I can't get my act together and I don't know why

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  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 5,056
    edited January 2009

    isn't fold a 4 letter word, like iron?

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    No, only those things necessarily seen at work or other place where they might think us indigent have to be folded....socks, undies, T-shirt and etc can be left as it falls from the dryer to be sorted through as needed. 

    I heve to share a little tidbit....my sister had 8 children (yes, 8!)  She's 2 years younger than me, but anyway, I used to laugh at the grocey sack of clean socks.  One for white tubes, one for dark.  When a child needed socks, they went and picked out 2 white or 2 black and wore then.  Never mind that one had red stripes and another blue...they were covered by pants. LOL  Except during the summer and sports events!  what a gas those kids were, all very smart and very happy. Crazy happy ! :D

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    Yes, here it is.  although I have gotten my quilting iron out when dd comes to do her laundry she's left in the dryer and her work shirt looks like something that was used to sleep in.  Just can't allow her to go to work that way :(

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  • Isabella4
    Isabella4 Member Posts: 2,166
    edited January 2009

    My house is a tip. I just get a call an hour ago that my g/daughter is coming in the morning to see me with her new baby. I WANT to see that little soul, but so DO NOT want a house full of baby things, her boyfriend, and her little dog ( I have enough dogs of my own thankyou, so there will be a war!! ) 

    I don't suppose she will notice all the mess...aaarrgghh...... I have just got a second call, she is bringing one of my g/sons in her car 'while she has room' !!!!! Now I shall have to get up early to clear a space for all to sit down, and light the fire, and probably end up dashing around in my next to nothings (NOT a pretty sight!!) vacuuming the last 3 weeks mess from the floor, I haven't touched the place since Christmas.

    I had alsorts planned for tomorrow, and I certainly wasn't expecting to be entertaining and cleaning ! I was hoping to muster all my strength and go see whats doing at the end of the sales !!!!!

    Isabella.

     . 

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  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 3,255
    edited January 2009

    Hiyah everyone.  I am so so tired, my eyelids are falling down and I am so slow that a 5th grader could win at dodge ball, let alone facts they are learning and the same facts that I have spent 35 years trying to forget..... lol.

    I have been under a lot of stress lately.  I dont know why.  My cancer is stable, my husband is supportive, my daughters are absolute angels.  I have entered the chronic stage of this mess, where we will live day by day wondering if this symptom or that symptom is the very first of a string that will ultimately deprive me of my family and the life I share with family, the workplace and my volunteer choices.  But as soon as I let those go along with quilting, sewing, and other projects on the go.... I think I might be able to see the light soon.... no sorry, shift in lighting, maybe next time.

    Dreamwriter

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  • mzmiller99
    mzmiller99 Member Posts: 894
    edited January 2009

    Dream - I don't know how it must feel to live with your stress, but you make me understand what we are facing.  I keep reverting back to my nasty, petty complaints now that the panic mode is over, forgetting how uncertain the future really is.  For everyone, not just us bc girls.

    Thinking of you  -

    Susan

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  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 5,056
    edited January 2009

    A friend sent this to me, author unknown:

    Cleaning Poem I asked the Lord to tell me Why my house is such a mess. He asked if I'd been 'computering', And I had to answer 'yes' He told me to get off my fanny And tidy up the house And so I started cleaning up... The smudges off my mouse I wiped and shined the topside. That really did the trick... I was just admiring my work.. I didn't mean to 'click.' But click, I did, and oops I found A real absorbing site. That I got SO way into. I was into it all night.<<Sigh>> Nothing's changed except my mouse It's very, very shiny. I guess my house will stay a mess...  

    While I sit here on my hiney.  

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    I love it!  A mantra to live by and post above my puter :)  thanks for sharing that Nancy, too cute~

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  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 5,056
    edited January 2009

    yw, wish.  It was a cut and paste, so did not come out like a poem should have.   

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    Yes, see that often when we cut and paste....but I got the poem, just learn to ignore the extra these days in posts :)

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  • Imasurvivor
    Imasurvivor Member Posts: 66
    edited January 2009

    I had my Zometa infusion on Tuesday and they gave me Dex in my IV.  It's a steroid and it made wired and I was able to clean like crazy.  I got the front entry scrubbed, shampooed my carpets and used the uphostery cleaner on the furniture and polished my hardwood floors.  And I did 3 loads of laundry.  Too bad I can't get a dose of that once a week!  The house is still a mess but I feel like I made a big enough dent that I can shed some of my guilt.

