I think I want this OVER

Hi Sue

Sounds like you really could use some TLC and a little get away! ((((HUGS))))), sorry things are so sucky for you right now, it will get better. BC is a ride no one wants so, when your down and feeling blue and like everythings a mess, take a breath, step back, get it out and be kind to yourself, even if you just need a day off, do something to change your focus for a short while then pick up your boots and say....I can do this.......just like your title. Seriously, whens the last time you gave yourself and real break, also with hubby???? Go for it, sometimes it's the best thing you can do for yourself.......everything else will fall into place.

you HIT the nail on the HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. B/C SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just take one day at a time.  with you. always marsha

Dear IcanDoThis,

I want to talk to you about alcoholism, not bc.

My mother was an alcoholic from the time I was 9 years old until I was 40..then she died. She left behind my father (an unbelievably patient and loving man), me, my two brothers and five amzing grand-daughters. My youngest brother never knew his mother sober. Every minute of my life from aged 9 to age 40 I wished and prayed that my mother would stop drinking. She never stopped.

When you say so publicly on this site that you are 'a recovering alcoholic' I get a tidal wave of pride and love and strength for you because this daughter knows EXACTLY what you are about. At some stage you decided..yes, CHOSE! to make your family more important to you than anything else in the world. To take alcoholism on like that requires a power and a force that cannot be understood by those not in that dark world..and I'm counting families here. I am in awe of the gift you have given your daughter.

My husband and I keep saying this breast cancer thing has to COUNT for something. It has to have MEANING. For you, the meaning can be found in the choice you have already made. You chose life. You chose to live it. You gave your daughter a mother/daughter bond. Cancer has tripped you on your face..yes..but after what you have already done....? I am in awe of you.  

If these damn oncs don't start telling their people to get a Shingles vaccine before starting chemo, I am going to strangle them, one by one.  It is so stupid.  This is a thing you can get over and over, so if you have had it, you STILL need the vaccine.

Sue, my dear sister, you have come so far, God bless you.  I admire you so much.  Addiction is such a bitch.  And what is really sad, you don't really need the Versed, anyway, the whole thing is not much, compared to what most of us have been through, childbirth, etc.

Honey, and all our sisters, the best thing I have found with this whole sorry nightmare is all of you.  A huge sisterhood of women who would go to the wall for each other.

I am 10 years post treatment and doing fine.  Over 80% of us will recover completely.

Another gripe I have is not offering anti-depressives to women before this frickin' journey starts.  I don't know if Sue could have used this, though.

Anyway, Sue, you are loved and cherished here.  Just know you will get well and life will get better.

Start 1000mg of Vitamin C per day, your immune system is in the toilet, and a good B complex.  You will feel better and no more "opportunistic" infections.

So hang in there, sister, gentle hugs, Shirlann 

Dear ICanDoThis!

Glad that you are feeling better.  You poor thing with shingles.  I've known two people who have gotten it and they say it is horrible!!  You should be proud of yourself for dealing with everything.  

I can't believe in all the reading I've done I've never heard about getting the vaccine.  Thanks for letting all of us know.  How long before you start chemo do you need to get it?  I'm sure there are many like me who knew nothing about it.

Hang in there!!