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  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    it would be fine

    if the lump were benign

    Farila is now

    a good friend of mine.

    (not to be trite, but poetically supportive)

  • arnie
    arnie Member Posts: 3,050
    edited August 2009

    B-9 would be sublime! 

    Hope it's only a matter of time..

    Before the news...

    And we can celebrate with WooWho's!!!

    (((((((hugs))))))) Farila

    Love and hugs to all you poetry lovers!

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    For Farila

    I'm going to take a journey

    I don't know where it will end

    I'll have to start out walking

    But I know I'll need a friend

    Maybe you can clear the path

    Since you've been this way before

    There will be times I'll need to take your hand

    Because I don't know what's in store

    I don't know how I'll pay you back

    As you help me to survive

    Maybe I can do the same

    For those who have just arrived

  • bygracealone
    bygracealone Member Posts: 183
    edited August 2009

    Too Good To Be True

    Knock wood I'm feeling too good
    this chemo's a jolly good fellow.

    Rub a foot of a rabbit and hope it's a habit
    GI tract continues to mellow.

    Cross my fingers, enjoy while it lingers
    before I become absent mindly.

    Toss salt past my shoulder before it gets bolder
    this chemo is treating me kindly.

    copyright sandytoes creations 2009

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    Awww Thank you so much Nancy. I am not sure why I am getting so much of jitters this time. Not the first time I have felt some hardness in breast. I get my results Monday. I may come back home quite late because I need to travel more than hundred miles to the hospital. So will let you all know on Tuesday....

    Love and hugs

    Farila

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    And thanks everybody else. You care for me more than my family does. I could not see all those poems until I posted. You have me in tears of joy.. I know for sure now it is going to be all right..

  • London-Virginia
    London-Virginia Member Posts: 851
    edited August 2009

    And far away in India

    the much loved Princess Farila

    set out on her journey

    her loving friends and neighbours from afar

    throwing petals on her path

    and singing the old songs of love and friendship

    as the breeze rustled the leaves on the trees

    and far away the sun slowly yawned and stretched awake

    casting its first rays and warmth

    upon Princess Farila's road

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Good Luck Farila!  Have a safe trip and we will be waiting to hear from you.  It's just my theory but I think creative people feel more intensely and I believe these other posts to you prove it.  You know that includes you too. 

    We will be here for you!

    Hugs and oodles of love,

    Nancy

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    Thank you very much for the prayers.. I am safe for now according to the doctors. Will post details tomorrow... Too tired

  • London-Virginia
    London-Virginia Member Posts: 851
    edited August 2009

    Wonderful news - sleep tight.

    xxxxxx

  • arnie
    arnie Member Posts: 3,050
    edited August 2009
    Farila ...  such good news... doing   the happy dance!!!
  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    a big hug to you Farila..

  • Mazy1959
    Mazy1959 Member Posts: 1,431
    edited August 2009
  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    I am done with the scare and check ups yesterday... It was a long day with 9 hours on road. Whew. Doctors say it does not look like cancer. In their words it is a small hyperechoic lesion with no ductal dilation. But (there had to be a but) they asked me not to ignore it. Keep watch on it and come back after three months and if needed then a FNAB will be done. Whew !!!! I am not worrying anymore for a month at least ;)

    Thank you so much ladies. You being there with me meant so much ...

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Take it easy and rest your mind and body.  You know where we are when you need us. 

    Much love and kisses,

    Nancy

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    I am finding few things which I wrote as teenager.. They are surfing up because I have people to share them with now... Love  you ladies.. Why are you all so quite?  

                 SEARCHING FOR LOST INNOCENCE

    Why can't I enjoy my life now?

    As I did when I was a child

    The world which was once wonderful

    Why now appears to be so wild

    Waste buttons, colored piece of chalk

    Key without lock, all were a pleasure

    But why now they have become trash

    Where did I find different meaning for treasure?

    Why can't I love and believe fairies now

    Where did I lose my innocence?

    In drawing, writing or come reading

    As I did, why don't I see my excellence?

    Why do the twinkling stars, sun and moon

    Seem no more a wonder of the sky?

    Why amusement is very rare now?

    When did all questions in my mind die?

    Why can't I smile heartily now

    At anyone for a single word of praise?

    Now my lips just stretch a bit

    As for flattery I have lost craze

    Why am I unable to glare now?

    At people I dislike and smile at friends

    Now why the smiles and glares are reserved

    To mostly suit the latest trends?

    Though there was not much wisdom

    There is abundance of joy in innocence

    I don't want the knowledge I have

    For innocence I can happily trade intelligence

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Farila!  That is incredible!  And you wrote this as a teen?  It leaves my heart aching for you.  I pray you will find joy in the latter years as I have.

