please help

Makratz

You ladies are funny tonight.  Love all the pictures and poems.  You are very talented.

Excellent Advice Barb!!  That's my plan too, although I have my appointments in August.  I will have fun at th ebeach until then!

barbe1958

EWWWWWWWWWWW! I saw the group hug picture, now that I'm home! That is just nasty! If anything like that came near me, I'd flash him and scare him away! I don't like muscle bound bodies....

Cathi, I love the poem you wrote, I love about the ink drying...kind of like it's past, it's over, it's set and you don't have to worry or deal with it, just move on. I know you wrote it meaning you have no chance to change it, but I felt like interpreting it differently

The other poem was beautiful too! You have to wonder what people are thinking of when they write them. I used to hate when English teachers would ask, 'What do you think the author is saying here?' And then when you tell the teacher what you think, you're wrong! Doi !

I guess I should go to bed...nite all.

geebung

Is anyone here taking a vitamen D supplement? Got my blood test back & am mildly deficient. It states that normal levels are between 51 and 140. Mine is 46. I'd prefer to just sit in the sun but it's late autumn, raining and cold and the sun probably won't come out for a few days and it will still be cold!

geebung

Cathi, I just read your poem again and I love it. I like simple, non-flowery poetry and it's just right - says it simply yet poignantly.

 Elaine, also re-read the Emerson poem and love the philosophy - very similar to Cathi's. 

barbe1958

Jane, I started taking Vitamin D drops, but then got a cold sore which tells me I've been 'in the sun' too long! hehehehehe Guess my body doesn't need as much...go figure.

Anonymous

Jane, there is a big discussion about vitamin D supplements on the Natural Girls thread in the Alternative, Complimentary and Holistic Forum. 

1Cathi

Jane I take D3 Daily 2000, even with all the Fla sun I was deficient for awhile, like everything there is controvesary, my levels are good now, there are studies that show D3 HELPS with any type of CA- but who really knows.

Barbe you were right on about the poem, I wrote that shortly after DX in 06, It was on a day I was feeling really crappy & sick, a pretty big pity party going on, I wrote alot of emotions down back then (sometimes still do), we were living right on the water then, and it was an absoulutely beautiful day I was out on my lounge chair sitting in the sun drinking tea and I remember just getting mad at myself for not "dealing" with things (I was talking to God a lot that day) - and that day I decided "well this is the plan that was made for me" sooooooooo deal with it and move on.  Wish I could practice what I write 100% of the time - but then that would make me PERFECT (LOL) and I am far from that.

my3girls

Don't we all wish that Cathi?  I think and say things...and only if I could live every day how I think..and say..but I don't!  Barbe..I love the idea..of letting God..take the helm. I read from a little book everyday..it's called "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young...it's awesome. Great readings and bible verses. It's funny how, I pick it up to read today's reading..and it hits home.  HE always know what we need!!

Jane, so glad to hear that your mum and sis are home. So, so sorry to hear about your mom and her bootface. Poor sweet thing. At her age...I hope they just keep her comfortable. My mom was 80 when they diag. her with accute luekemia..and it was so bad, there was no way at her age they were going to do anything evasive.  She only lasted about 10 days..but she was comfortable.  She appeared in a dream to my brother just before mothers' day. (sorry if I already shared this...I forget)  She told him, she was happy and pain free!  That was so good to hear, I just wish she would appear to me in a dream.  I love and miss her so.

Prayers for your mum and sis Jane.

Let's enjoy this summer ladies...and try and keep bootface...in the very back, corner of our minds..let's not allow him to invade or ruin anything for us!!! Life is too short!!

Jane...I take extra calcium with D..not sure if that is the same.

Ok..today is "my Friday"...so after today, two days off work.  I am feeling a little more energetic..so hopefully much will be accomplished...ESP. THE SCRAPBOOKING!! Yikes!

I went off of my Arimidex. I see my oc on June 4th..and will discuss with her another AI to put me on...that is milder.  I just couldn't take it anymore.  Too many bad s/e's.

