YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

My story, briefly:  Multicentric grade 3 DCIS - 2 areas in opposite parts of one breast, very far apart - the other breast was clear.  Large breasts, but asymmetrical to begin with and the disease was in the smaller breast.

My first surgeon passionately advocated for mastectomy.  Many, many other consults followed - with a continuum of opinions.

I just couldn't do a mastectomy.  I almost had my mind wrapped around it, but could never really accept it.

I was terrified of doing 2 lumpectomies, not getting clean margins, having to go in again and again, ending up with a mastectomy anyway - and also how REALLY lopsided I'd probably end up if we were successful

I went back and forth for months, freaking out, not knowing what to do, unable to make a decision.

I finally ended up with a BS/PS surgical team who suggested doing the two lumpectomies combined with a reduction and lift.  That way, the BS could take out more tissue (best chance to get all the cancer out) and not have to worry so much about the cosmetic difference, size-wise.

Had the surgery on Thurs.  I've gone from Ds to something like Bs and it's utterly strange & disconcerting, it was a big surgery, painful, etc etc etc.  I gambled that in the end, I'd be left with my own breasts with sensation, and looking smaller but reasonably normal.  I was terrified I'd go through this only to find that the margins still wouldn't be clear and that I'd have mutilated a healthy breast for no reason, and that I was back to mastectomy and recon......

I just got a call from my BS - THE MARGINS ARE CLEAR, IT WAS ALL STAGE 0 DCIS, NO NEED FOR A SNB, NO CHEMO.......YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!

Now I have to hope my breasts heal well, the pain goes away, I survive rads and Tamox, don't get a recurrence and never have to mutilate my body again....but for right now, this moment, YAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

Man, going through this stuff is HELL!!!