My Treatment

sammygrey44
sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62

I met with my oncologist today for the first time.  I have ER/PR + with HER- and 2 our of 3 positive nodes (3 nodes were pulled during SNR).  She wants to make sure and make my ovaries non-functional through CMF (6 months) and then 12 weeks of Taxol (weekly)... in her words and I know she didn't mean this meanly and it didn't come across rudely, she wanted to "kill" my ovaries, which can be done with medicine or by surgical removal.  Basically, cut off 3 of my main hormones: estrogen, progesterone, and the bit of testosterone that women make.  I am feeling very depressed today and can't imagine.  I'm 41 -- can't believe that I"m now going to be thrown into menopause.  I know it could be A LOT worse and thankfully I have options, but it's still hard to deal with. . . six weeks ago I didn't even know I had cancer. Surprised I'm thinking about a second opinion, but since my cancer is so ER/PR receptive I can't imagine any onc saying anything different.  I start chemo in 3 weeks -- have to get my port, etc.  Thanks ahead of time for any responses.

By the way, I can't stand it when I piss n' moan, but I needed to piss n' moan a little tonight -- thanks for your ear! 

Take care and hope all of y'all are well!

Sammy 

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  • Kleenex
    Kleenex Member Posts: 764
    edited September 2009

    Hi, Sammy - you have a little bit of time to ask questions. I would consider getting a second opinion - even having another oncologist recommend the same thing without using the phrase "kill your ovaries" would likely help. On the good side, you may find other recommendations that sit better with you. The worst you can end up with, really, is a confirmation of what the initial oncologist suggested. There might be another way. There are very few absolutes in this fight, and it is important that you are informed and also that you are on board with what the oncologist is recommending.

    My original oncologist had very different recommendations than the one I ended up going with. He was going to recommend chemo or not based solely on tumor size, example, and never mentioned the oncotype DX test. Also, he wanted to shut down my ovaries with Lupron. I'm taking Tamoxifen, and my current oncologist thinks that's enough.

    Good luck to you!

    Coleen

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Thanks for your response, Coleen, and I'm certainly thinking about making an appt. with a different onc on Monday.  I really do like my onc and she's known for her research all over the country -- I just think the positive nodes throw oncologists into a dither to catch and kill any stray cancer cells that may be lurking, and since mine feeds on estrogen, I totally understand where she's coming from; however, I'd also hope that maybe 4 rounds instead of 6 rounds of CMF followed by Taxol would be enough, and then maybe my ovaries would surivive that and be able to eke out a little estrogen and progesterone!  Crap! I feel selfish because some people have NO options with cancer and here I am crying over losing my ovaries -- makes me want to kick myself, but I can't help it right now. . . I'm worried of what I will be without what I have now. 

    Take good care and thanks again for your reponse!

    Sammy

  • nash
    nash Member Posts: 2,600
    edited September 2009

    Sammy, absolutely get another opinion. My first onc was hot on the ovary shut-down idea. I have a new onc now, and she is not recommending either chemical or surgical menopause. In fact, she was glad my period came back after chemo--she feels the more the body is functioning normally, the better. I was 38 (almost 39) at diagnosis, and am 41 now. My tumor was moderately ER/PR positive.

  • dlb823
    dlb823 Member Posts: 9,430
    edited September 2009

    Sammygrey ~  I read your PM late last night, but it was too late to answer it.  Now, I'm glad to see you raising the questions you are today, because my first impression from your PM was also that you might want to get a second opinion.  I know you like your onc, and she sounds more open-minded than some.  But if you were 100% comfortable with her recommendations, you would not be continuing to question what she's suggesting.

    I'm not sure where you're located or where you're being treated, but if you're close to an NCI-designated facility, I'd suggest trying to get a second opinion there.  Here's a list of them:

    http://cancercenters.cancer.gov/cancer_centers/map-cancer-centers.html

    If you're not near one, I'd call the closest one and see if they can maybe recommend an oncologist in your area.

