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TripleNeg
TripleNeg Member Posts: 836
edited June 2014 in Palliative Therapy/Hospice Care

Did I mention that it's everywhere?  The last chemo I did made me so sick I had to stop. I have headaches constantly. I can only imagine  what the doctor is going to tell me today. Breast Cancer is a heartless coward. I was planning a vacation getaway this weekend with my Mom and my brother. Now it seems that I'll be planning hospice home visits. A month ago an intern told me that I'd me on hospice within 6 months. I didn't want to accept it but with all the progresion lately, I'm beginning to be open to the idea. I've been around the boards long enought to know that the news I've gotten lately can't be good. I don't take hospice losing. Death is not defeat. All I can do now is pray for the forgiveness of my sins and wait for the Lord. I'm afraid but, the Lord is my Shepherd. The friends that I've made along the way who've gone before me have given me courage to hold on (Lisa, Maria, Myra, and June). God is able, stephanie

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    {{{{Stephanie}}}} Two things I noticed in reading your posts.  One is that you are in a bad spot with the adddional mets, but Two, that you are in a good spot with your beliefs in the Lord and his plan for you! Somehow I feel torn between feeling so very sorry you are having to deal with yet more, but then I'm gladdened that you have such peace in your soul!  I envy you that last part, more than you can begin to imagine.  I only hope that when my time comes I'll be as faithful as you!

    That said, I am so sorry that this has come to you! Any of it! But isn't there anyway to continue with your plans for this weekend?  Some way to tx while you are gone?  You need this as do your family to enjoy one another and spend that time that is obviously going to be gone so very too soon. :(  I hope you can find a way to get away with them.  I'm keeping you in thoughts and prayers that you continue to have comfort in the Lord's plan.  Bless you dear lady, stephanie...

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  • AnnNYC
    AnnNYC Member Posts: 4,484
    edited August 2008

    Stephanie, I hope you get to take some vacations AND find treatments that will control some of these things.  I am praying that you continue to be replenished with the strength and grace that is yours.

    Love,

    Ann

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2009

    Stephanie, I'm so sorry to read this.  You asked once about an heirloom that you could leave your children and I know you were thinking of something of a material nature.  I guess you didn't realize that the heirloom you are leaving for your children is your amazing faith.  That's a legacy that is priceless.

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  • 2timer
    2timer Member Posts: 590
    edited August 2008

    Your attitude, even with the anger and frustration is simply amazing.  You are a brave woman.  If I were in your shoes, I'd be in a fetal position but you are looking this disease square in the eye and telling it to go to h*ll!  BC is a "heartless coward".  I hope the doctors tell you they've found another treatment option, but whatever they tell you, you seem like you can handle it.  I truly envy your faith Stephanie, it's just too dogone bad that it has to be tested in such a manner.  Perhaps you can still do the weekend getaway?  Or at least do something fun.  I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this.

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  • TripleNeg
    TripleNeg Member Posts: 836
    edited August 2008

    God is able! The doctor says that the protrution from my chest is not related to breast cancer. The bone scan came back clean! The liver is stable! The lungs are stable and the raised bumps around my incision he doesn't seem concerned about (not a rash)! I'm going back on Xeloda and will take immodium to address the problems I encountered. I asked my doctor why they transcribed it as "clavicle protrution nodule" and he says he wasn't sure but that the bone scan was clean! Truly, God is able! I feel encouraged again. Sorry for the drama post this morning. I was sure I was going to have to stop chemo. I need to practice what I preach. I've learned that having faith is a journey not a desintation. Thanks for your positive vibes and prayers! God is able, stephanie

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2009

    Hurray!  That is wonderful news, Stephanie.

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  • AnnNYC
    AnnNYC Member Posts: 4,484
    edited August 2008

    I posted on your other thread, but I am SO-O-O-O-O happy to hear this, let me say it again! YAY!!!!!!!!!!

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  • zschweeb
    zschweeb Member Posts: 160
    edited August 2008

    what a wonderful thing to hear!!!! it is truly inspiring to hear you talk about your faith..gives me alot to think about!!!!

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  • MtnMama
    MtnMama Member Posts: 133
    edited August 2008

    I'm so happy to see this news!!!

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  • 2timer
    2timer Member Posts: 590
    edited August 2008

    YAY!!!!  I am so happy for you Stephanie.