    I have been quiet because of pain from the surgery I had on my lung two months ago.  Didn't know till the day before yesterday that the surgeon had to break my ribs in order to get to my lung.  He said I may always have residual pain but I was mainly hurting from lifting and doing too much too soon.  Also, my lung can't expand as much due to scar tissue.  It hurts to sit for more than a few minutes and I have been bad about getting on the pc and staying too long, ignoring the pain and suffering later.  I am trying to be good now.  At least with the pain, I know I'm still alive.

    Your poem is one I will read again and again.  Thank you for sharing it with us.

    Love and hugs,

    Nancy

  • Mazy1959
    Mazy1959 Member Posts: 1,431
    edited August 2009

    Farilla that is such a good poem... You are truly talented.

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    what a treasure you are farila.

    you make me think of things sooooooo outside my day to day existence.

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    You are making blush ladies.. You are too generous with me. I love coming over here but why is everyone quite.

    Nancy, I hope you will heal soon and the pain will not bother you too much.

    Love and hugs everyone

    Farila

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    when i watch  children Farila, i think of the things you mention in this last poem... how it is so fun to put the quarter in the slot to obtain a shopping cart, how it is a novelty to open the car door with the remote key.... how stirring eggs is fun.. just imagine

    oh great!!!!  i get to stir the eggs

    oh great!!! - i get to shave my legs

    now that i'm ten and haven't had the chore

    of doing it again and again and again.

    (little can the girlchild imagine what a blessing in disguise hair loss is.. i haven't shaved my legs for a year until just recently).

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    God bless you Farila and you too Apple.  You made my day.  I am still reeling from your poem Farila.  You have such incredible insight.  You make me realize that being a child wasn't all bad.  Apple, you have added to that.  My leg hair is still scant but my face makes me afraid I'll be a werewolf.  If that isn't bad enough, I have chin hair that grows in seconds and would be the envy of a goat.  Now I know why mum always had razors in her medicine cabinet.  She sure fooled me! 

    Sorry for not writing a poem.  I just wanted to share some thoughts.  Ladies, this doesn't have to be just a poetry thread.  Come and share your thoughts.  Sometimes we just need to talk and have someone to listen.

    Love and hugs,

    Nancy

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    thoughts?

    let's see - I'm happy happy happy to finally not be on chemo.. It's been such a long time.  Now, i can freely care for my aging mother and father in law.. worry about my handicapped brother.. (he's not that handicapped; he does have a real job, but he does need a guardian of sorts).  With my mother passing on we need to make plans.  I've always been his closest friend.

    School is finally starting.  I really don't care for the summers.  The kids are so messy and so busy and needy of me ( I can drive a car).. I never get to practice or work on my projects and music.

    Nancy - you've been in my thoughts and prayers.  There are so many women here who need intense prayers... like i have time to pray.  Well, I do in my routine tasks that don't take too much brain power.. the laundry, organizing and cleaning.

    Be well - all.

  • saint
    saint Member Posts: 1,877
    edited August 2009

    Hugs all--back & I missed this thread-but now I am caught up!

    When I was young I had too much hair!

    I wondered if I was living the life of a bear 

    The girls in gym class called me "Gorilla Legs"

    The humiliation kept me from seeing I had great pegs!!

    Then it ALL fell out

    I hadn't time to cry or pout.

    I said, "It's only hair!"

    But after a time you realize--it just isn't fair.

    I'd said on more than one occasion,

    "I'll take it however it comes!" I wanted it with so much passion

    "Straight or dark, curly or pink-I'll not whine!"

    even purple would be fine 

    Well, it did come back, but not as it once was;

    thin & grey & always short: like a buzz.

    BUT-on my face it is making up for lost time

    It may be light & fine

    But there is so much I wish it would grow long so I could comb it back & they could call me.......

    "Gorilla Head!"

    LOL Be well & stay strong


  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Hi Saint, so good to hear from you and Apple!  Well, about the hair.  I used to have enough for three people before my thyroid konked out.  So I still had enough for two.  Now I'm not sure if I'll have enough for one.  It's mighty thin and I see places that I just don't think any more is going to sprout.  As for color, I'm black and white all over. 

    When I complained about enough chin hair for a goat, my DS told me not to worry, I could use it for a comb over.  I take it that means over my face.  Good one sis!

    Apple, I too have a handicapped brother.  He has an IQ of 165 but he's unquantifiable.  I was 18 when he was born and he says he wishes our mother would have left him with me when she buggered off.  He was a tool and valuable to her then, now he isn't.  Thanks mum!  There are so many things I've had to help him cope with.  I only hope I have given him enough to go on without me.  The most I can do is love him but will that help after 30 years of not having known any?

    Sorry apple, but I had to laugh about your kids needing you because you can drive a car.  I was never so glad when mine got their driver's license.  Now they are all grown and I'm a grandmother.  I miss those days, but not for long. LOL

    Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  I get better each day so I know God is listening.  My prayers are with and for all of you.  I thank you for your friendship and allowing me to open up to you. 