    I'm also just a bit concerned that you have 2 out of 3 positive nodes, but I don't know if anyone has suggested to you that you might need more nodes removed and checked.  Assuming the 2 positive ones were in the sentinel node area, from my own experience, I know UCLA strongly wanted to check additional nodes (Level 1 & 2), to see if there were any additional positive ones.  If you have chemo first, you will never know if you had more positive nodes.  I know preadjuvant chemo is getting more popular now, and it makes sense if you are trying to avoid a mastectomy to try to shrink the breast lesion.  But I'm not sure it doesn't sometimes cloud staging -- so it's just something else you might want to be sure to get more input on to be entirely clear on the pros & cons before you start chemo.  Take care ~  Deanna  

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Deanna, yes, I'm going to have my level 1 and 2 axillary nodes removed when I have my mastectomy.  She thinks chemo would be better to have before surgery since it's in my nodes and could be "on the move."  She mentioned TC (6 treatments) followed by Xoemda (spelling? I don't have my notes handy) for 4 and a half months as another option, but she thinks getting rid of the ovaries (slow kill with CMF) is the best and most "sure" trt.  I'm going to opt for that route over the CMF for 6 and half months and the 3 months of weekly Taxol = I know I'm repeating myself, forgive me. Embarassed I am more than likely going to get another opinion and check out the site you posted.  I think my onc will be willing to work with me, but I"m just not sure what to do right now.  Oh well, thanks again for your response.  My head hurts and I feel "Ugh!," but I guess that's to be expected.

    Take good care,

    Shelley (Sammy)

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Nash, thanks so much for your response, and I think you're right: more than likely I will get a second opinion.  I'm going to try and speak with my onc on the phone next week, and let her know how I'm feeling.  She's not a "my way or the highway" kind of onc, but I may need to just get another persespective all together.  I'll keep you posted!

    Thanks again for your post!

    Shelley

  • dlb823
    dlb823 Member Posts: 9,430
    edited September 2009

    Shelley ~  You can always take your second or even third opinions back to the onc you have now.  Getting a second opinion doesn't mean you have to go with that onc, and I think most caring, thinking oncs are happy to have input from other oncs to consider.  Unfortunately, oncology is not always a  black or white type of call, and since you may be the one making the final decision, I think it's best to get as much information as you can, so that you can challenge opinions and be sure you get what you are comfortable with.  

    I also wanted to mention that one reason I highly recommend NCI-designated cancer centers -- aside from my own experience, which happened because of my sister's (who is in the field) insistence that they're the best -- is the fact that they see far more bc than most other facilities, so they have the experience to pick up on subtle differences between us and our bcs.  They are also on the cutting edge of treatment options and changes because this is where the research that drives those changes is being done.   Deanna

  • Gitane
    Gitane Member Posts: 1,885
    edited September 2009

    Shelley,  You are getting such great advice here.  Just wanted to say I agree.  More opinions is a pain in the ....., but it is the reassurance you get from hearing their reasons for the recommendations that makes it worth it.  Knowing the stage you are in by removing more nodes is probably very important.  Yes, you have positive nodes and this may not change your treatment decision, but you won't know that for sure without looking at the nodes before chemo.  Yes, it's another surgery.  UGH!  Ultimately you choose, but more information makes that choice more clear.  If you like your oncologist, there is no reason you cannot be treated by him/her with the treatment of your choice.

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Gitane,

    I"m going to call my onc tomorrow and ask about the advantages of having the nodes removed now.  She seems to want to get me on my way with chemo, but if staging makes a great difference, and it sounds like it might, then I need to go ahead and get the nodes removed.  I was told by the PA in my surgeon's office that I'm either IIa or IIb -- can't be sure because the margins weren't clear (none of them) and the nodes.  I'll keep y'all posted.  

    Thanks so much for your response, and I hope you're doing well. 

