I can't get my act together and I don't know why

wishiwere

Oh, wanted to mention....my daunt is doing a lot better.  They had called family in from out of town that first night.  She was a little better yesterday and they had her sitting up to wash.  Then today they removed the ventilator and tomorrow she might be out of the ICU.  They'll most likely be putting in a feeding tube, so she doesn't aspirate fluids any more and get pneumonia again.

Anyway....just wanted to say thanks for the prayers and well wishes lady!  SO relieved...at least thus far! 

Anonymous

Harley, CVS sounds like a good job.  And you can get discounts.  You can buy all kinds of stuff.  My dd's MIL buys all kinds of stuff and she works for CVS.  LOL  You passed.  I promise.  After you get the job send the money to wish, k?

Wish, wish I could have a cleaning lady too.  HAHAHAHA!  My dh doesn't do yard work.  He has a good excuse now...bad back and big belly.  But what was his excuse for the last I-don't-know-how-many years?  He has a riding more.  And I AIN'T DOIN IT!  I don't like yard work anyways.  I don't like pulling weeds either.  That's what we have you for, Wish.  Well, I suppose we can wish we had Wish.  You ran a daycare.  Oh, my.  I never wanted to do that.  That's WORK!!!!!  And now you're riding a bike for EXERCISE!  What the _______!

Kerry, geez, when does the "C" word ever go away!!?  I'm sorry about your friend.  Keep us updated.

I haven't gotten my act together today.  Maybe, just maybe, tomorrow...

Harley44

wish,

Glad that your aunt is doing better.  Hope you had a nice bike ride.  I went for a walk/run, but it is already so darn HOT outside, that I walked MOST of the time!! 

Shirley,

Yes, I will send wish some money so she can come and pull weeds for us, but I think that you should split the cost with me.  I'm sure that Wish will give us a special 'TWOfer' rate, right, Wish?

I am still not sure if I passed that silly computer test, because they asked if you agree disagree or strongly agree or strongly disagree.  I got bored with these SAME questions over and over, so at the end, I said that I STRONGLY agree or STRONGLY disagree, when I promised myself that I would only put agree or disagree...  so we'll see...  I DO know that I never said I agreed to the question the FIRST time, and then said disagree the SECOND time they asked the SAME question!!!  It gets annoying, when they keep repeating the SAME questions over and over.  Sure, they try to re phrase the question, to maybe trick you into answering it differently.

Oh, and I went to the local CVS store to inquire about applying for a job, and the woman there said that they need FT people!  I said that FT would be ok, and she even gave me the fax #, so I could fax her my resume.  After I thought about it, I decided that if they want to hire me, it has to be PT, not FT!!  and so I sent her a cover letter, stating that I would try to be 'flexible' with my work hours, to help out when needed.  We'll see what happens.  I'm mostly interested in working at the NEW store that they are building, across from the coffee shop where we hang out, but that won't be open til September.

Guess what else?  I just got a SUMMONS to jury duty in the mail yesterday!  My dh LAUGHED, because he thought it was HILARIOUS!  Now, how am I supposed to EVER start back to work, when I either have a dr. appt., or JURY DUTY??  I am supposed to appear on July 21st, but if I get picked for something, I would have to be there longer, I guess, and I have an onc appt. on July 22nd, so that would be impossible, and I'm not going to try to re schedule that onc appt. 

How am I supposed to ever get anything done, when I have so many people irritating me, asking me to appear in court?  Yes, I know it's our duty, but I DID my jury duty in 1999, shouldn't I be good for at least TEN years?!!

wishiwere

Oh crap!  Lost my post!   Hate when that happens!  UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm too beat to repeat, so hi everyone!

kes

Hi Ladies,

I lost my post also,

Went for my Pre Admit day at the hosp today for my next surgery on July 10/08. The nurse told me that I have had 4 surgeries in less than a year and that I really need to take some time off and be kind to myself. No SH*T SHERLOCK!!!! I am sick of this.

Shirley, I have a bad back and a big belly and I still have to do work around here. How fair is that? Wish ran a home DAYCARE!!! You are a stronger woman than me!!. Forget about the weed pulling maybe you can come over and babysit the DD for me? I pay well. How about it? She is a GEM.

Gotta go ladies, working the next 6 days in a row. I will be a ZOMBIE!!! when this stretch is done.

Take Care All,

Kerry

wishiwere

Kerry, 5 years ago, I would have done it for you in a heart beat.  Now, I'm still debating whether I could return to it or not.  Thought about it, but....Just not there in the heart yet....still....welll, never mind...

YES, Kerry, try to be kind to yourself, working so many days!  Why so many woman?    Danged bosses!

