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cashiertina
cashiertina Member Posts: 7
edited June 2014 in IDC (Invasive Ductal Carcinoma)

I am 53 years old and I had had a lump in my right breast for approx. 2 years that just kept growing and growing to the point that I finally had no choice but to get it checked out. I went to the Doctor yesterday (4/7/2009) he checked me all over and I had no swollen lymph nodes, etc. but he sent me right away to the hospital to get a mammogram and ultra sound. This showed a fluid filled cyst the size of a large grapefruit. The doctor drained it ( 12 large syringes full) and said that there was what appeared to be a small blood clot, he took biopsy of it but assured me that he was still 99% sure that it was nothing. I was so relieved to hear that I had nothing more than a cyst, or at least that was what I was led to believe. Well, lo and behold I get a call from them today telling me that the "blood clot" is cancer (IDC) this is all I know so far ( don't get an MRI till next week) but I am so scared I don't know what to think or do.Can anyone help me to understand what is going on and what all of this means? Am I going to die? Please help me........Please!

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited April 2009

    YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE!!!  Repeat this mantra over and over until it sticks!

    You are experiencing the "just hit by a truck" feeling that we have all had following our diagnosis.  I know there will be many more ladies stopping by to encourage you, but I wanted to quickly get this on the boards.

    I know it's hard to wait, but right now it's just that...a waiting game.  Rally your support around you...come here for encouragement and hugs...and try to take it a day...minute...second at a time, whatever helps you.

    Once you have results from your tests, you will be able to put a treatment plan into place, and that will make you feel much more in control.

    Gentle hugs to you,

    Peggy

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  • flash
    flash Member Posts: 1,685
    edited April 2009

    Your feelings are normal.  Take a deep breath.  Treating cancer is very different now.  Even in the 18 months I've been dealing with it, it has already changed further. Try to only worry about things you can control, if you can't control it, then you don't put it on your worry list.  Of course, that's always easier said than done.  I hope all goes well for you. Hugs

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  • dee1961
    dee1961 Member Posts: 1,672
    edited April 2009

    Hang in there Tina, 

    I know that is easier said than done. Just know we are here and will talk to you anytime you need an ear. We have all been where you are right now and waiting just stinks! Breathe and take it one day at a time. Let us knw how you are doing okay?

    Hugs,

    D~ 

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  • idaho
    idaho Member Posts: 1,187
    edited April 2009

    You are not going to die.  Well, not any time soon anyway!  This is very treatable now and it sounds like the tumor is relatively small.  Know that there is lots of help out there, and once you know all the facts and have a game plan it will be easier.  good luck, Tami

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  • cashiertina
    cashiertina Member Posts: 7
    edited April 2009

    Thank you so very much for your words of encouragement. I have NEVER been so scared of anything in my life. I still cannot believe that this is going on inside of me. I am not sick or in any pain, or anything that would have made me think that I have something wrong with me. Physically I feel fine, mentaly I felt great until I heard this. I will keep you posted as to what I find out but until then, thank-you for listening!

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  • Bold
    Bold Member Posts: 692
    edited April 2009

    Tina:

    We are all in the same boat. Even though there is fear and that is undeniable this whole cancer thing is pretty doable. Not easy but doable. You will get tons of support here and on other threads. I have you in my prayers and thoughts.

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  • cashiertina
    cashiertina Member Posts: 7
    edited April 2009

    I forgot to mention it earlier but I had a total hysterectomy when I was 35 and have never taken HRT at all, the Doctor that did the surgery said I was better off without it. So, how will this play a role in my cancer treatment? I admire you all for your courage and strengths I just hope that I can do the same.

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  • Hoolianama0508
    Hoolianama0508 Member Posts: 162
    edited April 2009

    You will not die. My prayers are with you for increased strength and inner peace. Take a deep beath and release it.

    It is normal to feel that way when you first get diagnosed. Honestly, it's like the doctor took a pin and burst the balloon of your normal life. (that's the best way I can describe the moment I was diagnosed).

    Ask your doctor to put you in touch with a Breast Care Coordinator. This is a nurse that assists patients with questions and appointments.

    I was diagnosed 2 weeks ago and have just come back from a second opinion about the suggested treatment. I feel better about my future even though I still have tough choices to make.

    Please hang in there.

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  • hbcheryl
    hbcheryl Member Posts: 5,113
    edited April 2009

    Hi Tina,

    Firstly, a big HUG to you, everyone is right you will be okay - we all know how you feel. It's like you've been hit by a truck and you feel as if your stomach is on the floor but you will get through all of this.  If you can, have someone go to appointments with you as you won't hear all of what your doctors are telling you and once you have your diagnosis you can put your treatment plan of action into place.  If you have questions or fears come back and ask the question or voice the fear and don't worry about time time of day or night there are amazing wonderful women here who will help you get through.

    Cheryl

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  • KinAZ
    KinAZ Member Posts: 180
    edited April 2009

    This time last year I was where you are now.  I had just turned 50, and I had also had a hysterectomy.  Everything you are experiencing is normal, and I promise it will get better.  Not overnight but it does get better......it is not a death sentence.  You will find you are much stronger that you ever knew. 

    The waiting is the worst..........you have found a great place for support and info....so be sure to come here for anything........we all get it!!!!!!  Time to take care of yourself...

    Hugs, Karen

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