    Take good care,

    Sammy

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Deanna, I just that site for the chance of seeing an onc from an NCI-designated facility.  There's one in San Antonio, which is where I work, but I'm having my chemo and surgeries in Dallas, so I guess I need to find one here.  I may call UCLA tomorrow to see if they can recommend someone, or I may just call that one in San Antonio and see if he knows of anyone good up this way.

    I really appreciate all the info. you've provided.  I'm pretty sure I'll end up going with the TC -- just want to get another opinion before I go forward.

    Take good care,

    Sammy

  • rgiuff
    rgiuff Member Posts: 1,094
    edited September 2009

    Sammy, don't feel bad for complaining.  If I were in your shoes, I'd be doing the same.  You didn't do anything to deserve breast cancer, and then to hear that the treatment involves not just removing your breast or part of it, but also to have to give up your sex hormones, is like a double whammy. 

    I'd definitely get a second opinion because some oncs are more aggressive than others and you may find one who thinks the way that Nash's does.  At least then you'd have a choice about what type of approach you want to take.  And you can even get a 3rd opinion if you're torn between the first 2.  It's very common to do so in this situation.

    Also, I know it's controversial, but you might ask if removing more nodes is necessary since you are going to have chemo anyway, which could possibly kill off the cancer in the nodes.  Having many lymph nodes removed puts you at higher risk of lymphedema.  If you go to the forum  on here called:  Chemotherapy, Before, During and After and click on the discussion titled  "Does chemo zap cancer in nodes", there is some interesting information on this subject.  Some of the women reported that their doctors agreed that removal of additional nodes was for staging purposes only, so not necessary if chemo was already planned.

  • Gitane
    Gitane Member Posts: 1,885
    edited September 2009

    I agree with not removing more nodes if it isn't important to do so.  It's good to get opinions from the pros on this.

  • Kleenex
    Kleenex Member Posts: 764
    edited September 2009

    Sammygrey - I'm in the DFW area, and it sounds like you are? My oncologists and breast surgeon are in Bedford, in the mid-cities area. PM me if you'd like a recommendation for a second opinion in this area...

    Coleen

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Rose, Gitane, Coleen, Deanna, and Nash,

    I will certainly look into any options regarding removing more nodes.  My PET scan came back clear, but the radiologist stated in the report that ILC is hard to detect using a PET scan. Yell

    There's a crazy part of me that wants to skip chemo and have the double mastectomy with radiation and then go on Tamoxifen and hope for the best, but I don't think that crazy part will prevail, even though we may find in coming years that that was actually a more sane route = who knows!

    Here's another issue I"m dealing with:  I'm an assistant principal in San Antonio, but my home (my house, family, and friends) are in Dallas.  I came here for the job about 9 months ago, and I love what I do.  Now, I was thinking about doing chemo in Dallas and commuting back and forth whenever I have the chemo = a 4 and a half hour drive; however, now I'm thinking that it may be better to do it in San Antonio since I'm here working most of the time. . . that means finding an onc. in SA.  Grrrrrr!  Deanna, I looked at the NCI oncologists in Texas and three were listed -- one in SA, but he's not a breast oncologist, so I'm not sure.  I may call his office and ask for a referral in their facility. 

    I REALLY appreciate y'all responding to my plea, which posting this was a plea for help -- this has been probably one of the roughest weekends of my life -- thanks again!

    Take good care,

    Sammy

  • dlb823
    dlb823 Member Posts: 9,430
    edited September 2009

    Sammy ~ Doing chemo 4.5 hrs. from home probably isn't ideal.  I had a similar situation because I am being treated @ UCLA, which is on the far west side of LA, and I live 3 hrs. away, near Palm Springs.  My UCLA onc strongly encouraged me to find an onc in my area that she would work with, which is what I did.  She said it was not a good idea to have chemo so far from home because if you have a problem, it's too far to get to them.  And if you show up at a local ER, no one will know your situation or have your records.  I think many oncs would feel the same way. 

