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  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Great Warrior!  Bring them on.  Saint, how are you doing?  Miss you and others who haven't posted in a while.  Farila, thinking of you too.

    Have a good weekend ladies!

    Nancy

  • arnie
    arnie Member Posts: 3,050
    edited August 2009

    Warrior.... loved it!!!!

  • Warrior517
    Warrior517 Member Posts: 355
    edited August 2009

    Thank you, sisters! I know you all can so relate to each and every word!

    Arnie- you from Michigan?? I am in Shelby Twp!

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    Pantafus you said it so well.. My son has been an amazing kid all these years. May be it is because he saw me go through cancer and took care not to hurt me. Off course that made him a wonderful young man today. Check him out on my blog http://chaptersfrommylife.blogspot.com/2009/08/my-wonder-boy-is-18-today_20.html 

    Warrior .. we all have similar stories but I am sure I could never say it the way you did.

    Love and hugs to all of you wonderful people

    Farila

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    Another one from my teen years..

    May be I had been in love sometime Wink

              SILENT LOVE..

    Love is great; for sure it's a matter of pride

    But what is love if in heart is has to hide?

    Where it lies lazily failing to achieve its goal

    How can it then console a poor craving soul?

    Like, though in abundance is the frothing water of sea

    It fails to ease the thirst of even a soul so tiny and wee

    Lots of water but not a single drop to drink

    What a huge waste if you do care to think

    Though natural and for nobody's fault

    The poor monstrous demon is so full of salt

    Someone close to it as close as its shore

    Fails to have a drop even if parched to core

    If not like the salty water of sea vaporizing

    Then metamorphosing to grey clouds on rising

    Coming down again as rain so sweet and pure

    The thirsty and parched, now it has power to cure

    So should love, out of heart must flow

    Along with soul the face should glow

    Like rain filled clouds roaming the skies

    A yearning and lovely look must float in eyes

    Sweet fragrant words from tongue should rain

    Bearing the power of love to free any soul from pain

    As rain adorns with green the dry parched earth

    So will confessed love give life a new birth

    If not,what is love if hidden in thee?

    Like the wasted salty water of sea.

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Farila,

    If you are not a famous poet, you should be!  That was profound.  It seems that anything that comes from you is profound.  I am honored to read what you write.  I will have to check out your blog.  We don't expect it to happen that way but sometimes our children become our strength.

    arnie, it was good to hear from you again.  Miss all of our other ladies.  Apple, are you okay?  You seemed to be very harried the last time you posted.  I hope things have calmed down for you.  Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

    Love and hugs

    Nancy

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    ha... I am always busy.. my life is so full of responsibities, music to learn, my husbands business and relatives.. i like it that way.

    nice poem again Farila!

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Hi apple,

    Glad you are okay.  Thanks for takin time to let us know!

    Nancy

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    Thank you ladies.. Those are poems laying somewhere unseen by anyone so far.. You are making me share them with you because I am comfortable here.

    Love and hugs

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Farila, I feel honored that you are sharing with us.  Thank  you so much.  I wish I could meet you.  In what area do you live.  I have always found other cultures facinating.  Hope you are doing well and will be waiting for another of your poems.

    Love and hugs,

    Nancy

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Farila, I feel honored that you are sharing with us.  Thank  you so much.  I wish I could meet you.  In what area do you live.  I have always found other cultures facinating.  Hope you are doing well and will be waiting for another of your poems.

    Love and hugs,

    Nancy

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    "Those are poems laying somewhere unseen by anyone so far"

    Farila, even your prose is poetic.  Hope all is well.

  • Warrior517
    Warrior517 Member Posts: 355
    edited August 2009

    I wrote this one a few months ago when one of my implants failed due to rads.......

    It's Just a Breast.......