Back to work..check in with you ladies later.

love and hugs to all

xoxo

Lisa

1Cathi

Jane  - here is one of the articles I have saved about Vitamim D3, take it for what it's worth at this time, I expect just like with anything else (IE - Soy) in a few years we will hear it's bad for us,

cme.medscape.com/viewarticle/552033 - 58k 

"Sexy is Defined by Attitude" - "Not Bra Size!" **** Bilat Mastectomy 10/17/08 No Recon
Dx 6/25/2006, ILC, 1cm, Stage I, Grade 1, 0/6 nodes, ER+/PR+

Anonymous

Barb

Too much Vit D can cause cold sores??? I hadnt ever heard that before....I dont take it yet but they put my mom on it because she was extremely deficient...I was surprised as she spends more time outside in the sun than I do and Im out there ALOT.

Cathi-I hope that if I have to make a decision about those type things that I will be as wise as my dad was.....time and circumstances sure have a way of changing our minds doesnt it? I was so angry at dad at first but as time went on then I was dx'd I can see his reasoning behind no further testing/treatment after they told us it was so far advanced.

Jane-sorry to hear of whats been happening for your family....

Lisa-if I were to be faced with one of those guys in the pic I would RUN!!!!!! My David is 6' 1" and about 180 lbs. He's one of those no butt guys too, but I think what he has is extremely cute!

The poetry you ladies have posted and written is wonderful!!!!

Judy-Where are you??????

I know I miss alot of you when I post and Im sorry, but we all know how that goes....

I have a 6 month follow up with onco the 29th and am starting to feel the stress level climbing....I skipped my last mammo so I know he is going to insist this time and it scares me silly as everytime I have one of those nasty things it lands me in surgery....I just wanna move forward and I cant do that if something shows up everytime I have testing....I think the head in the sand is a great place to be!!!!!

Well anyway, enough of the whining, wish me luck for my appt and ensuing tests as I dont think I can talk him out of them this time....and I know I really shouldnt for my own sake.....sure makes me understand why some of you ladies choose to do pbm's....

Hugs to all

Jule

1Cathi

Jule . good wishes with the Onco and Mammo,  I don't think I had but one 3/mo follow-up before MX where they did not find "something", all in all after the BC DX and limpectomy I had 8 other biopsies done and 2 were excisional - UGH It was awful, I truly feel your anxiety.

Anonymous

Thank you Cathi......I get so very stressed in the weeks before a follow up...and as the days tick off and get closer I get really bad....no eat, sleeplessness the whole 9 yards all over again

Although I try to keep the good side of all this up front in my mind....I have gained what I call "thunder thighs" this past year so the no eating part isnt all bad....

I keep telling David (jokingly of course) that I want to grow up to see what a 5' woman looks like at 300 lbs!!!!    NOT, NOT, NOT!!!!!!!!! I weigh more now that I did when I was 9 months pregnant with my kids!!!! This is driving my nuts so am on the band wagon to try to get rid of the "thunder"...

Jule

lvtwoqlt

Jule, I am right there with you on the weight gain. but mine is mostly in my belly. My surgeon suggested I consider bilat after my 2nd biopsy in 18 months and when I had my 3rd biopsy 6 months later, I was ready to get off the mammo carousel.

I just found out that the wig bank, I take my yoga class at and the support group meets, now has a web site! www.wigbank.org There is a picture of our beautiful house and it talks about what goes on there. They are still working on parts of the site but more will be added. The local high school this year started the graduating Seniors to do a Senior Project. Several Seniors chose doing things for the wig bank as part of their project. A girl, who's family has been touched by cancer, has organized and created at check-out system for the library. Another girl has planted a 'victory herb garden', and 2 or 3 boys are working on the website and video productions of activities at the wig bank. My mom and dad volunteers there every Friday morning. I was excited to hear about the web site.

Sheila

portiasproudmom

I weigh about 20 pounds more now than I did when I was nine months pregnant with both my kids!  Isn't it crazy, Jule??  I just can't lose it, no matter what I do.  I hit a plateau, and stay there.  It's very frustrating!! 