    Skipping chemo, even with a bilateral mast, I think would be a HUGE gamble with 2 positive nodes.  I fought doing chemo for weeks, but an 11-year survivor friend said the thing that helped her decide and made the most sense to me was the question, "If you didn't do chemo and it ever came back, how would you feel?"  And I knew I could never forgive myself for that kind of gamble.

    Just some additional things to thing about ~   Deanna

  • nash
    nash Member Posts: 2,600
    edited September 2009

    Oh, Sammy, big hugs. You're in one of the worst parts of this--trying to get the adjuvant treatment going.

    When you settle on an onc, see if they'll run Oncotype DX on your tumor. It's usually used for node-negative patients, but they've been using it on postmenopausal node-positive patients. It's worth asking if it's being used at all on premenopausal node-positive patients. I don't think it is, but ask.

    It's not unreasonable to forgo chemo. Chemo is not necessarily superior to HT--the tumor biology drives what the most effective adjuvant treatment is (which is why Oncotype DX can be a helpful treatment decision tool). How big was your tumor? How ER/PR positive was it in terms of percentages? Those are things to consider as well.

    The flip side of the chemo/HT thing is that there are some studies that are showing ILC (they don't know if it's all or just some) is Tamoxifen resistent. See info here:

    http://www.breastcancer.org/treatment/hormonal/new_research/20081030b.jsp

    That being said, I'm on Tamoxifen.

    As far as chemo in Dallas vs SA goes, commuting will be hard. Working will be hard. It may be easier to take a leave of absence if possible, and do the chemo in Dallas where you have family and a support system.

    I know there are women who have worked while on chemo, and you might want to post a separate thread over on the chemo board to get people's experiences on that, but I know that personally I couldn't have dragged myself anywhere 40 hours a week while on chemo. However, I did take care of my two young children and my Stage IV bc mom (who died while I was still on treatment), plus worked a few hours a week as an accountant, so maybe I could've worked full-time. I don't know. But being an AP is pretty demanding.

    Hope I haven't muddied the waters further. Glad the PET was clear, but yeah, ILC is really hard to image, even on PET, and that's something that freaks me out on a regular basis. Bah. 

  • nash
    nash Member Posts: 2,600
    edited September 2009
    Deanna, you and I were posting at the same time. Sealed You're right about the local ER, etc. Also wanted to add that it's more than just the chemo every 3 weeks or whatever--one has to go in to the cancer center every week for a blood draw to check CBC, and also to get Neupogen (which can be a shot a day for 3 days) or Neulasta. I also saw my onc for an appointment in between chemo rounds. So one ends up spending a lot of time at the cancer center aside from the actual chemo infusion itself, and proximity really does need to be the driver in the onc selection.
  • cd1234
    cd1234 Member Posts: 169
    edited September 2009

    Hi Sammy,

    I had 4 rounds of AC and 12 weekly doses of Taxol. I worked the entire time, and took care of my 7 year old son by myself most nights. My husband is out of town 3 nights a week. It was hard to keep working through chemo, but I did it! when I was first diagnosed, I was terrified of chemo. I decided that I was going to treat this the most aggressive way that I could. I do not regret any of it. I am 5 weeks out from my last round of Taxol, and loving life!

    Take Care!

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Crystal, thanks for your post.  I'm going to keep my chin up and make it through this.  I"ve barely begun the journey, so I'm still in awe (not the good kind) of what the short-term future holds, but the support of the wonderful folks on this board gives me strength, knowledge (spelling?), and encouragement!  YEA! Laughing

    Take good care and keep loving life after your last round of Taxol -- I hope the C is 100% in your past. . . after the treatments that we all endure (mine soon to come), I hope IT is in everyone's past!

    Sammy

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Happy Sunday to Everyone!