    By: Kathy Negro/ Breast Cancer Warrior

    I am a breast cancer survivor or warrior, as I like to say

    I now learn to appreciate life for each and every day

    In just a short 1 ½ years ago, it all began with a simple call

    You have breast cancer at 39, my knees they did fall

    I prayed and prayed for strength and inner peace

    To beat this cancer or as I called it, this new found beast

    I went through the surgery on Valentine's Day

    Goodbye to my breasts and goodbye to cancer's way

    I woke up with two implants as my new chest

    Knowing I was now tumor free was the very best

    My faith did not waver as I faced each chemo drug

    My hair fell out, but I was stronger with each hug

    These new implants were firm, round and working out fine

    Then came radiation to my chest, which wasn't so kind

    Little did I know how much radiation would change me

    But, I moved on and forward, which is always the key

    So, I completed my Herceptin, which is an IV med

    Finally felt like I could put the whole beast to bed

    These last few months, I have been feeling so healthy and strong

    This is why I was this past week; I wondered why I felt so wrong

    Chills, fever and complete fatigue took over my body, a bug, so I thought

    It must be the flu or a something that I must have caught

    It ended up being a staph infection to my chest, my right implant has failed

    I see the doctor who says I have been unfortunately side-railed

    Surgery to remove it is needed right away

    So I meet him at the hospital the very next day

    I wake up from surgery with a sense of sadness and pain

    Trying to figure out what this surgery has had me gain

    I put on my mask of courage and strength for all to see

    But, inside I was waiting to let fear be free

    It's just a breast so many do say

    I try to stay strong in the bed that I lay

    They are right and I know it but my mind is trying to sort things out

    It all happened so fast, I want to say STOP in a very loud shout!

    I did not see this part of the journey

    It snuck up behind me

    I did not buy bras, inserts or even know what I'd see

    This beast has changed my appearance once again, that I know as "me"!

    My hair, my body has all changed ....I have a new shell

    This body has been through so much living hell

    But, it is when I look at my scars that I see something new

    I never saw it before and this a new cue

    It takes me some time, but I have figured it out

    It is not my breast that this is all about

    It's that my journey that I thought was over, did not end for me

    But I realize now, it never will, it will always be

    I am a warrior; I walk with my scars, some old, some new

    Breast Cancer is me...in all that I do

    Each step forward and each step back, I see the silver lining

    There is no time for pity, complaining and whining

    The Lord is right beside me no matter how many times I fall

    He has his arms around me if I start to bawl

    My strength, my attitude is for all to admire

    But it is not mine; it's from a higher power

    So, this week I lost a breast but gained some insight

    This journey has now shed a new light

    I am a breast cancer warrior with a war that never ends

    But I will win because of my supportive family and friends

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    wow.. that's an incredible poem/ story Kathy.. sorry about your breast.  hope you can get another.

    another poem from me.. a shortie that simply sends kind thoughts

    May the voices and breath of our world that sigh
    with the beauty, wonder and depth of the sky,
    May the turnings of time and the lessons that lie
    in the stones and the leaves and years passing by
    lift up your spirit and fill your heart
    with the knowing that you are a part
    of all that we are and all we may be.

  • saint
    saint Member Posts: 1,877
    edited August 2009

    WOW! Nice to see you are all still here & creating....I continue to battle with weekly transfusions-----praying onc can find the reason or a cure......

    This has been rolling around inside my head for the past week (after dropping Luke off at college)

    "Wait-not yet! Don't go....."

    I have heard this in my head throughout your life!

    I see you smile & remember your first when you were only 3 days old...gas they said, but you pierced my heart.

    The hole in my heart has always been filled with your presence---Wait! Not yet!! They took you away for "procedures" at 4 days, at 4 months, at 15.....

    You went to play football & I feared for your safety. Your dad said to let you go...I cried, "Wait, not yet"

    You found a girlfriend & then another, but it was the third that made me worry--"Wait, not yet--you are too young!"

    Now you are gone & I cry. Not cuz you are far, but because "what was" can never be again....... 

    And still I want to advise---Wait, not yet. There is still so much you don't need to do.........YET

    Be well & stay strong 

      

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    Warrior, Apple and Saint.. Thanks for sharing.

    Saint, it is so touching to read your poem.

    Kathy that is awesome

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited September 2009

    Where is everyone?????? I am missing you.........

