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hopefor30
hopefor30 Member Posts: 88
edited June 2014 in Mental Health: Because Cancer Doesn't Just Affect Your Breasts
I am very sad today.....
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  • everyminute
    everyminute Member Posts: 1,805
    edited May 2009

    Vent away - I agree with you!  This all sucks!!! 

    But I do want to reassure you that thyroid cancer is very very very treatable and curable. My daughter has a very large thyroid nodule - it has been tested twice as benign and gets checked every six months

    But it still sucks.

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  • pabbie
    pabbie Member Posts: 370
    edited May 2009

    HI-My second cancer was and still is more emotional for me than my first cancer.

    With my first cancer I did everything the drs wanted. (chemo, radiation, & surgery) I know I suffered from long term fatigue from the chemo but not much is revealed in this area. I took every day, (one day at a time) I would try to get rid of negative thinking through positive thinking books & CD's. I spent five years in a support groups to help others. I was greatful to be alive.

    Then bam-breast cancer-And yes, I don't think anyone who hasn't lived thru 2 cancers can fully understand how you feel. We weren't supposed to get another cancer.

    I'm still re-cuperating with psychiatry & meds. I am still alive, but it feels different this time. Please take care of youself and I understand how you feel.

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  • BMD
    BMD Member Posts: 1,492
    edited May 2009

    There 2 other threads going around here about the same thing. It really seems way to coincidental that so many bc survivors are dealing with thyroid cancer. I am headed in for my thyroid ultrasound tomorrow at 11:00. I am almost 3 years from bc dx and not looking for forward to this.

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  • Gitane
    Gitane Member Posts: 1,885
    edited May 2009

    hopefor30,   This is so hard, so very hard to go through again. I haven't lived through a second cancer; I can't say I know how you feel as the others have.  I can only imagine.  I'm sorry this is happening to you.  Vent, vent, vent.  No question that you have suffered enough!

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  • makingway
    makingway Member Posts: 799
    edited May 2009

    hopefor30 My shrink once told me' "Life Isn't Fair"...I have to agree with her. I am very sad today too. I keep having to jump hoops and my legs are getting tired.

    I'm sorry this is happening to you.  Keep On Truckin Girl.

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  • Debonthelake
    Debonthelake Member Posts: 244
    edited May 2009

    It is so true that "Life isn't fair".  But, grief is important work.  Vent away, allow yourself to feel your sadness and anger.  After all one of the scriptures say. " Blessed are those who mourn, They will be comforted."  May you feel comforted, loved and supported very, very soon.

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  • Harley44
    Harley44 Member Posts: 5,446
    edited May 2009

    Hopefor30,

    So sorry you are having to go thru a 2nd cancer dx.  It has been two years since my bc dx, but I still think about it every day, and worry about recurrence. 

    As someone else mentioned, I'm told that thyroid cancer is very treatable.  That wouldn't make me feel any better.  Sending BIG HUGS your way!!

    Harley

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited May 2009

    Hope and BMD

    Am wondering how you each are doing????????

    Keeping you both in thoughts for b9 results....

    Hugs

    Jule

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  • hollyann
    hollyann Member Posts: 2,992
    edited May 2009

    Yes it sucks the big one!......I have no idea how you ladies feel after a second cancer diagnosis...All I can offer is a hug and my support and prayers........hopefor30, when you were having problems with your thyroid did your neck feel thick?....I guess I mean kind of like it was swollen?......i can't feel any difference in my neck besides the thick and swollen feeling...No nodules or anything....Just curious.....Thank you...I will be thinking of you and wishing you a speedy recovery......

    edited to add I have hypothyroidism.....and am on synthroid......

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  • koreapatra
    koreapatra Member Posts: 9
    edited June 2009

    Hope for 30,   I can understand how you feel.  I was diagnosed with breast cancer September 2008.  And while I was looking forward to my exchange surgery,  I was diagnosed with chronic lymphocytic leukemia.  I felt like I was doing pretty well keeping a positive attitude and trying to find something to be happy about each day...And then boom!!

    I didn't cry at the doctor's office when I was told I had breast cancer.  But  when my very kind oncologist told me I had CLL, I took that very hard.  I cried and couldn't even hear what he was saying. It sounded like he was talking to me under water.   Luckily,  my husband was with me and his auditory functions were still intact.

    And like you, I thought there was a universal law that you could only get one cancer at a time.  But I've learned that isn't true.  And people tell me that I've got another good kind of cancer.  But like you, I'd rather not have another one at all.

    Anyway...I wish you the best in dealing with this new diagnosis and surgery.  -Rebecca

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  • hrf
    hrf Member Posts: 3,225
    edited June 2009

    I, too, have had a second cancer ... a second primary breast cancer. Like many of you, the first time I did everything I could to stay positive and to look forward. When I had the second dx, I felt like the world had been knocked out from under me. We are not supposed to have to go through cancer a second time - once is more than enough!!!! It has been very difficult to accept the dx and to go through treatment a second time. I have lost faith in the doctors, in the technology and my body has betrayed me. I see a psychologist and she is great ... but on a day to day basis, this sucks big time. I read these boards and get inspired by so many of you. It helps.

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  • Jenniferz
    Jenniferz Member Posts: 541
    edited June 2009

    (((Hopefor30))) I'm sorry you didn't get the news you wanted.  I am going back for another blood draw next week as my calcium count was too high....one thing that was mentioned was thyroid problems.  I hope everything goes well for you in the up coming weeks.

    Korea, if it makes you feel any better...and I hope this does...my mother has had CLL for the past 14 years, and hasn't moved from stage 0.  A friend of hers has been in stage 1 for 10.  My mother doesn't even see an onc. anymore....she has outlived him! 

    Jennifer

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