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On April 5 of 2005 I awoke to feel a lump in my left breast.  It was about the size of a pea and was as hard as a rock.  Being only 25 years old and not having a family history of breast cancer my family continued  to tell me that it wa probably a milk pocket and not to worry.  It grew at a very rapid rate.  I didnt have insurance so i put off going to the doctor as long as i could hoping it would go away.  When I went to the doctor in july and he suggested that i get a mammogram.  I did and the also did a breast sonogram.  the doctor there told me that it was a fibroid cyst.  Non cancerous.  That it would just have to be removed.  Then it was probably the size of a half dollar.  Finally in September I got insurance and made the appointment with the specialist to get it removed.  He reviewed my mammogram and scheduled me for surgery 2 week later.  On the way home he told me to come back.  He said his sister in law was going through stage 4 breast cancer and he just wanted to do a biopsy to be on the safe side.  4 days later my husband and i sat in his office while he told us that i did indeed have breast cancer and they where going to have to remove my left breast.  6 days later on Oct 5 2005 I received a radical left mastectomy.  I didnt even have time to say goodbye to my breast.  By the time it was removed it grew so big my skin on my beast couldnt stretch anymore.  When removed it was 8 x 20 cms.  I received chemotherapy along with radiation and I am here today.  Very grateful indeed, but havent really lived my life since.  Fell into a depression that just finally am pulling myself out of.  I except my body for how it is.  Reconstruction isnt an option for me.  I just have never had anyone to talk to that could relate to what i have gone through.  Then i found this website.  I feel like all the doors around me are opening.  Hope is something i have now.