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited September 2009

    i can write political satirical poems at the drop of a hat.  Raw emotions and the challenges of this disease test my skills.  I can't just write a poem about my lost boob, my aches and pains, my hopes and fears.. at least not every day.

    So.. what's going on in everyone's lives now?

    I stopped chemo on July 5th, and i have a short short short hairdo.  I started taking Femara.  It's awful but tolerable.  So many aches and pains. I can get my joints going and am usually fully functional.. just hurting.  Sadly, I am much dumber.  I am a pianist and it is suddenly so difficult to learn new music.  A task that used to take 10 minutes now takes an hour.  My hands feel stiff and brittle.   I can still play  - If I can't manage playing for the group I can play the organ, write a book, get a real job or be an artist again.

    My kids are back in school.  (ages 10, 12 and 15).  The house is much neater and I am accomplishing some overdue tasks.  After working on the outside areas.. (about 6) for 12 years they are looking great.  I have slowly been planting, transplanting, building beds, dividing bushes.  In America, one of the new greatest landscaping bushes are the knockout roses.  The plants are very disease tolerant, bloom almost constantly, and don't need much water.   We have a couple houses abutting ours that we rent.  I work on those houses too.  I've planted about 20 of those bushes all around and I tell you.. it looks stunning.. so bright and cheerful.  I planted a lot this last year because I thought I was going to die and I wanted people to say.. "Mary planted all those rose bushes"  but here I am NED at least for now.

    My garden was ok.  I planted rhubarb.  (after my husband built right over my old plants).  Farilla, do you know what rhubarb is?  it's a perrenial about 5 feet across.   It probably comes from India.. Huge leaves come out  and you eat the stems with sugar or honey in pies, cobblers, cakes and chutneys.  It's VERY sour and absolutely delicious with tons of sugar.  It has been so cool in the midwest that the plants starte off very vigorously.. They are huge.  I so want to harvest some stalks but they say not to.. not until the 2nd year.  The tomatoes were awful, but i have some gorgeous delicata squash.. a very sweet flavor squash, great herbs and hot peppers.

    The director of my ensemble now has breast cancer.  She is taking a year off.  Ever since she came to us, we have sounded excellent.  I can manage the group but we don't sound very good when I do, because I don't have a choral background. Maybe I've learned something these last 4 years and I can carry on without too much trouble. She is just about my best friend. We don't visit because we are both so busy.  We have a solidarity, are very much alike and work on the same group -  so we are very close.. producing music together.  I am her right hand woman.  I am so mad at Breast Cancer.  You think it would strike a little further from my closest associate.

    Life is good tho.. .  I am so happy to have hair again. 

    Farilla - I would love to read about India.. what everyday life is like for you. (I particularly enjoy food topics because I used to be a chef.. and love Indian spices and pickles).

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited September 2009

    Sorry about your Director. BC sucks. 

    Thanks for the introduction Apple. Isn't it nice to have a peek at the our sisters of heart. I am 42 yrs. Dx at 29. 2 kids. Married (arranged) but most of the time leading the life of grass widow LOL. Boon and bane of my life. My kids are 14 and 18. They are wonderful and best part of my life. 

    I hail from coastal rural India. I grew up near Bangalore (metro city) in a town called Whitefield. Studied in St.Joseph's Convent upto high school.

    Lived in Bangalore for 35 yrs of my life. Now I live in Byndoor which a village with not much facilities. I still wash clothes on stone. Do not have running water at home. Have a well closeby for water. No dish washers etc. But I went for a computer and internet to keep myself sane. Still it is not big help because I am sort of insane person LOL. I am good cook my kids love my food. In Bangalore I had freedom to do few things which I miss in this close knit environment here.

    I have taken part time work in nearby school where I teach English and do a bit of counseling. I work in schools around my village doing workshops. Also I participate in training programs for parents and teachers of special needs kids.

