Facing the Future

I really think what matters most is the they are happy and move on, whatever that means to them, whenever it is meant to happen for them. I don't think we get too much say in the matter.

Dream, I think it would be possible to love another as much not never the same. There is only ONE Dream and no one can ever take your place. It would be different, special in a different way, take a different place in their hearts.

Prayers going upward for you Vicki.

Many, many H U G S!

I'm feeling better today... thanks everyone for your thoughts & notes.  I think I just needed to process everything... it still sucks, but I'm more myself again.  Guess the scans really took me by surprise this time.  It's getting scary because I've been thru so many chemos, most of which have done absolutely nothing for me, so it's hard to be very optimistic about trying Abraxane... but it just could be the one that will make a difference, so I need to keep thinking that way.  Brenda, don't for a minute think you haven't been paying enough attn to anything but the baby... she absolutely should be the focus of all your thoughts now!!!!!!  I didn't mean to try to hijack your other thread anyway... sorry about that!

Hi,

      Vickie, I am so sorry that you had such a bad week. Sounds like you have been through the mill.  I hope you can do something special for yourself this week. Something that will make you smile and forget for just a little while. My daughter and I had facials last week and for almost an hour I felt more relaxed than I have in a very long time.

      My DH can't do enough for me. Everytime I look at him I tear-up because I can't stand the thought of how alone he will feel when I am gone. I hate this whole miserable, painful, gut-wrenching time that we are going through. This I know sounds nuts but sometimes I hope I die when I am not feeling so horrific. I don't want to face the dragged-out finale.

    It is a beautiful day today so I am going to take my new pup out for a walk and watch her play with the other pups in the park. I like to go where no one knows my "story". I am rambling...sorry.

Gentle Hugz to all......

Hugs one & all---we share things here that no one else seems to understand .We know we can vent & the others here get it! I wish we could meet in person! I feel a bond with ppl here that can't be found easily in the real world!

Vicki & anal--big hugs--I have been absent & was not here to respond to your posts in a timely manner.....

5 rads down, 7 to go. Doing my best to ward off the se's of lower spine (& bowel) rads...currently the steroids are making my psychotic & the rads have made me a direct conduit to HELL as I am billowing clouds of sulfur into our world! 

My good news: Yesterday at a benefit for a local man with cancer I won an auction for a week  RV rental. It is valued at over $1000 & I got it for $375  DH thought I was crazed, but now I get to check off another item on my bucket list--load 'er up & go out driving for a week...hope the rads allow us a week away now that I bought this! LOL

Be well & stay strong 

I saw them one magical night in Maryland, the Aurora Borealis, so you may not have to travel far. It's just luck and conditions (solar winds). Of course, it's a superb excuse for a cruise!

Lisa

That is so neat Saint. RVs are great for trips.

Wow-what a fantastic prize! Have a great time-you deserve it,x

We don't really have any plans on WHERE to go==part of my fantasy is to just load it & flip a coin at each intersection or interchange! We are considering asking the kids SO's to go along.....it might be a weird trip, especially since I don't want to tow a car----we go, we stop & see, we park & sit.....LOL

I will entertain ALL suggestions (except the world's largest ball of twine type stops!! LOL)

BTW----here in so wis my dh & I experienced the northern lights about 18 years ago at Easter! We were astounded at what happened & it still doesn't feel real! The performance in the sky was phenomenal! At one point it seemed a red mist descended on us & took us into the show----all in a school yard! It was awesome & mystical & we still wonder exactly what happened (did someone slip us each some acid?? LOL)

HUGS-be well & stay strong

Dream......no wish you make is selfish!!!!!

 We all wait for our dreams, Mine is to get the right help, I see the cancer Dr Wenesday, I pray

he helps me, If not I will call the other clinic to get my records changes, People were worried

cause I have been shakey and weak. Needed to rest all day. God bless you all,  Debbie

I always thought it would be a great trip just to get in the car and drive....to whatever seemed interesting, stopping along the way to visit. I think not using the super highways all the way but winding thru some of the smaller roads. My mom and dad did that, sort of, went from NJ to Arizonia and back thru the southern states. Only a few places were preset since he had to have med and supplies shipped at certain times. They were away for about 1 1/2 - 2 months as I recall. Only cut the trip short towards the end cause he was having some medical/health concerns. 

Saint I hope you have a lovely adventurious (sp?)  time!!

Well if you would stay put long enough to answer the phone.......dialing NOW!