My Hair and I
...haven't been getting along, lately. I feel kind of foolish even bringing this up as so many of my girls are sporting wigs and wraps thanks to chemo. But I'm on the verge of tears all the time it seems because of my coiffe...
I didn't have chemo, so I didn't lose it during treatment. But it is starting to thin and look ratty. It only looks ok for about the first 10 minutes of the day. It is also very dry - except after a workout when it looks like a drowned rat died on my head - and frankly, I'm tired of hot oil and cholesterol treatments, relaxing, coloring - y'all know the drill. I swear, part of me wants to shave it down to a Cesar and call it a day...
But in the back of my mind is that crazy bs that has ALWAYS been there - that somehow who I am as a woman - especially one with fake boobs - is tied to my hair. Been straightening and later relaxing my hair since I was 8 for crying out loud - and I've had enough.
Anyone know if you can color dreds?
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Ohhh Felicia-
I read your post and I thought this was me about a year ago! You are "every woman" here. We've all been down that road. It is a struggle with the hair. It was not until I faced the same frustration that you face now that I decided not to put anymore chemicals or heat on my hair. It was a thin rat's nest for sure!I didn't even know the texture of my hair until I stopped trying to change it. I must say that my hair is... well lets say course but it is now thick, full, natural and has a natural wavy to it. I wore wigs while I went through the transition. I went to barber shops and met with women barbers who had expereince with natural hair. After I found one I liked I was shocked at how quickly my hair responded to natural care. It is so thick that I have to use a large tooth comb. I may get another perm later on down the line, but I'm loving my natural beauty; it's so carefree!. There's nothing else like it. It's like getting justice from all the years of trying to battle my natural hair . I pray you find justice too. God is able, stephanie
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Hi Felicia, I saw your post, and I just had to add to it. I know, your thinking....what, but the pic I have on here is before tx. My hair was very, very curly, but with the help of hair dryers, and other products, I was able to get it to relax some. Well, after chemo, it has become an uncontrollable mess. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to have something, but, the time I put into it, only for it to totally turn into a giant frizzy blob if there is an ounce of moisture in the air, drives me crazy! I'm always lookin at my twin's hair in envy, (she doesn't know...). I hated it then, but geez, I never realized it could get worse. After everything we have been through, it kinda seems dumb to get mad about the hair, but......I still do. I hope you can find peace with your hair, maybe going natural would work for you too, I'm thinkin about letting my hair do it's thing also. Stay well!
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Felicia,
Before I even got a cancer diagnosis I was so fed up with my hair!!! I even made a statement way back in November about shaving it off and starting from scratch. LOL. So I understand that sentiment. I have no choice in that matter now
and to be honest I like not having to be a slave to my hair. Face it, we black women have some serious issues with our hair, no matter what we do with it. My sister decided to go natural over a year ago and she loves it. There are alot of style options out there for natural hair. I plan on staying natural once my hair grows back I think it'll be healthier if I just stop fighting against its nature. Maybe you can go natural for a little while to give your hair a chemical break and later on decide if you want to try chemicals again. Just a thought
. Take care,
Yogi
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I've done au naturale before - just after my son was born. It was nice to wash my hair when I washed my body without the hour+ schedule of blow drying, curling, etc after - loved it. But I have more grey now and really want to give up coloring my hair. But I can't! I'm addicted to Dark and Lovely, it seems...
I think I'm gonna go with block braids for a while then decide what to do from there. Thanks for the feedback, ladies...
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My hair and I have become the best of friends so far. I am in the stage where it is growing back and keeping me in suspense. My texture is very soft and like a newborn's hair. I will most likely wear it short or in a bob, who knows!!! I just have to want and see
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Coloring also caused thinning of my hair. I tried a natural henna and it was MESSY... My grey hair is resistent to color and ususally comes out a completely different color than the rest of my hair. I get a two-toned look and it looks intentional when it's not. I've been braiding my hair since the top of the summer and I love it. You can never go wrong with braids and it gives your hair time to rest and heal. Happy locks everyone! God is able, stephanie
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I am loving my hair too. It is very soft and curly. I put in some curling mouse and out I go. My father is a barber and I had him line me up a few weeks ago. He hadn't did my hair since I was in high school and going through beauty school. I was always the guinea pig for hair styles and new chems. But this time was special. While he was cutting my hair he said it reminded him of when I was a baby and my hair was just like it was then. We both were emotional. But I was glad to have that moment with my daddy. Love you all
Sabrina
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Hey Sabrina!!
That's sounds like it was a poignant moment for you and your father. I teared up myself.
