It's great to read everyone's posts.  This board really helps me so much to keep plugging away through all of this.  It is amazing what we are going through collectively.  There is so much going on with everyone all the time.

Lisa - That is awful but you have been such a trooper.  You will overcome this hurdle too!   

BevR - I am thinking of you today.  I too dreaded my last AC but I barely even remember it now.    

babyc - It is nice to hear from you!  I also have mild neuropathy and am hoping that it's not cumulative as I have 7 treatments to go, but I am not taking anything for it at this point.  

BerkelyKim - I am wondering what will be left of me after the 12 tx.  It's starting to feel like running a marathon.  I'm so glad you were able to get away.  It sounds like you had a beautiful time.   

ddlatt - I can't believe you may have to stop.  I would think there has to be some way to let you finish up.   

KM47 - Ah, the comforts of home, and you'll see your hubby soon too.  Thanks for staying in close contact through that ordeal.   

Renrel - Hope you are getting through the week OK.  The weight will be lifted soon enough.

jrgolomb - You sound happy with the care and attention from your doctors.  That is so important.  I am excited that you're excited and that you are close to being done with everything.       

Bev56 - Congratulations on finishing chemo!  You're on to the next phase but I have to say I am really sorry to hear about your husband's job.  At least he has a little heads up on it.  

kt57 - I appreciate your comments about hormone therapy.  They will help me make a decision when I need to later.  

Renrel - Thanks for your post.  More food for thought.  I think we all have to be vigilant about getting the tests and scans we need.  Some doctors are so oddly hesitant to test sometimes.  The technology is there - I say use it.    

Patti - Congratulations on your new grand daughter!  It's wonderful that you could spend some time with her.  

Work, work, work.  I let them make me feel so inadequate.  I will go in when I have some energy, will enjoy being with everyone there and will do what I can (which will be plenty).  It's cold and cloudy.  I could use a cheerleading squad right about now.    

HoltHolt -- good to hear from you - was wondering if you were OK.  Sound like a great trip with your DH and DS.   LOL about Mick's pants!   Danny was great this week - Adam gave me the shivers -- how can anyone sing with such clarity and emotion WOW -- think he's got it in the bag.   Any decisions on 5&6?  

lisalisa:  here's hoping and praying the flagyl kicks in and you stay on schedule!   You have been through soooo much!   

ddlatt: isn't it somewhat normal for liver enzymes to go up as your liver detoxifies the chemo?  hope your liver scan turns out well and you can complete your treatment.

awwwwwww, DDLATT!  I wish I could be with you and  like Kim hold my breath for you.  It stinks you have to wait till Monday!!!!  Yeah, it's gotta be the Taxol.  I've read many threads and different sites that mention the taxanes can do a number on the liver.  I will be thinking of you this weekend.

Everyone, it sounds like we have had quite a week.   LisaLisa, hope everything works out.  II am so sorry you have had to go through all these other challenges along with the chemo.  UGH!

DDlatt, I agree that your doctor is being cautious and checking for potential issues.  We will all pray that this is the chemo causing the problems.  Sending positive thoughts.

Bev, cograts on finishing, Patti, a new granchild.  Wonderful. 

BerkleyKim, glad you were able to get away.  

Me, I am headed for another transfusion tomorrow.  Just can't seem to keep that hemoglobin level up.  This will be my third.   I see my onc next Thursday, so he may be sending me for some other tests.   He was not happy the last time.   That was just over 3 weeks ago.  Good thing is I can now start counting down.   I have 6 more Taxol to go.  My end date now is May 21 if I don't have any more treatments delayed.   My WBC is staying up now because I am giving myself a shot of Neupogin 3 days after each treatment.   I start rads after that.   Not sure how much time between.  I will ask next Thursday.  

Hope everyone has a pain free, pleasant weekend.  

ddlatt, I'll be thinking of you this weekend.  I think it's very unlikely that you would have spread to the liver so quickly being a stage 1, no positive nodes and on chemotherapy....and I'm sticking to that   I'm thinking (and hoping) it's the chemo.  If your doc DIDN"T check for mets I would be more worried, best to be cautious.  Keep us updated.......my husband has always said through this process "let's not be worried until someone tells us we should be worried", and it helped me a little, not alot, but a little.

DD...wow that's really scary!!  Let's hope it's nothing.  Your onc sounds like a real idiot for getting you all wound before a holiday weekend!!!  What a total jerk!!!!  

ddlat, I'm vibing away that it's nothing serious.  Hang in there...there is a very, very good chance that it's the chemo!  Try to relax and have a decent weekend and I can't wait to see you post your good news here in a couple days

Big, big hugs...Diane

Hi all

Brenda from Florida---Good luck on your transfusion today.

B KIM--yes, I do like sleeping in.  I know I will suffer on Monday not only because I usually do on a normal post vacation, Monday but also because I know the neulasta/taxoterrible joint pain will begin.Argh.

Holtbolt---So glad you had a great time visiting and getting away.  That is a good locale for my 16 year old....I'm from michigan, so maybe it won't be too long when I've finally finished chemo.