    I have a question about monitoring cancer cells in the bodies of folks who have ILC -- or for anyone who has cancer.  When my PET scan was read, there was a statement at the end from the radiliogist who said that PET scans aren't very reliable when it comes to ILC.  :(  If PET scans aren't, how are we supposed to monitor whether or not we have cancer somewhere else in our bodies?  I hope we wouldn't have to wait until a mass is formed.  My mom has mentioned  cancer cell search, which I"m going to ask about.  I'm having my port put in this Thursday, and then I"m getting my second opinion later that afternoon, so Thursday will be busy!  More than likely, I"ll be starting chemo the following week -- not sure yet.  How did the estrogen deprivation affect y'all? I"m really worried about stopping most of my hormone production, but there just aren't many options. 

    I hope everyone is doing well!  Y'all have been such a help to me. . . thanks again. Smile

    Take good care,

    Sammy

  • dlb823
    dlb823 Member Posts: 9,430
    edited September 2009

    Sammy ~ I'm so glad you asked that question.  I'm seeing my BS @ UCLA tomorrow, and I will ask her about that.  I already had a question on my list for her about the possible benefit of thermography as a screening tool, and I've just added your question about Petscans & ILC to my list.  Perhaps someone will be along ASAP who knows the answer; if not, I'll let you know what she says.   Deanna

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited September 2009

    Thanks, Deanna.  I know that there is some sort of cell search test that can identify cancer, but I don't know much about it, obviously.  We need some sort of baseline to compare to as we go back in for check-ups.  You ask your BS and I'll ask the oncologist that I"m going to see on Thursday.  I"m also going to ask about my nodes and staging; I sure hope that I can avoid having any more taken, but I doubt that will be the case. 

    Have a great week!

    Sammy

  • lene17
    lene17 Member Posts: 27
    edited September 2009

    Nash - re: your comment about ILC being tamoxifen resistant....I was on tamoxifen for about 7 months and that cy....test said I was an intermediate receptor of it.  Are you saying that, with our type of cancer, tamox. isn't the drug of  choice?  I still have my insides intact - so - imagine my surprise at my annual gyno appt to find that tamox. had thickened my uterine lining and I needed to have a "giant" polyp (which might have been a fibroid - don't you just love when doctors are so nonchalant about things??) removed.  I'm now on aromasin.  6 surgical procedures in one year is a bit much.  Going to the onc. in October after 6 months - hoping all is well.  

  • Kleenex
    Kleenex Member Posts: 764
    edited September 2009

    The issue of "how do we find it" brings up one of the things that initially freaked me out about cancer treatment. I think that the reality is that although they're looking initially to determine where the cancer is at diagnosis to help tailor the treatments, they're not really looking for it in the body after that unless you have some sort of issue. If you keep breast tissue, you continue to have that examined for new primaries or recurrences, but if it shows up somewhere else in your body, you are stage IV and then it's a matter of managing it, whether you have a small cluster of cells or it has shown up in several areas. I think in triple negative women with high-grade cancers, they are more aggressive in doing scans, etc., because it's more likely to come back or spread in the first two or three years. But with a highly er/pr receptor positive cancer that was low grade, like a lot of ILC is, my followup consists of breast surveillance and tumor marker blood tests. And they're asking me how I am feeling. Apparently, if something starts to hurt or feel weird, other than just the stuff affected by Tamoxifen, we'll look into it at that point.

    Bizarre.

  • nash
    nash Member Posts: 2,600
    edited September 2009

    Lene--check out the link to the info on Tamoxifen/ILC in my post above. Some studies are showing that some ILC (they don't know if it's all cases) seem to be Tamoxifen resistent due to an increased number of gamma receptors on the bc cells that block the Tamoxifen's effectiveness.

    This research is very preliminary, and in no way should be construed to mean that ILC girls shouldn't take Tamoxifen. I am on Tamox, and there has not been any discussion by my onc of shutting down my ovaries so I can go on an AI.