    Now for the everyday life .. I get up and get the breakfast ready for kids. Pack my daughter off to school and then say bye to son. Log onto internet while munching breakfast and holding either coffee or tea in one hand. Sometimes I am forced to eat on the table because of power cuts. I check mails, support boards and then invade facebook. Chat with friends , play games etc. Read for 1 hour or more. Clean, wash, cook, work work work... Enjoy a dinner and if possible a movie with kids. No TV. Good. If I am not sleepy ..   I read. Once kids are asleep I cannot use computer. We have very small place to live and my son sleeps below the computer LOL.

    Thats enough for now ..

    Take care

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited September 2009

    BTW I have heard about Rhubarb and seen pictures of it. Never tasted it though..

  • saint
    saint Member Posts: 1,877
    edited September 2009

    I feel like sayingn "Can I join?" It feels like a new group getting to know each other & I love this.....

    I was first dx'd in Nov '00; mets to eyes & bones in april '04; lungs in Jan '07. I am currently taking xeloda. Unfortunately after rads in June I have not recovered & I'm also getting transfusions weekly! They don't understand why or how to fix this-SO I am off to the university tomorrow hoping for some answers, but not expecting any....

    I have been a floral designer off & on since I worked my first job in a flower shop at 15 (& no, it is NOT always a fun job! LOL) I have worked other jobs as well, but my favorite was working in the schools. I was an ESL tutor for about 8 years. I then transfered to middle school sp ed. After avoiding both that age & category I found it is the place I LOVED best!!!  Too bad there are few jobs available & none I can commit to while on this silly ride!

    My dh is a HS chemistry teacher. He is quite brilliant & has kept me on my toes for over 30 years. He is my best supporter & without him I'd be pusing up daisies LONG ago! My kids are wonderful. I have an 18 yr old son who just went off to college & a 16 yr old dd who is a busy HS junior. My son is a very talented, bright, & compassionate & a wonderful mimick (but the laziest person I ever knew! LOL) He reminds me of me when I was his age!! DD is a hard-working, successful student whose main interest is theatre. She has the lead in the Fall play. (We tell ppl all the time that we gave birth to our own grandchildren! LOL)

    I have always enjoyed reading & art projects. It never mattered if it was knitting, decorating or cooking---I was in it up to my chin. Thanx to a thread here somewhere I have found the courage to delve into drawing & painting. It's not as good as I'd like, but good enough for a 55 yr old who hasn't done anything like this since 7th grade.

    I love my church, but my main interest is the spiritual. I have experienced some pretty amazing things (outside "church teachings") over the last 5+ years  & I am amazed & fascinated by the possibilities......which helps me face the inevitable!

    I love this thread-- Guess I have "Joined" officially!! LOL

    Be well & stay strong

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited September 2009

     interesting how you have to adjust your thinking when you have cancer.

    You're so positive Saint. 

    as they say; Thanks for sharing.

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited September 2009

    I agree.. This thread changed but it feels so nice to come and get to know you. Thansk for sharing Saint. Hope they will find ans for you soon...

  • arnie2two
    arnie2two Member Posts: 1,215
    edited September 2009

    Enjoyed reading about you all soooo much!  Always come here to see the new inspiring poems.

      I am a 56 year old woman who has lived the professional life, a histologist (study of tissue) and worked for some pretty interesting pathologists over the years.  I  "retired" and started taking care of my grandbabies when my dd had her first child in 2006.  I am the grandmother to two beautiful children, Trent 4 and Lilah 19 months.  They are the joy of my life and we are very close.   I'm getting ahead of myself! lol  I married my dh 31 years ago on September 23.  We have two great children, a dd is 27 and ds is 23 and my sil is 27.  We are a very close knit family and enjoy each other very much. 