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Just wanted to let people know..I had long silvery hair and had chemo. I had a hard time being bald probably because my hair was my security blanket. In an attempt to make myself feel better, I wrote a song "I'm Bald!"and put it up on Youtube. If anyone would like to hear it, go to youtube.com and put maria gillard in the search box. Maybe some of you can identify it. It was pure music therapy for me and it worked! My treatments have just finished and I am growing little baby hair now and I am much happier!! All the best in strength,
Maria Gillard
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Hey ladies try this link to my facebook pics of my new hair!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2004183&l=591c2&id=1355235250
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Hey Sharon,
You go girl!!! Well I have one Taxol tx to go. I have a little bit on top but not as much as yours!! How are things going with you?
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Thanks Yogi,
I am doing very well. I'm so glad to be finshed with Taxol. Did you have any complications with Taxol at all? I was dead tired my last two tx. I did absolutely nothing but sleep those last two weeks. My heart hasn't shown any improvement yet so I'm stil taking Coreg CR and Lisinopril. I was told that I would be taken those for the rest of my life. Oh well, just another thing to add to life I guess.
Anyway, I'm really enjoying this short style on me. My last tx was 22 May. I kind of miss my ponytails, but this is definitely better than being bald! When it started comming in really well, hair all over started coming in! I have so much hair on my face. I had to start shaving my chin again and nairing my legs and shaving under my right arm. I wish we could pick and choose where we want hair to come back at!!!
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Sharon, you look marvelous
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Sharon,
I am really doing okay on Taxol. I'm a little late in finishing because 2 of my tx had to be postponed because of low WBC, earlier today around 12 I felt a little numbness in my fingertips on my left hand and a little while after that my toes on my right foot but the numbness only lasted for a few minutes in both cases.
I'm sorry to hear that your heart is not doing better, I really want everything to work out for you. How is school going for you? Are you enjoying your classes?
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Thanks Felicia, now if I can get the weight back down. The rad nurse told me that they don't want me to loose any weight until after tx, but I can't stand all the stuff on me. I don't know what the big deal is. Anyway, we'll see.
Yogi- I had a little numbness in all my finger tips and toes at the end of taxol. The numbness lasted for about three weeks until I could start feeling again. The bottom of my feet turned almost black. I bought one of those foot care kits and scrubbed my feet until I almost didn't have any skin left. They are back to normal now! I think I'm still going to loose a couple of finger nails. I lost one toe nail (left big toe). I think I might loose the right big toe soon also. Still, I think I did pretty good considering what I've heard other ladies had to go through.
School....I just pray for the Lord to give me strength to do what I need to do to get through. I haven't been in school for a long time. The youngsters, omg! The stuff they come to class in! This one kid in my business class came in wearing the baggy jeans hanging to the ground with the long tee shirt and three large silver chains hanging off his neck. I was so embarrassed. I wish there was a college just for us older kids so that we don't have to be subject to that kind of stuff! Oh well! Other than that I'm really having fun.
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I can relate to the school thing. I went back at age 37. I was so aware that everyone of my classmates was almost young enough to be my kid - it was crazy. Even a few of my instructors were close to my age. For me, it was the girls coming in in mid-riff tops and skin-tight jeans - in the winter. When the weather got warmer, the shorts got shorter. Yikes...
I'm not envying you, Sharon!
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Hi ladies.. my name is Lashon.. i'm 26 and just lost my hair. I stood in the bathroom for an hour and cryed like a baby when it came out.. each time i brushed it came out then after a while i told myself to suck it up and cut it off.. Then i went to the i feel ugly without my hair phase a few days ago.. only in my second round of treatment on wednesday.. and not looking forward to it.. just means i have 4 more to go.. I feel bad cause my doctor told me i cant work while i do chemo.. i am doing it before surgery cause my cancer started to spread.. its hard.. but i know i am not the only one that has the feeling without my hair.. stay blessed ladies
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Welcome, Lashon. Sorry you had to join us, but glad you found us! Nice bunch of people here for sure...
Cancer IS hard. Sucks, really! But congrats on getting through your second round of chemo! Each one is a step closer to the end...
I have a 26-yr-old friend who is also undergoing chemo now (her 4th of 8 was today). She lost her hair after the second treatment, too. She is triple neg, though...
Keep looking up, my dear...
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Hi Lashon. Nice to meet you and sorry you have to join us! If you need anything just ask. Most of us are going through or have been through chemo and know what you're going through. Chemo is hard, but with a positive attitude and the Lord by your side, you will get through this as well. Again, congrats on getting through your second round of chemo! I know when I started, I didn't think the end would ever get here. I'm done now and on to rads! If this helps, just think of the new pretty hair you will get after chemo!

