  I just got mad that cancer took one whole effing day.  One day away from my daughter.  I am putting my daughter in preschool now instead of the fall so she has some stability when I start radiation.  I know she will love it and is probably ready for it (she's just turned 4) but it wasn't 100% my choice.  does that make sense?  DCIS is such a difficult diagnosis for me...on the one hand it's "the good cancer" (I hate that phrase) and my treatment should be relatively simple but it's still cancer.  It's just really hard to know what to feel....why can't I just accept it and move on?  I just can't.  I go day to day just fine.  I end up consoling those around me telling them I am fine.  Then out of the blue the tears come.  On the days I have to 'do' something in regards to cancer (Dr's) it smacks me in the face that I have cancer.  I am an emotional wreck for 2 days.  On the rest of the days I just pretend it isn't there......even though it's like a broken record in my head.  GAHH~ Thanks for letting me ramble.  It's hard to talk to people who haven't been there.  You all are the only ones who truly get it.

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  • Linda54
    Linda54 Member Posts: 2,689
    edited February 2010

    At least you are letting your anger out.  I held mine in for 20 months as it changed me as a person and was affecting my marriage.  I finally had a meltdown on New Years weekend and it was instant relief.  I am back to my old self and marriage is great again.  Not good to hold these things in....wish I had broken something early on in this journey.

    I had a lumpectomy with rads 23 yrs prior to my 2nd DX.  I felt like I did not fit in with other cancer gals because I did not go through chemo or lose my breast. (I had a good experience)  Almost 2 yrs ago my 2nd DX was DCIS in the same breast.  I decided that 2 times in my life (54 yrs at 2nd dx)  was enough for me so I had a bi-lateral with recon.  I have been very fortunate not to have gone through chemo or take any drugs but now I do feel I fit in.   I am in a support group where before I would not go.

    DCIS is breast cancer.

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited February 2010

    I threw a basket of toys clear across the room and they smashed into the wall.  It was wonderful.  I was diagnosed Nov 12, and had my surgery Jan 25.  Those weeks of waiting were horrible.  The question marks around dcis were driving me crazy.  It just seems they dont know quite enough about it, so you make the choices you can and go with it.  I will say, the past 12 days (post surgery), I have felt a peace I have not felt in a long time.  

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