    Last year was a pretty crazy year to say the least.  We went through the hospice experience with three loved ones.  First my fil in March.  Then my beloved bil in April.  At my bil's funeral, my sister was experiencing alot of pain in her upper chest.  After U of M diagnosed her with "misplaced" ribs and started therapy she wasn't getting any better so I insisted she see my doctor.  She did and within a month we found out she had agressive destructive carcinoma.  Part of her 3rd and 4th rib weren't even there.  It was very aggressive and she went into the hospital July 15 of 2008 and we brought her home to hospice in Sept. 2008.  I spent alot of quality time with her and she passed on Nov. 24th.  It was devastating.  We made it through the holidays and then in January at my yearly physical my doctor threatened me if I didn't have a mamogram, (which I had neglected to do for a few years), he wouldn't treat me anymore.  So after the mamogram and ultrasound I was diagnosed with bc in February of this year.  I'm soooo glad my dear sister didn't know this before she passed, she was 4 years older than me and very protective and I'm just glad.  I had offered to get my head shaved with her when her hair started falling out and she wouldn't let me.  Ironic that just 3 months later I had no hair anyway.   I have had 7 out of 8 chemo's and then in October will have rads.  Will have to have a colonoscopy between because when they did my full body scan before the chemo they saw something "suspicious".  Hoping it's just my diverticulitis that they saw.   Anyway, it has been quite a journey.  I have never worn a wig  even though my husband bought me a really cute one.  I love getting in and out of the shower wash and wear...lol     My hair is starting to come back already and my kids tease me I look like Annie Lennox. (sp?)    I have enjoyed this website sooooooo much it has been a blessing.

    I love to crochet, knit, garden and woodwork.  I love being a homemaker in my golden years!!!

    That's my story...         Just real quick, we leave tomorrow for my family reunion.  We have been doing this as far back as I remember.  Dad and Mom have been gone for years but they started it and would be pleased to know we are still keeping it going.  All my brothers and sisters, their kids and now their kids rent cabins on Lake Michigan and spend  Fri-Mon, Labor Day weekend together.  There are 45 + of us now!   We have it catered soooooo we just relax and catch up and just love each other... It'll be my first "get-away" since this whole bc thing started.

    ((((((((((hugs))))))))))))0 janet

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited September 2009

    oh Janet - NIce to meet you.   It's amazing that so much information can be conveyed in a couple paragraphs.  You've had such an awful year and I pray that you breeze through treatment and the suspicion is just that.    Enjoy your weekend... there is nothing like family.

    My list of breast cancer sisters that I pray for grows weekly.

    (I only wore my wig twice).  big hugs to you.

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited September 2009

    Nice meeting you Janet.. Hope you have a wonderful week end with those precious kids

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited September 2009

    ART of BLAMING...
    ART of BLAMING...

    When something goes wrong
    On something cleverly shift the blame
    Though learning the art of blaming
    Is not an easy game

    Try patting your forehead
    And with grim face blame your fate
    Shrug your shoulders
    And blame your position as desperate

    Smack your lips with a little twist
    And blame lack of ability
    Sometimes put on a sad look
    And blame burden of responsibility

    Give a very tired look
    And blame your bad health
    With an angry tone
    Blame your situation which lacks needed wealth

    There are plenty of things for which
    You can the increasing population
    Then clenching your fists y
    You can blame the idiotic television

    Screw up your face, hold your heart
    And blame unfaithful friends
    Shake your head vigorously
    And point towards modern spoilt trends

    With rebellion tone and revolutionary gait
    Blame your oppression
    Throwing your hands in air
    In a careless voice blame your nation

    If you have a quite one
    Then nag and blame your husband/wife
    If you have a self respecting spouse
    Then in a desperate tone blame unkind life

    When everything is lost
    And every blame looks a bit odd
    Yet you have the Almighty, don't spare him
    Go ahead and blame the God...

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited September 2009

    I love your poems Farila.. they are so diverse. There is a website I use often when writing that you might enjoy.  I also use if for synonyms...

    http://www.rhymezone.com/help/

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited September 2009

    Thanks Apple.. These are not something I am writing now.. They are my works from the past. I at times cannot recall the reason that prompted me to write them. I haven't tampered with them and left them to be what they are... LOL

    Hereafter IF I write something then I will take the help of the website. Internet is great..

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited September 2009

    Just lost a big post to all of you.  Brain is too feeble to do it again tonight.  So glad to be back and see the thread thriving. 

    Hugs,

    Nancy

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