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  • cruz
    cruz Member Posts: 2
    edited April 2009

    Okay, so I had to google her....I see the allure, but I'm still crushed out on Rachel!

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited April 2009

    Ok girls  I will be out of touch for while...getting the twins cut off in the am.  Everyone on this board has been so wonderful....will be back in touch when can.  Am going to swimm today and enjoy the great weather before tomorrow. 

  • dee1961
    dee1961 Member Posts: 1,672
    edited April 2009

    Good luck Golf, you will do fine :) Cya soon

  • TorchSong
    TorchSong Member Posts: 348
    edited April 2009

    Lovegolf--I'll be thinking of you! See you on the flip side!

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited April 2009

    Golf--- good luck tomorrow, we will be thinking of youi and anxiously awaiting to hear from you afterwards! 

    Cruz- I hear you about Rachel, brains is a huge aphrodisiac for me!

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    thinking about you golf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    Hi all  I AM BACK  had surgery yesterday was out at 7pm and home in My bed 11am today.

    Sore and tired but some many more steps down road to recovery...Really not pain as much as sore... Will post more later..thanks to all for the kinds thoughts.

  • dee1961
    dee1961 Member Posts: 1,672
    edited May 2009

    Glad to hear you are doing well. Take it easy on yourself  :)

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    Glad to hear from you! You';re lucky you got out so quickly! I got a lot more rest at home than I did in the hospital. Listen to your body and you'll thank yourself. I hope the drains aren't too awful.

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    Drains not too bad..only have 2 ..yeah I figure I am imune to what is in my home but not so sure about hospital. So I clicked my birkenstocks together and repeated" there is no place home"  sleep longer and deeper in my bed. I feel stronger in some ways than I have ever felt in my life..odd.

  • TorchSong
    TorchSong Member Posts: 348
    edited May 2009

    Hi all!

    I am done with rads! And being a triple negative, that means done with treatment (although I don't know if I would have gone with hormones or not, if I weren't TN, to be honest--heard too many negatives about them). 

    Now to recover from all the SEs...

    W've got lovely sunshine here, but not quite warm enough for the porch yet (at least, not warm enough if you don't have much hair on your head, like me). 

    Hope everyone had a great weekend!

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    Golf- I felt the same way after my mastectomy. When the visiting nurse came to check the drains the day after I got home (they made me stay overnight) she also removed the bandages. I was a little nervous, I expected a  huge bloody gaping hole or something. The nurse assumed I would be mourning the loss of breasts or something, she was saying it's okay to be upset blah blah blah. I had a huge smile on my face because it looked so much better than I thought. The nurse kept telling me how it was ok to be upset and I had to confince her I was not only not upset, but thrilled at how much better I looked than I thought I would.

    Torch- what are SEs?

  • TorchSong
    TorchSong Member Posts: 348
    edited May 2009

    LOL--Side Effects...

    I;m still dealing with neuropathy from the Taxotere, not to mention hair loss. And of course the lymphedema... and then the burns from rads, but that should start healing up in a week or so. 

    As someone said--Cancer--the gift that keeps on giving!

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    Just removed and changed bandages...Not bad. I told my partner before we did it no tears focus on cancer being gone.  I am waiting for a path report on two nodes that were taken to be sure....That is clear i am good to go no chemo or radiation...yeah Noh i thought looked so much better than i thought it would.

    Torch glad you are finished ...So what torch songs do you like????I grew up listening to my grandmother's 78lp of Ella and Sarah Vaughn..

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    Golf- Our scars are an absence of cancer and nothing is more beautiful than that, IMHO.

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    Yeah it is ....I know I will live strong.  I am sure that allthis  will change me...I think partner worried how it will change me.  I will never complain about picking up anything again, even cat liter, but will be so glad I can do it. I know I want to spend more time doing things that bring me joy and less working.  I work to get the money to do what matters. I am going to see my friends more even if they live on other side of country. I hear Melissa Etheridge "I will never be same" in my head.

    I am going tomorrow down the street to a salon to get my hair washed...never thought that would be such a thrill.  I am going sit out by my pool and take some nice sunshine..

  • dswope
    dswope Member Posts: 70
    edited May 2009

    Hello again,

    It is so reassuring to log on and read these conversations.  I'm now scheduled for a total mastectomy on 5/14/09. (My mothers birthday!)  After the last visit with the surgeon, chances are that now I'll be facing chemo and/or radiation.  Why is it that they don't just say that in th beginning?  I was under the impression that if I elected to do the mastectomy I wouldn't need the chemo.  Now it's a matter of lymph nodes and what they find........you're right Torch, it is the gift that keeps on giving.  I find you amazing.....love your attitude! 

    Lovegolf, would you keep me posted on your recovery......it helps to have a better idea what to expect.  Good luck!  Are you considering reconstruction?

    Dee, how are you?

  • dee1961
    dee1961 Member Posts: 1,672
    edited May 2009

    Hi ds and all the ladies here,

    Not sure what's been going on with me, but I just have not been feeling well for awhile now. I think I am having some depression issues and have just been feeling down and out of sorts. Lots of family issues to to add to my already icky mood too. I don't want to bring it here and bring you all down, so I have just been lurking about. Glad to hear everyone is doing well and I will get over this soon I hope. Take care,

    XOXOXOXOXO

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    dee- start a new thread and talk about your other stuff. Heck, we have or have had cancer., we won't be brought down by your stress and maybe we can help.

    dw- Sorry to hear you're going through this too. I have my fingers and toes crossed for clear nodes for you.