Shirley and Harley.....get the transportation down and I'm there. I can drive, but seriously?  Don't really care to fly and it's probably more expensive than driving now   Besides, this way I can bring MY tools.  I know what you NON-gardners consider tools!  HA!  And I'm pretty sure, checking in a bag with tools sticking out of like handles and seeing those sharp blades on my trimmers, clippers, and such, might be a long wait in the 'cavity search' line and ladies!?  I won't do that LINE for anyBODY! 

Harley?  Have you checked with the office at the court house and explained you have oncology appt and such and WILL NOT be able to miss those as you are a cancer survivor just recovering from all of it?  Perhaps you can get a medical uhmmmmmshooot!  what is that?  Medical....crap..excuse anyway!

sueper13

exemption!

sueper13

Sorry, just had to put the word in there before it got away from my chemobrain...I had chemo yesterday and I have slept just about ever since.  I slept really well last night, went for Neulasta and Aranesp today and slept all day in the recliner.  Lots of nausea, but as long as I stay still it's livable. Got the Emend this time and apparently it's a good thing because I stilll had a lot of nausea. WEIRD.  This whole chemo thing has been different every time. I feel good now and I am thinking I may feel good enough to---wait for it----go to the library tomorrow!!!!  Whoopee!!!!!!!  What has my life come to?  When going to the library is the highlight of my weekend and something, anything can get me out of the recliner for an hour and a half? I know this is temporary, but damn, sometimes I can't help thinking how much has changed forever.  Anyway, trying not to go there. Trying to face the light, not go into the darkness.

Love you guys,

Sue 

wishiwere

EXEMPTION!  THANK YOU!

{{SUE}} Dang, You are sleeping long!  Will you sleep tonight then? I still only sleep in 2 hours stints   hate that!  So sorry you are doing the nausea crap!  hate that too! 

Yes, face the light and keep on trucking lady!  So....how much more of chemo do you have?  Are you in the count down mode? 

I still need to find out where I can send my chemo drugs for recycling.  Someone should be able to use them!   FOr the cost, I just can't throw them out!  

Hanna60978

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sueper13

Hanna, glad to see you back!!!!  You are so welcome, and I love the way you write.   I don't like the new site either, the other way seemed like more fun.  At least they left us the boards, what would that have been like?!?  I want one of those smoothies!!! And when is the yard sale?  My Mom was a yard sale freak, she would buy you a present there and then say, "Know where I got it?  Know what I paid for it?"

Wish, I think i can still sleep, if not I'll just stay up.   I don't have to work tomorrow, so who cares?  But I feel like I will be able to sleep.  I have two more TACs' and then six and a half weeks of radiation.  Had two positive lymph nodes with extracapsular invasion and "abundant lymphatic and vascular invasion" in the breast....so I am doing whatever they tell me to do.  The chemo is hard but I have a lot of help and support (which I am slowly learning to accept). It's a gift and a blessing to find out how many people really care.  Just hope it all works out all right, ya know?

Take care ladies and have a great weekend.

Love,

Sue 

wishiwere

Awwwwww {{Hanna}}, we like you too   Glad you found your way back.  I suppose after I get a life again and find a job, I'll be MIA a bit more too   Sorry about that Gall bladder.  Had that done 3 years ago aug, along with a 7cm ovarian dermoid and a d&c.  No insurance at the time, so I talked them into a 3 fer 1 with the anesthesia.  Took a little longer to recoup, but was worth not going under the knife 2 times and besides, this way they could use most of the holes for the same surgery and not have 10 holes cut into me with separate surgeries.  I look like I've been tortured if you really search for the scars, then add in that mast scar!   UGLY!

 Sue, rest well this weekend dear! You've earned it!  Hope you can sleep tonight too!  Then that library should WATCH out!

Harley44

Wish,

Thanks for the advice about asking for an exemption.  I was wondering why EVERY TIME I have received a note about jury duty, it has always been at a bad time for me.  At least, I didn't get summoned for jury duty LAST YEAR, because I know I NEVER could have done it then.  I was just recovering from my bi-lateral (well, I had that on May 2nd), and spent almost the entire summer debating with my surgeon about whether or not I should get chemo.  Not a fun summer!  I wish I had started sooner, because I would have finished sooner.

Sue,

Enjoy the library tomorrow!  Pamper yourself!  You have been through so much, you need to take a break.   Remember, you only have TWO more chemo txs, and then on to rads!!  You are a very strong woman!!  I'm praying for you, too.  You are very special, and I smile when I read your posts! 

Well, I have to work tomorrow, it's my first time at that "Saturday job".  I hope I can get through it!! 

Have a great weekend, ladies, and ...  NO cleaning!!

Harley 

sueper13

Harley,

Thanks!  Hope your job is one you can like!

Going to try to sleep in my BED for a change..

