Scared

MillieD
MillieD Member Posts: 60
edited June 2014 in IDC (Invasive Ductal Carcinoma)
 

I was diagnosed with BC on 2/25.  I have been a nervous wreck since.  I have three malignant lumps on my left breast. I have 2 maternal aunts with breast cancer and my surgeon suggested the BRAC testing.  I had same done on 3/6.  I had an MRI scheduled for today but i didn't get my period last week (due to stress).  The MRI has been rescheduled for 3/23 (with or without my period).  That delays my appointment for another week (3/30).  Is this how long it usually takes after you have been diagnosed?  I have a trip scheduled to PR from 4/9 to 4/15.  The doctor told me to go and enjoy my trip.  How can I when I have so much on my mind.  If it were up to me I would have my surgery tomorrow.  I'm so glad i found a site that i can read about woman with the same conditions.  Everyone tells me not to worry about it, not to think about it.  How can i when i have nothing else on my mind.  Thank God I'm working and trying to keep busy. I have a 27 year old son and a 10 year old daughter.  I find myself crying every day.  I don't do in front of my daughter but i feel i have to hide from my husband.  Is this normal?  Please let me know if this anxiety is normal... 

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  • pjm0655
    pjm0655 Member Posts: 13
    edited March 2009

    mdominguez,

    Yes. This is a normal reaction. I was diagnosed at the end of January. I've since had a

    lumpectomy on my right breast. I am now waiting for results of a test where they test

    the tissue that they have stored from my surgery to see if I am at a high risk for it

    coming back, and if so, I will probably do Chemo Therapy.

    The hardest thing is the waiting, so I know what you're going through. I also cried a lot

    just when I'm by myself. So you're not alone. I know it's hard, but try to hang in there,

    and just get as much information as you can. This website is also great for information

    too, and support !

    I hope I've helped relieve some of your anxiety, hang in there !!

    pjm0655

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  • idaho
    idaho Member Posts: 1,187
    edited March 2009

    Hi Mdominguez-  I was diagnosed on Feb. 1st.  I didn't have my lumpectomy until March 4th.  The doctor told me to take my time, do a lot of  research, and not to worry, the cancer is not growing that fast. He said it takes months to notice any difference in most cancers.  I am recovering well from surgery, I meet with my oncologist tomorrow to decide on a treatment plan.  I will not beable to start radiation until April 1st at the soonest according to my surgeon.  So it takes time,  I cried a lot in private also, still do sometimes,  it seems that when you get a  game plan it somehow makes it easier though.  Try to go on your trip and do enjoy yourself, there are thousands of  women who have beat this, thousands more that are living with it just fine, and thousands more who don't even know they have it yet.  It changes your life, but you will find a new "normal".  Your anxiety is totally normal,  You are going to be ok.  Keep reading on these boards, you will learn so much.  Soft hugs, hang in there,  Tami

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  • Robyn66
    Robyn66 Member Posts: 169
    edited March 2009

    Of course you worry and of course you think the worst at this point.  You will hear this a million times, but it is true that you are at the worst point in this process right now.  And its ok to cry and be scared and upset.  People who love you very much are likely to start getting on you about being "negative"  you aren't being negative you are being human and you have to go through this part unfortunately.  I know you want to spare your family from seeing you upset but this is the first step of having to accept that YOU are the priority right now and whatever you need to do you NEED to do. 

    See if you can get some xanax or attivan from your doc.  It really makes all the waiting and the stress a little easier. 

    I had to wait two months between diagnosis and mastectomy.  That was HELL!  And then it turned out I had one node involved and needed chemo.  But I have an 85% chance of never dealing with this again.  What helped me was realizing that if I had to get BC I am glad it was NOW with the current technology because we all have a terrific chance of beating it.

    WHen my surgeon told me about the node, I thought that was it.  But he was very positive.  I told him that I wanted to live to be 100 and he said to me "well be sure to wear a seat belt"

    Sweetie, I know you want to get this garbage out of you today, but the good news is, chances are it took a long time to get there so you have time to have second opinions and process this.  I hope you don't have a long wait for surgery, many people here didn't. :)

    Just try and take a breath, take one day at a time and let your family in and see how you are feeling.

    Feel free to PM me.  This is a fantastic place to get support.  These wonderful women have helped me through some tough times and they will help you too.

    Take care!

    Robyn

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