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    Hi all

    I am still off pain meds. The drains are still in two of them.. Will be so glad when they go. I am going down the street today to a salon to get my hair washed. I never thought that would be such a big deal. My skin is feelings weird were breast were.  The nerve endings on the skin have little feeling when I touch the skin but have a almost burning sensation most of the time.  It does not hurt really but feels odd. I am sure the surface nerves will have to heal for quite some time.  I am still waiting for final path report on the breast tissue removed and the two nodes.  That waiting is starting to get to me.  Alright already enough just get me the information. WAITING is the wrost part.  I have done ok until now. i kept telling myself I could not change the outcome so just be be patience.  Well I have been a good girl and I am tired of being one.

    I think this would hurt more with reconstruction.  To have been such major surgery there is not much pain afterwards.  

    I am off to get myself showered off and my hair washd. Girls, we may have cancer but that is no reason to let ourselves go...What the hell I am putting on clean clothes, jewlery and might even start breaking in a new pair of Birkenstocks....

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    DOCTOR CALLED  I am in cancer free....nodes clean left breast was clear right had more than showed on mamma.......but all margins clean and no chemo or radiation. I Am strong.  Thanks girls  off for hair

  • dee1961
    dee1961 Member Posts: 1,672
    edited May 2009

    WOOOHOOO :0) Great news, go out and celebrate!!!

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    WTG- Golf- I'm so happy for you. Your breast area will feel for a while, it was almost like a numbness for me, like after I had novicane on my teeth. Maybe I'll have a margarita for you ;)....ok for both of us...

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    It is a week today...I am doing well. No real pain. Still have drains,but should be getting them out Mon. or Tues.  I am was grateful to all on here.  It is go good to be able to read about this from girls going through it.  I have paced myself and now can't wait for drain to be out.  I am giving myself a whole in bed to sleep comfortabily after they are gone.  I am learning that a 3:00pm nap is good. This weekend I am going figure out someway to get some sun by the pool. Hope everyone has a great weekend

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    Golf- Getting the drains out was the worst part of my cancer ordeal. Make sure you are laying down. I was sitting up when they took the first one out  and I passed out. I never knew smelling salts were real before, lol. I have a huge tolerance for pain, I only took one pain pill after leaving the hospital and I took none when I had an abdominal hysterectomy-- I even made them take out the morphine drip. Having the drains out hurt a lot but just for the moment (which seemed minutes, but was proibably 2 seconds) while it was being removed.

  • Lovegolf
    Lovegolf Member Posts: 513
    edited May 2009

    NoH8

    Thanks for information. I fear will the doctor or her nurse every nasty word I know. Sounds we have same pain tolerance. I played golf 10 days after my hysterectomy, but it was scoped.  Did you have to take hormone therapy after cancer???I hope since ovaries gone and HRT gone and both breast gone(damn that sounds I have been crarved up) I will not

  • sftfemme65
    sftfemme65 Member Posts: 790
    edited May 2009

    NoH8,

    Wow Im sorry that the drain removal hurt you so much.  I had one drain with my first mastectomy and then 3 with my reconstruction.  I had no pain with the removal of any of the drains at all, and I dont like any discomfort at all.  It really didn't hurt at all.

    I hope you have the same experience Lovegolf

    Teresa

  • dee1961
    dee1961 Member Posts: 1,672
    edited May 2009

    Hi everyone!

    Lovegolf - I had four drains and they hurt like you know what!  It did not hurt me when they took them out it just felt a little weird. I was laying down on my back too like Amy when they came out, so you may want to to do that too. I am sure you will do great. Take care.

    Happy Mothers Day to all the moms here!   

  • dswope
    dswope Member Posts: 70
    edited May 2009

    Hello again everyone,

    I haven't even reached the "drains out" part yet, and hate to change the subject, however I AM PISSED OFF and am very anxious and afraid TODAY and need to vent!   I could tell last night I was heading downward to an ugly place.  I've spent so much time trying to be positive for everyone else (and myself I guess), joking about being without breasts, assuring everyone I'll be fine, hoping to have people be more comfortable with this.  Well, I'm NOT comfortable!  What an invasive thing this is...to have part of your body just taken from you.  No recourse really.  Not knowing until surgery is over how bad this really is.  Dammit!

    Is it normal as I get this close to surgery to start freaking out?  My surgery is Thurs. 5/14.  Two more days at work, 1 day to try and get a little more organized (i find I'm feel I have to get all these things done), and then the dreaded surgery.  I have been on antidepressants for years, my doc gave me a prescription for anti anxiety meds.......they are not working!!!

    Help! 

    I have too much going on in my life for this crap. 

  • NoH8
    NoH8 Member Posts: 2,726
    edited May 2009

    dswop- I don';t think any amount of meds is going to make you not anxious about cancer surgery unless they were so strong they knocked you out, LOL. I think you'll have an easier time if you are true to yourself and your feelings. It's not your job to make everyone else feel more comfortable, though inevidably I think we all do some of that. I think my cancer was a LOT harder on those who loved me than it was on myself. I felt as if I was being an active participant in my treatment and fighting the cancer with my surgeries and chemo, but they felt helpless. For me the waiting and the unknown was so much worse than any surgery or treatment. I never experienced the mourning the loss of my breasts,I was just thrilled to have the cancer gone, but I know a lot of women go through the same feelings of loss as you are dealing with.

    golf- Yes, it does sound like we have the same tolerance. I went out to breakfast on the way home from my mastectomy, the day after the procedure and I was grocery shopping 3 days later (though since I still had the drains so I had to get people to reach on the higher shelves for me) and with the  hysterectomy I went to the mall a few days later.

    teresa-Wow, I wonder why your drains were painless. The only reason I can think is I was so skinny at the time after the breasts came off my skin must have been right on the bones. I sure could see every bone in my chest.

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