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    Holy begeebers, Ima, You best be careful, lest you get banned till your house starts looking bad again!  wonder where I could get a shot of that for couple weeks :)

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  • Jane_M
    Jane_M Member Posts: 1,549
    edited January 2009

    I'm still relatively new to this "chemobrain", so I don't know what is real and what is imagined.  Is it possible to "forget" how to drive with chemobrain?  I drive a stick shift and lately I actually have to think about what I am doing.  It's not just coming natural.  Is that normal?  I haven't forgotten where I live or where I work, but easy things have require concentration now that never did before.  Is this chemobrain or am I going crazy (or both)?

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  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 3,255
    edited January 2009

    If you use cut and paste the print will come out faded....

    If you use control c (copy) and control v (vent)

    you get:

    Last week's writing (had to miss this week and next) 

    I loved the forest and the easy ability to get there.  The flowers were purple and orange and white.  The sunlight blinked in from between the leaves overhead.  I felt as comfortable as a native - my beaded headband keeping the hair from my eyes.  The music pulsed like a heartbeat,.  Strings, harps, guitars and other instruments I couldn't even name.  My spirit guide is a butterfly of soft yellow black.  The haven feels like spring, warm winds and cool temperature.  A little strange since my snowman has not melted.  It stands on my front lawn, the prettiest snowman I could make.
    The butterfly has told me that I must push my winter thoughts aside and allow myself to grow and be happy.  One day I may join the angels.  But not this day.  So this day, I need to rejoice and feel forever young.

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  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 3,255
    edited January 2009

    Jane M. - I find that I often have to talk myself through things that should come natural.  If it has many steps I may have to do it in manageable segments.  Sorry about the chemo brain.... it really takes away some of who we are

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  • gsg
    gsg Member Posts: 3,386
    edited January 2009

    Jane:  I finished chemo in August 2006 and still am not myself.  I remember HOW to drive, but sometimes forget where I'm going or will be in a familiar place and become completely disoriented and lost.  I understand how unnerving it is.  My memory is still nonexistent and I can no longer concentrate on reading books.  I'd like to give you some encouragement.  I understand chemobrain can last several years.  So in the meantime, all we can do is hang in there.

    Hello to all my buddies in this thread.  So happy to see you have kept it going in my absence.  Was very busy with the holidays, my son's visit and recently the inauguration.  It was thrilling, but exhausting.  I'm pretty much down for the count this weekend.  No cleaning will be even contemplated.

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    Glad you stopped in Patrice, was wondering if I missed a post or something, hadn't read from you lately :(  Hope all went well for you holidays and son's visit. 

    I've managed to pick up a second job and am looking into a third just be/c none are getting the hours I want. :(  Hate this economy.  Everyone wants good workers, but can't promise good hours to keep anyone happy ;(  So many places closing that hose with full X are now taking up the part ones so even those are nil in Michigan :(

    {{Jane}}I swear it's chemo brain for me yet.  IT's been a year Feb 5th, but I still as Patrice said have problems concentrating long enough to comprehend what I read.  It's so sad...no enjoyment to read book, mags or even the paper :(  Hate that as I love to read.  I still do stupid things when driving like if someone is with me, forgetting where we are going, or when I run errands, i write out list from place to place with a list of what I need at each place, or I'll simply forget what is needed at each stop.  IT's nutty.  And seriously, I'm no longer stressed, so it's not that.  Not depressed either so it has to be he chemo brain...or I'm senile already at 50 :(

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  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 3,255
    edited January 2009

    Well Wish, then we both are senile at 50.

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  • kes
    kes Member Posts: 559
    edited January 2009

    Hi Ladies,

    My Bilat Mast anniversary is coming up on Jan 25th. It will be 1 year and what a wild year it has been. My life will never be the same. I think that I have felt every emotion that there is to feel. So to honour this anniversary I am going to get on a plane on Jan 27th and fly south with my DH and DD. I am going to try and forget about breast cancer for the whole week. I just hope that the foobs look OK in a bathing suit.

    I am too far behind to get caught up on this thread. I just hope that everyone is well. My house is still not together and neither am I. Ohhhh Well. Tomorrow is another day.