    But holey moley, sorry to hear that Tamoxifen gave you uterine thickening and big honkin' polyp after just 7 months on it! Were you having heavy bleeding or did the gyn figure this all out by pelvic exam? I just went for a pelvic u/s last week (ordered by my gyn and poo-pooed by my onc as unnecessary) to check for thickening, etc, so we shall see if anything's percolating in my innards as well. Hope the Aromasin agrees with you and that the next year will be more uneventful for you. Smile

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited October 2009

    well, got my port in - a little sore, but i'm okay. Undecided went for my second opinion. . . in many ways heard the same, but this onc wasn't as decidedly aggressive about "killin' my ovaries."  he said that the tc x 6 will probably do that anyway -- i'm hoping that they hang on, at least to where they can function a little after all of this is through -- when will it ALL be through!  (that can be a scary thought!Frown) i'm planning on starting chemo the 16th and i'll have treatments where my house, family, and friends are, not where i work - i live in dallas, but work in san antonio (i do need to give a "shout out" to my work pals -- they've been great!).  oh well, i'll have to make it work.  i'm still researching tamoxifin -- not sure what to think about having to do that for 5 years, but i don't have to decide "yea" or "nay" on that yet, but that's yet another decision lurking in the shadows.  i DID ask my breast surgeon what she thought about the other onc suggesting that i remove all the nodes in the level 1 and 2 axillary, and my breast surg thought that was a bit much.  she suggested that we take another 3 or 4 during my bilateral mastectomy -- she thought that would be enough to tell how far the cancer had traveled -- she didn't think it had moved too far down the node line -- love her optimism! 

    bottom line: i feel healthy, overall, and i can't stand the thought of having chemo and putting my body through something so harsh, but i just can't risk NOT doing it.  GRRRRRR!!!

    i hope all of y'all are healthy and well.  i love reading all of everyone's posts -- i'm learning so much!

    take good care,

    sammy

  • rgiuff
    rgiuff Member Posts: 1,094
    edited October 2009

    Nash, it's encouraging to hear that there are actually some Oncs out there who think like yours, and don't scare young women into ovary removal, with all its devastating side effects, as a way to fight breast cancer.  It bothers me tremendously that this is the best they can come up with for fighting breast cancer, taking away our hormones that help keep our bodies running properly, not to mention how important they are for our sex lives!  I'm hoping that they will soon come up with something that kills the cancer cells and not our hormones.

  • nash
    nash Member Posts: 2,600
    edited October 2009

    I absolutely agree, Rose. I was actually happy when my period came back after chemo, b/c I felt like at least part of me was functioning properly. I'm really happy with my new onc and her conservative approach, b/c that's what I'm comfortable with and what I think suits my situation.

  • momand2kids
    momand2kids Member Posts: 1,508
    edited October 2009

    sammy,

    for what it is worth- chemo can be ok--- I know everyone is different but my experience of 4 rounds of A/C after a lumpectomy Iwas that it was ok--I worked through almost all of it, I have two young children--- I am not saying it was easy, but it can be done..... and the best part for me was that once I decided to have chemo based on an oncotype score that was in the gray area, I never lost another minute's sleep----- it was the right decision for me and drove down my risk of recurrence to just about 8% or lower- which is pretty good.  It is hard to go through- but if you are essentially healthy and hopefully don't have a reaction to the drugs, you will get through it.... and believe it or not, it will recede from your memory before you know it.  I wish you well---- 

    I agree with rgiuff-- my onc did not think an ooph was necessary--- I have monthly lupron shots to shut down my ovaries.

    Carole

  • sammygrey44
    sammygrey44 Member Posts: 62
    edited October 2009

    Nash, Rose, and Carole,

    Thanks for y'all's responses -- I'm constantly learning more.  I'm working through my feelings about chemo, and I just can't wait to get going -- the sooner it's going, the sooner it's over. Cool

    I'm still not sure what to think about Tamoxifin, but for now I'm just going to focus on chemo and getting through -- then it'll be on to the next step in this journey. 

    Rose, I totally agree: ovaries are put on the "hit list" when the cancers are er/pr+ and I'm just hoping mine can make it through TC x 6 = time will tell.

    Take good care! 

    Sammy

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