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  • bonny1963
    bonny1963 Member Posts: 450
    edited August 2008

    Steph, I am so happy for you.  Prayers are being answered daily.  I thank God for answering these about you and I thank God for you.  You are such an inspiration.  Still praying special prayers for you and yours.  Enjoy your week-end.  Love ya, Bonny

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  • spar2
    spar2 Member Posts: 6,827
    edited August 2008

    Praise God. So very happy for you.

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  • Carol1220
    Carol1220 Member Posts: 402
    edited August 2008

    Steph,

    What wonderful news for you.  Hang in there! Carol 

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  • Kayree
    Kayree Member Posts: 466
    edited August 2008

    Stephanie,

    You are so right---God is able!  You truly are an inspiration to others.  It is so good to hear that your faith is carrying you through this ordeal and that you seek comfort in God's promise for his children.  I'm happy that you have rec'd good news and will continue to pray for God's grace for you and your family.  Karen  

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  • ozzie2
    ozzie2 Member Posts: 1,271
    edited August 2008

    Steph wow what wonderful news.. this is sooooooooo pleasing to read.. GOD IS ABLE

    you go girl and know that GOD is holding your hand...

    hugs and prayers

    oz

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  • Jenniferz
    Jenniferz Member Posts: 541
    edited August 2008

    I haven't posted to your threads before, but have been watching them, and saying prayers for you .The emotional rollercoaster that you must be on is amazing....and you handle all of this with such grace.  I think that God and his angels all have their arms wrapped around you and your family.

    Many prayers coming to you and your family,

    Jennifer

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  • slonedeb
    slonedeb Member Posts: 562
    edited August 2008

    steph so glad to hear your god news seems like we are getting the same stoff happening to us but the lump on my chest is cancer and it is as big as your fist it is interfering with my breathing and i have some fluid in my chest my tumor markers went up another 500  to 1820 steph ive had a rough 2 weeks ive been so sick but i am holding to gods hand and praying for all you lovely ladies on this board so steph hang in there and know god loves you hope you get to take that vacation  i love you dear sister deb from ky

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  • celia088
    celia088 Member Posts: 2,570
    edited August 2008

    Stephanie, that is really great news!!  I am so happy to hear this.  I hope you do get to go on vacation!  Best wishes to you!

    celia 

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  • jdash
    jdash Member Posts: 754
    edited August 2008

    stephanie  soo sooo happy your great news  xoxoxox

    julia

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  • dalycity
    dalycity Member Posts: 248
    edited August 2008

    Dear Stephanie: We are so very happy to hear your good news! I am reaching into the computer to give you a big fat HUG!!

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  • Traci-----TripNeg
    Traci-----TripNeg Member Posts: 2,298
    edited August 2008

    (((((((((((((((((((((Stephanie)))))))))))))))

    (((((((((((((((((((((((Deb)))))))))))))))))))))))

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  • Yogi70
    Yogi70 Member Posts: 654
    edited August 2008

    I was just now reading this whole thread, at first I had tears in my eyes because I was hurting for you now they are tears of happiness for you, Stephanie.  God is able.  (((HUG)))

    Yogi

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  • HeatherBLocklear
    HeatherBLocklear Member Posts: 1,370
    edited August 2008

    Oh Steph, what fantastic news. Yes, things will be fine.

    Love,

    Annie

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  • Monique42
    Monique42 Member Posts: 105
    edited August 2008

    Oh Stephanie, Praise God, praise the Lord, I was crying my eyes out and saying a prayer for you. Then I read your second postion and I was praise God for you, Thank you for the wonderful miracle.  Keep positive Steph and keep Him near your heart.

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  • mrs_X_Sunneedazee
    mrs_X_Sunneedazee Member Posts: 541
    edited August 2008

    Stephanie,

    Every time I read one of your posts I am amazed at your strength and your faith.  Your positive attitude and faith radiates from you and gives us all so much hope.

    I pray that you will continue to have peace, and that your treatments will be kind to you, and mean to the cancer.   

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  • Godsgal
    Godsgal Member Posts: 203
    edited December 2008

    Oh Stephanie, 

    God is able... your faith is so powerful.. you are my hero.. Bless you my dear sister,  bless you !!!

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  • Reneepals
    Reneepals Member Posts: 2,196
    edited December 2008

    God is really able! See stephanie your words are working miracles..... Lets thank god for his  favor in your life! Our devine healer! WOoHOO!

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