Alol23--I so agree with you about the ordeal DDLATT has to go thru....They had to wait 5 days for results?

Year of the Hat---I thank you for all your positive thoughts and responses.  You don't know how much it helps to get that.  I hope work goes better for you.

Renrel--So what's the recipe for your fancy cake.  Just the word "chocolat" gets my taste buds watering!

KM47--Fec buddy!  I so bet you are glad to be home.  I hope your husband gets over the flu quickly.

I've been thinking about Misty and Malcolm too.  But she would be very busy whether things were going well or poorly so I am hoping that they are busy with a transplant.   I believe she also was supposed to have a propholatic Masactomy yesterday, so prepping for that would have had her busy. 

jrgolomb - The recipe is not hard but it is rather time consuming.  Beatting egg whites till stiff, beating egg yokes till lemony, cooling the cake for seveal hours before frosting, beating a merange (sp) or whipped cream frosting.  If you really think you would bake it I will  post the recipe, but because it is so long I would rather not bother if it unlikely you would actually bake something that will take at least an hour of active time and several hours of baking and cooling. But since it takes either a 1/4 cup of cake meal or 4 TBSP of bread crumbs it may be good for people with weak wheat alergies, I am not sure if there is such a thing (people who are ok with just a little rather than who need total avoidance.)  

YOTH - Sweet Dreams 

mimi - Glad you are feeling so good. It gives us all hope.

 DH is home today so he took DS to school.  It may be a tough day for DS since they are having a b-day party and he can't have cake.  I could not even send a piece of my cake since it has ground nuts in it.  I don't know why but my eyes are tearing up a storm today.  They have been tearing but today I look like I am crying.  I am also tired and achy but other than that OK.  Wednsday is tx #5.  I am not dreading it but I am not looking forward to it.  As I posted before I am having trouble coming up with something fun to wear which is one way I get my spirts up for it.  Maybe I will put temp tattos on my head, but I have fuzz (I think my hair is already growing by the way) so they may not work.  It will also be Passover, so I will not be able to pig out on the free lunch and snacks they provide.  

Hi Ladies,

Thanks for keeping an eye out for me/Malcolm

Malcolm is at TGH, they found a donor last night, finally got the call and I am stuck in the hospital. His granny, brother and aunt are there with him and I spoke with him via phone about and hour ago, they are waiting for the donor liver to be havesed so we are on standby but he does have a new liver in the wings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am trying to type this all bangaged up, outpatient prop mast did not work, blood count dropped and I am still in the hospital, hopefully home tomorrow.

Continue to pray for him he is not out of the woods just yet.

Misty- my thoughts and prayers are with you , Malcolm and your family.

misty123:   So glad to hear from you.  I am soooo happy to hear the news about Malcolm's liver in the wings.  I hope you recover quickly and can  be with him soon.  Will continue to pray for you both.

ddblatt:  I am hoping you find out your problems are due to the chemo. What scary words to read about mets.  Will the damage reverse itself if it was caused by the chemo?  The waiting is the worst. Sorry you have to spend the weekend thinking about it.  As we all probably do, I remember well the waiting for dx and not being able to think about anything else.  Sorry you have to play the waiting game again.

Lisa: Hope you are feeling better soon.  My treatment has been delayed by two weeks now because of the pnuemonia and it is hard to have tx delayed.  It worked out well for me I guess because I got to go to Texas to see Aislynn, but now I am home and "my" reality is setting in again and after seeing my dr. today and  deciding that we will finish my tx up with 9 weeks of taxol instead of taxotere, I am now trying to accept the fact that my last chemo, assuming there are no other unforseen problems, will not be until June 11th,  which means rads all summer..

Km47:  So glad you are home.  Hope your husband gets well soon and keeps all those flu germs to himself.

Hope all of you who celebrate Easter have a great weekend and receive a renewed faith by celebrating the resurrection. 

I am glad to be home and having had no chemo for over three weeks now feeling rather well and I will be enjoying the holidays with my DH and two younger children.

Happy Easter.

Patti

Thanks ladies,

I think I confused you all. I came in thurday for an outpatient L prop mast w/TE and I am still here. I did have my surgery I just haven't made it home yet, lots of drainage and low counts are keeping me admitted in the hospital.

Malcolm is due for pre-op at 9 my oldest just called and hopefully surgeryat 10. I will keep you posted thru the night as I will just be laying here.

thank you so much for your kind thoughts and support! i'm kind of glad i have to wait until monday or tuesday for the results of the CT scan. if it's bad news, at least it isn't worrying me this weekend.

i was at REI today and found the most perfect headwear for us baldies!  it's just a simple piece of material that you can do so much with, with and without hair, and it comes in many beautiful colors and fabrics: http://www.buffwear.co.uk/pages/technical/ways-to-wear.php  it's $15 and i bought a bunch of them. it's the perfect solution i've been looking for because i can't stand scarves or hats, and i don't wear a wig.