    Kerry

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    Yep, and no sense to cleaning if you are going away, b/c you know just as soonn as you return, you'll have all that laundry, mail an papers and dust to deal with again, so.......just don't clean till you get back..... Better yet?  Hire a housekeeper to come in the day of or befoe you arrival back home! :)

    Enjoy your trip Kerry~

    Dream, I'd rather use the 'chemobrain' explanation than to admit I've become senile in one year of NO estrogen......:(

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  • KAK
    KAK Member Posts: 1,679
    edited January 2009

    Guess what?  It's not just chemo that scrambles your brain.  I didn't have chemo, but I swear I have cancer-brain, which is maybe just a version of PTSD.  Anything that was not germain to my surviving cancer these past 6 months has a better than even chance of not sticking to my brain cells.

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    Kathi, that so seems possible too.  It's just a pain to try and concentrate on instruction someone is givin you and your mind is just thinking about, 'How the hell am I am going to remember all this?'  Then you realize you haven't heard the last 3 sentences the person said and feel like an idiot, then while they are reiterating it again, you're off thinkin, 'Man, they must think I'm an idiot' and need it repeated a third time! LOL

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  • sueper13
    sueper13 Member Posts: 1,224
    edited January 2009

    Kathi, Wish, tell me about it (the forgetting thing)...I've made my living by having an acutely sharp mind (air traffic controller) and now I have to write everything down. Forgetting makes me anxious, because of what I did for a living. Not to worry, I am not working airplanes anymore since bc.  I am now a Quality Assurance Investigator (the guys I work with call me Agent 99).  I also think menopause is making me forget stuff..Every day at the end of work I write down sort of "where I left off" or I forget it all!

    I need a dispensation to do a major cleaning.  Two friends are coming to stay. Jan lives in Australia, I've known her since we were 13,  and she'll be staying a week.  Kim lives in South Texas, and we recently found her again--haven't seen each other since high school.  Kim is coming just for the weekend.  It's an opportunity to do spring cleaning early, purge some stuff, get my closets in order.  Patrice?  Wish?  Can I get started without getting kicked off this thread? (You know I'm representing bc sisters everywhere....)

    Sue

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited January 2009

    Oh heck...just had to play cancer card and mention  you are representing us everywhere! LOL  Of oourse, patrice has final say being the supreme commander of 'ICMATIDKW', but I'm sure a short term dispensation will be granted.  Just remember, that as SOON as they walk out the door to leave your abode, you must resume your prior status and fall back into the deep dark hole of cobwebs, dustboles and lost vacuum cleaner! :D

    I am going to wash floors today.  I bought a new slightly used recliner/rocker thursday and thus will be moving furniture and so, while i'm at it, I suppose that means a thourough cleaning of workwork behind said furniture:) 

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  • hunkydory
    hunkydory Member Posts: 1,241
    edited January 2009

    Hey Agent 99...when you get done at your place, fly on over to mine.  HeHe  HunkyD

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  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 5,056
    edited January 2009

    I think occasional dispensations to clean should be allowed, but absolutely NO remodeling, painting, or things like washing windows inside and out...!!!!    I forgot to ask for a dispensation after my mouse invasion.   Since 2 mornings in a row I found a dead mouse in my bathtub, I put on double rubber gloves, got out the old fashioned brown bottle Lysol and scrubbed the entire bathroom.   Put up a new shower curtain liner, no new decorative curtain as yet..., threw out the bath mat and have not gotten a new one, yet.   

    Yesterday I moved the recliner and vacuumed.  Most days I eat while watching TV and sit in the recliner.  Food tends to drift down and under for some reason, is it called gravity or clutsiness?   My son and wife are taking me to dinner tonight for my birthday and I also cleared off the dining table.  Most of it went in the trash.   Please give me a dispensation and don't boot me off of here.   Most days I am a "living life and not into cleaning" person.  

    Have  a super weekend,   HUGS, Nancy 

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  • sueper13
    sueper13 Member Posts: 1,224
    edited January 2009

    Happy Birthday, Nancy!!!

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  • Harley44
    Harley44 Member Posts: 5,446
    edited January 2009

    Happy Birthday, Nancy!

    Harley

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  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 5,056
    edited January 2009

    Thank you, thank you.

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  • Daffodil
    Daffodil Member Posts: 829
    edited January 2009
    Yay for Nancy!!!
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