Night ladies,

Love,

Sue 

Anonymous

S&!+...I just lost my entire post.  Too late to redo. 

I'll just say, Sue, I'm glad you're able to sleep.  I don't know how you work through this.

Harley, good luck on your new job tomorrow.

Nite all,

Shirley

wishiwere

Yes, GOOD LUCK Harley! Try to enjoy it dear and knock em dead!

sueper13

Shirley,

Just for the record, I DON'T work through this!  I take the Thu. of chemo and Fri. off, and the whole next week.  THEN I work a full week, followed by a three-day week which brings me back to chemo day.  Also in those "full" weeks, I take sick leave for any medical appointments I may have.  My onc's office does weekly blood counts and I am seeing a lymphadema therapist once a week. (My dh calls it "Nymphadema"  to which I answer, "you wish"....

Love,

Sue 

kes

Hi Ladies,

I was wide awake until 4am looking after a sick DD. So no work for me today. Will go back tomorrow. DH was working Nights.

Hanna,  Glad that you are back and recovering from gallbladder surgery.

Sue,  Hope that you pamper yourself today. You deserve it.

Harley,  Good luck with the Job.

Wish,  Thanks for the babysitting offer. I am trying to work a lot now because I was off for 2 weeks in June and will be off for 1 week in July for surgery. I am part time and do not get paid when I am off. I used all of my weeks of sick benefits when off for the bilat mast. through the gov't  (Canada)

Take Care All,

Kerry

sueper13

Hey everybody,

My SIL and I went to the library, the fabric store, the grocery store and back home.  She's cooking dinner, and I am starting a sewing project....

It did me good to get out, but I had to take a slight nap in the recliner when we got home.

Just thought I'd check in.  

I did NO cleaning today.

Love,

Sue 

wishiwere

Sounds like a wonderful day, SUE!  You must have gotten good rests the last 2 days to make thorugh a day of shopping!  The fabric store is enough to put me under some days. It's hard to not spend a lot of time there!

{{Kerry}} so sorry you were up all night dear!  Hope dd is doing better today and night.  Is dh home tonight I hope so you can sleep some?  Poor baby, hope she's feelling better.. How old is she?

HARLEY?  How did the new job go?  You need to report in dear

I did not much of anything.  Ran errands, watched the garden grow and the birds fledging and learning how to bath and eat! Watching them bathe the first time is just hysterical! Good think I'm not recovering from surgery like Hanna!  Hope you had a good day recouping hanna!

I did a load of dishes in the d/w just now, but not much more work.OH, did go for a 2 mile bike ride!  IT's really something I look forward to now.  AND best part.  I met a nice lady on the other mile thats' lived there 25 years also, but we never met, b/c we had a field between us.  Now with the new road through the land, we met while walking and biking!  Cool!

sueper13

Hey guys,

Sunday morning and I still feel the chemo blahs from Thursday.  Today I think it's going to be tiredness, and Neulasta pain woke me up at 5 a.m. so I WILL be taking drugs today.  I know this belongs on the chemo thread but I can't get my act together enough to switch.  So there. 

I wanted to go to church this morning but woke with just the slightest sore throat...I guess it could go either way..I'll see how I feel.

Wish, that's great that you finally met that neighbor. I love when that happens.

Kerry, sorry you have to work. But it doesn't count as cleaning.  YOU HAVE NOT CLEANED.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Love,

Sue 

althea

Despite all my best intentions of getting myself kicked off this thread, I'm still a long way from getting my act together.  Even though I've been feeling better since March, my work ethic is still in a coma.  What energy I have I try to steer toward something I enjoy, which lately has been baking.  Gotta have my cookies. 

My goal this month of reviving my work ethic via getting my house clean has a result of my vacuum cleaner moving out of the closet and into the living room, where it sits as I type.  I'm in immediate need of new brakes for my truck.  I'm saying lots of prayers, while trying not to sound desperate, that I will get an influx of several hundred dollars tomorrow so I can get my truck back out of the shop. 

I was watching Oprah on Friday where three authors were describing how to get what we want in life, and they said it works against us to sound desperate.  So, help me have faith ladies, that I my needs will be met.  I feel like that moment in the star trek episode where the transporters are broken and captain kirk is about to be trounced by the enemy.  Beam me up Scotty.  ...NOW would be a very good time to beam me up.  

sueper13

Althea,

I think that whole "it doesn't work if you sound desperate" thing works against us--we can't help how we feel.  I will believe with you that your needs will be met.  You don't have to feel a certain way to deserve to have your needs met.

Enjoy your sudden, unexpected influx of funds this week.