    Farila, you are far away but know that you are not alone.  If you ever need to just talk send a PM to me.  In fact that goes to each of you.  I'm getting old, not too wise, but believe me, I have lived and I can listen and have big shoulders.  Just bear in mind that I am slow but I will get back to you. 

    Love and hugs, sincerely,

    Nancy

  • farila_1966
    farila_1966 Member Posts: 224
    edited August 2009

    Wow!!! You had me laughing and crying on this thread today .. You people are amazing. I love coming over here. I feel as though I am walking into a room and talking to you....

    BTW I have news for you. My son turns 18 today. Happy Birthday Rayyan, welcome to the adult world. Went out with Rayyan and Farheena yesterday to celebrate his birthday.. Rayyan was born 20th August 1991. I took him to a nearby town yesterday evening after his college and we had nice time together...Today I will throw a small party for his friends.

  • Warrior517
    Warrior517 Member Posts: 355
    edited August 2009

    The Chapter Closes...

    It has been over a year since I received the call

    You have breast cancer...I remember starting to bawl.

    Surgery was needed, chemo and rads, too.

    Don't forget the IV med, Herceptin, which is new!

    My journey is written but I don't know the end....

    But do any of us really, my friend??

    I have written each chapter in my heart and my head,

    From every tear to hope to all of the meds.

    My surgery has temporarily changed me frm  C to an A

    Thank goodness for pump ups in this modern day!

    I made it thru surgery, waking up w/4 drains.

    Taking my Vicodin to get thru the pains.

    I heal and get stronger each and everyday

    So, I finish that chapter w/success, I say!

    A new chapter starts, the one we all dread...

    Chemo begins and I know it will affect my head.

    Soon, my brush was filled w/chunks of hair

    I was sad, but I was prepared to look in the mirror.

    Fun wigs..short wigs...sassy ones, too!

    No one knew which one I would do!

    Made it through chemo w/support of family and friends

    Time to close that chapter, thought it would never end!

    So, the new chapter begins of radiation for over 6 weeks

    The burn and the pain would eventually peak

    Again, I make it thru w/everyone's love and prayers.

    Each day, I live in Faith and Hope, NOT fears.

    I close the chapter of my new burnt skin.

    Grateful my expanders did not give in!

    I do my IV med, Herceptin, every 3 weeks for a year.

    The Oncologists staff know you by name and truly care

    The access was made easier by inserting a port

    But it's been over a year, not very short!

    So, when does this chapter get to close for me?

    In 2 weeks, and my heart needed these words to be free

    You won't hear this often, but it gets stuck in our mind.

    We get fearful, as safety nets are removed one at a time.

    This is where I learned to control what I think

    Positive thoughts can turn a black world to pink!

    I also have learned to not live in fear, but hope

    It is love, faith and believing that helps us cope.

    So, here I sit two weeks before my final surgery day

    Looking forward to silicone, port out and an overnite stay

    I felt the need to write down my words for others to hear.

    Maybe you will read them and want to share

    I am a fighter, a warrior at war.

    I have my battle wounds to even the score

    I wear my pink boxing gloves and continue to fight.

    So, pray for all of us each day and each night!!

    Update: I wrote this a few months ago...since then one of my implants failed and I am heading to New Orleans for a Stacked GAP/DIEP! I am excited and know everything happens for a reason...now I can educate other woman on the surgery!! xox

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 511
    edited August 2009

    Farila, congratulations on your son becoming a man.  How can we let them go when it seems like yesterday that we couldn't leave a room without them crying?  Time is our enemy.  Time is our friend.  I also have two sons.  Isaac and Nathan and a daughter Bethany.  It's strange but your child is the only person in the world that can break your heart in one day and mend it in the next.  But we have to let go and let them make their own way.  None of us gets an easy road but I pray your sons don't have insurmountable obstacles.  Good luck to all of you.

    Warrior, everyone has a story to tell and I'm glad you told yours so eloquently.  It is a war but we were never drafted, never trained.  We  have our boot camp and battle at the same time.  Every one of us is a hero.  We all have our badge of courage in one way or another and I believe we are as close a unit as any that has marched together.  And we do march but ours is a message of hope and desire.  We want a final solution to this war.  May we see it in our own time. 

    Thank you both for sharing.  May the sun be brighter, our day be lighter than the one before.

    God bless all of you,

    Nancy

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited August 2009

    i enjoyed your poem Warrior

    it's great!

  • Warrior517
    Warrior517 Member Posts: 355
    edited August 2009

    Thanks so much...I have more! lol  One about radiation and another I wrote prior to my mastectomy on Valentines day..I will post those soon!!

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