I can't get my act together and I don't know why

I managed to get 3 loads of laundry folded this morning...only 2 to go..whoo hoo!  Of course, it's all laying on the bed for SOMEONE to put away.

I finally got out for some gift shopping and I think online is the only way to go.   The traffic, the nasty people, the LONG lines - really did me in.   I stopped for a take out meal on the way home and even that line was long.   Still more than a week till Christmas, and I am glad I got everything on my list except special cards, which I can get several places.   Speaking of cards, I have gotten 2 in the mail and one does not have a return address, but I know the ones who sent it...   I will sent a few to people who do not have emails, otherwise, it is an email greeting and that will have to do.

At least the weather was decent and dry yesterday.  Today it is trying to rain and very dark outside.   Hugs for all,    Nancy 

Hi ladies,

It is Dec 15 and I do not have 1 Christmas ornament or decoration up yet and I have a 9 year old child. She probably thinks that Christmas is not coming to her house. We went to try to get a tree today with the DH but they were cut your own down and it was too cold and windy and the trees were only 6 feet tall at the most. We wanted one bigger than that. So, now no tree yet. Will try again on Wednesday. At this rate maybe I will have a tree for New Years Day. Have picture X-mas cards to sent and they are upstairs in a bag. Don't know when I will get them sent in the mail. But the X-mas baking is ready to be picked up, $60.00 worth of cookies. At least we can eat cookies if nothing else.I need one of Santa's helpers to help me. Maybe he can sent me one.

Take Care,

Kes

I haven't been able to get into the Christmas spirit.  My DH and I started watching holiday movies 3 nights ago hoping that would help.  No luck so far.

An old school friend that I haven't seen in 20 years suddenly wants to see me, she keeps emailing me about getting together in a week or 2.  I may sound mean, but I don't want to...not right now.  I stay in my house most of the time as it is.  I used to get out of the house alot, but not anymore.

I just don't seem to enjoy things like I used to.  What's wrong with me?

I'm so glad that I read these posts, it makes me understand that I am NOT alone.  My family feel that I should move on with my life, they can't understand why I just can't get a grip, after all, I am cancer free, I should be HAPPY!  I had a year and a half of treatment, just finished my Herceptin at the end of February, and I guess I should be thrilled, after all, the treatments are finished, I'm healthy.  While I was having treatment my life was in a whirl (as all of ours were), I was constantly at doctors, hospitals, tests, treatments, etc.  Although these weren't fun things, my days were so occupied, it was almost hard to concentrate on the fact that I actually had cancer.  Now, life is supposed to be back to normal, but, it's almost like several people said, it's a let down, now what do you do with yourself. 

 I find myself crying over the littlest thing, movies, songs, something somebody says, the news, you name it, and I'm crying about it.  To the world, we should be happy, we should be back to normal and going on with our lives.  I suppose, only someone who has gone through what we have can understand it.  Why would it be difficult to just get on with our lives, after all, thank G-d we are now healthy, what could be better than that.  They don't understand our fears, concerns, and every time someone tells us they know someone that just passed away from cancer, for them its just another person, to us its a wake up call to how it could be us! 

 I think it should be mandatory that a family seek counselling after someone has been diagnosed with cancer.  I know that while I was going through treatment, it never occured to me what turmoil my family was going through.  To be honest, you are going through so much, it's hard to think about anyone else at the time.  The truth is, your family is going through a lot, and it would be good for them to have support, but, they also have to understand all the turmoil you are going through, and not only physically.

 Okay, I've vented, and feel a little better.  I will start to take some anti-depresents, I hope that they will make life look a little better.

Thanks to everyone who wrote and I wish all of you a long, healthy and happy life.

Sorry for the garbled message,  I do not know what happened there.   It is not your "usual" or "normal" message... lolol.    

Shelloz & 2NewBoobs, you are both describing symptoms of clinical depression, a very common occurrence after stress, trauma, illness & surgery.  It's the result of your body not being able to make enough seratonin, norepinephrine & other neurotransmitters to keep up with the constant toll that life has taken on you.  That's why a lot of us take an anti-depressant, which acts to help our brains pile up more of our own neurotransmitters.  So, I'm sorry to say that you have another ailment, but you do.  The good news is it's treatable.  Anti-depressants work.  Talk to your PCP, med onc, or whichever doctor you have the best rapport with, & get a prescription.  I take Effexor & it's worked well.

Don't suffer!

Patrice, it must be awesome to have your son back. 

Jane, dear lord in heaven!!!!!  I hope you are lying down with your leg elevated & iced!  Thank goodness you didn't crack your skull or something!

Patrice~  HI~  And a Happy Holiday to you also dear friend!  So happy your ds is home for a bit!

Ladies, Kathi is right, drugs are good for depressing till you can get through all the mess.  Seek out help when you need it so you can get better soon, we hate to see you suffering

{{{{{{{JANE}}}}}}  My goodness Lady!  Are you sure you are alright?  5X swelling of what on your leg? Your ankle? knee?  Are you sure you didn't do more than bruise it?  I chipped a bone once on my outer ankle bone and OH MY!  I was on crutches for 4 weeks at least.  It was more painful than afull break I'm sure and to beat all, it was a car accident (drunk driver hit us) killed herself and my beau was in bad shape so with everyone dealing her and him, (small town), they forgot to xray the one thing I complained the most about.  Didn't know and my mother kept trying to get me to walk on it! 4 days later, the guy removing stitches xrayed it and found it.  Be careful lady!

Hey, bet we could find someplace to stay as my dd is down there, although she' preggo with #3 in a 3 bedroom home. I"d rather stay with Harley with NO kids, or sue (hers are all grown and away, right?

Yes, it's going to be miserable!  Starting about 2 am and the worse during the day tomorrow.  They are saying from 1-3 inches PER hour!!!!!!!!!!!  EEEK!  Where are you at Kes?

You knee?  OR your calf?  You really should have that looked Jane.  Can you bend, move and stuff with pain?  Are you keeping it elevated, and applying ICE (first 24 hours) then heat IF it's not cracked/broken?

Wish,   I'm in Canada, South-Western Ontario. We get the same weather as you. Remember all the Thunder and rain storms in the summer? Right now I would stay in my car if I had to when down south. This snow is gettin to me. We were only without snow for 7 months as last March was just like December is now. Maybe your daughter has some bunkbeds. I could always bring a tent.

Kerry

Wish,  I am not a camper either. I could only do camping now in a trailer that is pulled behind a car and totally loaded with all the stuff, stove and fridge and A/C and a comfy bed. My tenting days were in my youth. What is a chigger? I have not heard of one of those creatures. We have ticks but no chiggers.

Kerry