I'll have to check out that website, Sheila.  I think it's really neat how involved you are there.  I didn't realize that it's a wigbank.

Those pics crack me up!!  Rhuel looks more like the fat wrestlers.  He was about 220 or so when we were married (he's 5' 11").  He's gained quite a bit of weight--he won't tell me how much.  I'm guessing he's around 250 now.  My ex is 6' 2" and pretty thin.  He's actually quite good looking.  Too bad he's so shallow and self-centered.  The man is incapable of having a conversation that doesn't revolve around him.  It gets old!

Love and hugs to all,

Karen

portiasproudmom

I'll be sending you positive thoughts when you go for your mammo and onc appt, Jule.  I just about have a panic attack every time too.  Big ((((((((hugs))))))))!!

Makratz

I'm with you guys on the weight gain too.  I also have hit a plateau, THANK GOD!!  I just can't lose any weight.

Jule, sending you more positive thought and prayers.  We all get anxious, but you can do it!!

my3girls

Jule...more positive thoughts your way!! (((((JULE))))))...you can do this girl..and everything is going to come out just fine!! I am with you too on the weight gain.  I would love to lose about 15 lbs...but like everyone else..it's not budging!! I am hoping since I am off the Arimidex...that might help a little bit! Post menapause..stinks!!!

love ya girls!!

xoxo

Lisa

1Cathi

Seems like the "HIPS" (thighs) have it, that is where mine always goes - like I said before ASS BACK,  from all that I have read about menopause the tummy and the hips are the target areas. DAM!!! If I could only find a way to strech my legs to being about 5 inches longer. 

XOXOXOXOXOX -Cathi

geebung

Jule - many prayers and good wishes for your trip to the onc next week. xxx

I'm seeing a natural therapist who is also a gp next week so I'll ask her how much Vit D I should take. Will check out the thread on Vit d.

Weight gain - I used to be super skinny but the weight has crept on over the years - especially since my dx two years ago. Not on any hormonal supplements so I can't blame that. Comfort eating maybe? My dh is tall & thin and can eat anything - not fair!

Lisa - hope you have a relaxing weekend and get lots of scrapbooking done.

Sheila - you and your family & friends are fantastic to be so involved and supportive re the wig bank. I must check out the website.

I'm jumping on a train soon so must rush. I'm visiting my sons & coming back here tomorrow.

Love to everyone,

Jane

my3girls

Cathi..if you figure that "STRETCH" out...let me in on the secret.  I remember you saying the ASSBACK...it's so true...just keeps expanding! I hate any rolls that you see from behind..where the jeans are..at the top..and there is a little muffin top! need to get rid of the muffin!

1Cathi

Oh I like that - the muffin top, hadn't given that a name, maybe thats one men have over us when they get older  - thats why they wear their pants up to their nipples with a belt  - so no muffin top shows

Makratz

You guys are describing me!  Muffin top!....only it's more towards the bottom.  Cathi, I too would like to know how to add 5 inches to my legs.  Let me know too when you figure it out!

barbe1958

Hey, you got me thinking about the sun and cold sores so I went and checked it out with Dr. Google. Sure enough, sun is one of the causes of cold sores. Of course, now we know it isn't the sun, but Vitamin D! Do you think I just made a medical breakthrough?

Anyone want to buy my story for a made-for-TV-movie?

Makratz

Can I star in your movie?

barbe1958

Blonde, thin, boobies....uh, nope.

Makratz

Not blonde, brown, not thin, tamoxifen, A cup on a good day!  Pretty damn flat!

barbe1958

Well then, yes you can star!

Makratz

Barb, I also sport the muffin top now!!  Just like my other friends here!  I can feel it right now hanging over the waist of my jeans. 

barbe1958

Hey,but remember, the top is really the best part of the muffin!

1Cathi

You know what I hate worse than muffin top -  how about the "grapefruit cheek" UGH, when I rode and walked all the time it was not bad at all, now 49 years (almost) and way less exercis - I am gonna have to start wearing knickers to cover up that look - all those dimples.