Keep that beautiful smile my sista!
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Hey Lashon! Sorry you have to be here but here is a good place to be! Looking at your avatar you seem like a fiesty sista so I'm thinking you're tough enough for this journey. Just don't forget you have us sisters here to lean on. No one understands like we do. I just finished my last chemo treatment this past Wednesday. So you'll be through it before you know it. Keep us posted and take care Lashon.
Yogi
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Hello Ladies
I am new to the community. I found this site in the middle of the night on Wednesday. While making a post about my fears regarding surgery, I raised a question about what to do with my hair. I was referred to this link and I am so thankful.
I have been having hair problems since I finished radiation a few years ago. I think it is because of the tamoxifan I have taken for the last four years.
It do know friends that color their dreads.
I will be having a bilateral on September 23 due to two abnormal mammos and an abnormal MRI. I won't have to have chemo, but I have been concerned about what I will do with my hair. I have thought about getting braids. The last thing I need to worry with is my hair while I am in pain. My nerves have been doing a job on my hair as it is. No telling what surgery and having limited mobility will do.
I am so thankful for a place where I can just let my thoughts out with no one telling me to stop being negative. I don't think that it is negative to think about what my life is going to be like while loosing both breast and waiting for them to complete the rebuild.
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Welcome, Pinky. Yep, this is a good place to let it all out and vent if you need to in the comfort of folks who have been there, done that or are still there and doing that...
I got braids after my bilateral, too. I wasn't sure I'd be able to lift my hands up over my head to curl or blow dry, so to keep from looking too tore up, my best friend gave me some cornrows - which I kept in for about a month. I was truly a blessing because it was one less thing I had to deal with/worry about...
Maybe my hair woes are due to tamoxifen - never thought of that. I've had some other side effects not listed on the bottle (weird rashes, dry skin, strange discharge, etc), so I wouldn't be surprised. Thanks for the heads up on that. March will mark the completion of 4 years on tamox for me; I'll be glad when I'm done!
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Last night at an adjunct meeting for the local college where I teach journalism, I ran into another woman from my department whom I'd never met before (out of the 50 people there, we were the only two women of color there [there was an Asian man, though]). We bonded instantly as she is also a working journalist. She had the most amazing hair cut! Short - like Robin Roberts post chemo-short - and was rocking the heck out of it! I wanted to run home RIGHT THEN and cut my own hair!
Of course by the time I got home I had changed my mind again. Didn't help that a TV commercial I saw had a woman with a great chin-length cut that was really, really cute. Sigh. I think I need a hair intervention...
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Well, it's three days before my surgery and I have decided to wait until afterwards to do anything with my hair. Right now, that is the least of my concerns.
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All the best with your surgery, Pinky. We'll be thinking of you. Please check in when you can to let us know how you are doing. We worry about you when you're away and haven't heard from you in a while
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Today has been better. I am up and functioning. I have decided to stay at my boy friends house so I won't be at home alone when I come home. this was major, because we are so different in our styles. I will be moving my two recliners to his extra bedroom this afternoon.
Right now I am waiting for him to move some of his clothes and things so I can start to personalize to room for my recovery
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Well ladies, I had to take a break from rads. I am in so much pain. My onc said that the skin under my arm may start to peel so he gave me two days off. I only have two chest wall tx left and then five tx's to my scar and then I'm done. They gave me some cream called Aquaphor made by Eucerin that I bought more of at Walmart. I can't wait to be finally finished with this!!!
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Hang in there, Sharon!!
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Hello ladies
I'm new to your comunity and have enjoyed reading your posts. I have my 2nd tx on 9/30 and my hair is slowly coming out. I have been wearing sister locs for 6 yrs and so because I don't comb my hair I imagine that is why it is not out faster.if I actually pull on my loc it comes out But I have decided on Sat to go ahead and get it cut really short by a barber. I'm thinking about it too much and so to help me deal with hair loss I want to control it and cut it
Felecia I think you asked if dreds could be dyed and they can. I used to wear a short afro years ago before getting my sister locs and so once my hair grows back I will eventually get them again. Take care ladies. -
Welcome, Pinky2!
Hope you are handling your treatment well! How long have you been growing your locs?I think that when I cut my hair (and I will - soon), I'll be done with the chemicals completely - no relaxing, no dye, no nothing. Scary for me - especially with the reconstructed boob thing going on, but necessary. Sick of trying to beat it into submission and get it to do something (be straight and jet black) it obviously doesn't want to do.
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