Keeping faith WITH YOU,

Sue 

Hanna60978

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otter

I can't quite seem to get my act together, so I'd like to apply for membership in this thread (or is it a "topic" now?).  Here's my resume':

1) I finished chemo 3 wks ago but never got around to buying a wig--mostly due to laziness, I've decided.   Just too much trouble, and it's way easier to go around bald-bald at home or with a scarf or ball cap everywhere else.

2) The living room is cluttered with stuff from my BC treatments:  a portfolio containing my med records and treatment protocols, a stack of medical articles I printed out, a book of Sudoku puzzles for long waits, a calendar with all my medical appts, a half-deflated balloon my dh gave me when I was in the hospital, the blankets and pillows I used when sleeping on the sofa (OK, they're folded), etc.

3) My dh gave up, so he cleans all the bathrooms in the house.

4) When I start feeling guilty about not cleaning, I resort to sweeping the floors.  Almost all the rooms have ceramic tile or hardwood.  Sweeping makes me feel like I've accomplished something, because I always end up with a pile of dirt from very little effort.

5) I make the bed most mornings, but "making the bed" consists of pulling the covers up over the pillows and walking away.

6) I only do our laundry when I run out of underwear, and I have a pretty good supply of underwear.  If my dh runs out in-between, he washes what he needs or goes to WalMart.

7) I have finally resumed cooking, but only part-time.  My dh did almost all the serious cooking during my 12 wks of chemo.  Mostly I didn't eat much, but there were times when I felt good and he cooked a terrific meal.  Now, we fix meals together mostly.  Some days I threaten to cook "chicken noodle soup and Prilosec," which is a hint that I'm not feeling so good and I'd like him to take over.

I am fortunate to be retired and not responsible for the care of any children or pets.  And, no, I won't trade my dh for anything.  He's priceless.

otter

Hanna60978

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gsg

Hi, Otter:

 On behalf of the rest of the pigs in this thread, I wish to welcome you to slobkin-land.  In spite of your folded blankets and occasional sweeping, the part where your husband has to occasionally go buy clean underwear at Wal-Mart made your membership here a slam-dunk.  Feel free to push the newspapers and last night's empty ice cream bowls out of the way, sit down and do nothing with us.

 Patrice

wishiwere

Welcome to slobbery anonymous or known I suppose we are.  I hope no one comes in and reads and talks about us elsewhere   J/K, Like I care anyone knows my house is fifthy!    I don't, surely, or I'd do something about it!

Hanna!  Please dear, be careful not to do what you are you are NOT supposed till you are given the okay.  I've heard and seen a lot pain associated with someone overdoing it after surgery and getting....oh crap...there's that word loss again!  Shoot...Where the organs attached to one another....what ever...the mind is simply shot! Why do I try is what I keep wondering now

 I hurt tonight on my bike ride.  WHY?  I could barely make the first the 1/2 mile let alone the rest of them. what's up with that?  Anyone exercise that knows the answer, pleae tell me?  IS this suppose to happen 2 weeks into? I was doing great, but I seriously did NOT think I could make the run.  My thighs were killng me, I was panting and short of breath.  NEver had this before?  I mean, yeah....tired thighs, but not this!  Anyone? 

Harley44

Sorry I have not been around over the weekend...

The new job...  I am the Arrival Hostess, for the Sunset Properties condos on Ocean Isle Beach.  I have 7 properties that I have to inspect after they have been cleaned by Housekeeping.  I get a cell phone call telling me that they are clean.  Then I go inspect, and call from the house phone.  If everything is ok, I enter a code.... Then when the renters arrive, there is a tag on the door, telling them my cell # and they call me.  I go back and let them in, and give them the key.  Sounds pretty simple, right?  Well, they wrote the WRONG phone number on EVERYTHING, and NO ONE could call me all day!!  It was strange, because I DID get SOME calls...  Then we had a strange family arrive AT 5:30, when I was supposed to be gone for the day!! 

I guess I'll go back next week, but I am hoping that another job opportunity will show up soon! 

Today, I had to go to the dentist!   YICK!!!

Sorry I haven't had a chance to read any posts!! 

Harley

wishiwere

Harley~  What a slow first day hey? I'm surprised NO else noticed the problem earlier! What did the people do when they wanted to look at them? OR are they coming in to stay at the properties?  Guess it's easy to confuse me tonight!

Just finished rolling over $600 in coins tonight tonight for dd at her house!  Oh my!  What fun! NOT! I'd forgotten what it was like to wait table and throw your change in a jar and watch it add up!  Maybe I should wait table again!   UGH!  With this bum arm, lopsided body and butch haircut,  I'd be lucky to get the hostess job!  Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...I should be on the moan site tonight

So glad you are over your first day.  Have you heard about your TVUS last week yet? And how did it go at the dentist!  I do NOT want to hear who much damage chemo did to my mouth yet...later for that trip