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Ok girls  I will be out of touch for while...getting the twins cut off in the am.  Everyone on this board has been so wonderful....will be back in touch when can.  Am going to swimm today and enjoy the great weather before tomorrow. 

Lovegolf--I'll be thinking of you! See you on the flip side!

thinking about you golf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drains not too bad..only have 2 ..yeah I figure I am imune to what is in my home but not so sure about hospital. So I clicked my birkenstocks together and repeated" there is no place home"  sleep longer and deeper in my bed. I feel stronger in some ways than I have ever felt in my life..odd.

Golf- I felt the same way after my mastectomy. When the visiting nurse came to check the drains the day after I got home (they made me stay overnight) she also removed the bandages. I was a little nervous, I expected a  huge bloody gaping hole or something. The nurse assumed I would be mourning the loss of breasts or something, she was saying it's okay to be upset blah blah blah. I had a huge smile on my face because it looked so much better than I thought. The nurse kept telling me how it was ok to be upset and I had to confince her I was not only not upset, but thrilled at how much better I looked than I thought I would.

Torch- what are SEs?

Just removed and changed bandages...Not bad. I told my partner before we did it no tears focus on cancer being gone.  I am waiting for a path report on two nodes that were taken to be sure....That is clear i am good to go no chemo or radiation...yeah Noh i thought looked so much better than i thought it would.

Torch glad you are finished ...So what torch songs do you like????I grew up listening to my grandmother's 78lp of Ella and Sarah Vaughn..

Yeah it is ....I know I will live strong.  I am sure that allthis  will change me...I think partner worried how it will change me.  I will never complain about picking up anything again, even cat liter, but will be so glad I can do it. I know I want to spend more time doing things that bring me joy and less working.  I work to get the money to do what matters. I am going to see my friends more even if they live on other side of country. I hear Melissa Etheridge "I will never be same" in my head.

I am going tomorrow down the street to a salon to get my hair washed...never thought that would be such a thrill.  I am going sit out by my pool and take some nice sunshine..

Hi all

I am still off pain meds. The drains are still in two of them.. Will be so glad when they go. I am going down the street today to a salon to get my hair washed. I never thought that would be such a big deal. My skin is feelings weird were breast were.  The nerve endings on the skin have little feeling when I touch the skin but have a almost burning sensation most of the time.  It does not hurt really but feels odd. I am sure the surface nerves will have to heal for quite some time.  I am still waiting for final path report on the breast tissue removed and the two nodes.  That waiting is starting to get to me.  Alright already enough just get me the information. WAITING is the wrost part.  I have done ok until now. i kept telling myself I could not change the outcome so just be be patience.  Well I have been a good girl and I am tired of being one.

I think this would hurt more with reconstruction.  To have been such major surgery there is not much pain afterwards.  

I am off to get myself showered off and my hair washd. Girls, we may have cancer but that is no reason to let ourselves go...What the hell I am putting on clean clothes, jewlery and might even start breaking in a new pair of Birkenstocks....

It is a week today...I am doing well. No real pain. Still have drains,but should be getting them out Mon. or Tues.  I am was grateful to all on here.  It is go good to be able to read about this from girls going through it.  I have paced myself and now can't wait for drain to be out.  I am giving myself a whole in bed to sleep comfortabily after they are gone.  I am learning that a 3:00pm nap is good. This weekend I am going figure out someway to get some sun by the pool. Hope everyone has a great weekend

NoH8

Thanks for information. I fear will the doctor or her nurse every nasty word I know. Sounds we have same pain tolerance. I played golf 10 days after my hysterectomy, but it was scoped.  Did you have to take hormone therapy after cancer???I hope since ovaries gone and HRT gone and both breast gone(damn that sounds I have been crarved up) I will not

dswop- I don';t think any amount of meds is going to make you not anxious about cancer surgery unless they were so strong they knocked you out, LOL. I think you'll have an easier time if you are true to yourself and your feelings. It's not your job to make everyone else feel more comfortable, though inevidably I think we all do some of that. I think my cancer was a LOT harder on those who loved me than it was on myself. I felt as if I was being an active participant in my treatment and fighting the cancer with my surgeries and chemo, but they felt helpless. For me the waiting and the unknown was so much worse than any surgery or treatment. I never experienced the mourning the loss of my breasts,I was just thrilled to have the cancer gone, but I know a lot of women go through the same feelings of loss as you are dealing with.

golf- Yes, it does sound like we have the same tolerance. I went out to breakfast on the way home from my mastectomy, the day after the procedure and I was grocery shopping 3 days later (though since I still had the drains so I had to get people to reach on the higher shelves for me) and with the  hysterectomy I went to the mall a few days later.

teresa-Wow, I wonder why your drains were painless. The only reason I can think is I was so skinny at the time after the breasts came off my skin must have been right on the bones. I sure could see every bone in my chest.